Puzzle pieces #SoCs for 18th Sept. 2021

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is puzzle. Use it any way youd like!
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I am a puzzle
With pieces that don’t fit
Every way you try
You will get nowhere with it
The whole picture is not shown
On the box or its lid
And I hate to tell the truth
I’ve been this way since I was a kid
Absorbed in the puzzle
I lose all track of time
Anxiety overtakes me
As though I’ve committed a crime
Is it wrong to be more than one
The puzzle pieces scatter on the floor
As I turn over the table and run for the door
I am running scared
Trying to get away
The pieces fall to the ground
And stay where they lay
Some of the pieces overlap
While others are alone
When I look at the pieces
I am chilled to the bone
How will I ever put together
All that is broken
When all I have to go on
Are secrets that are spoken
These are my only clues
To the misfit puzzle pieces here
And I am half way out the door
Denial in its most sincere
Left on the floor in disarray
The pieces try to call to me
I turn my back on them
Why can’t they just leave me be
I walk back to the table
And turn it right side up
I gather all the puzzle pieces
Making my hand like a cup
They shower down on to the table
And I vow to give it one more try
But I don’t know where to begin
I can only ask why

Written In July 2013