swirling and spinning
quickly downward
nothing to grip onto
the hole seems endless
yet i have a sense of rock bottom
and i think im about to hit it
i brace myself for the collision
but i am tugged away by voices
my mind can’t prepare
and combat hallucinations
enter the flashbacks
on top of the voices
memories stabbing my heart
suddenly i hit the ground
the fall is hard
my arms out to brace myself
now bleed in a self injurious way
this is the bottom
its a familiar place
i’ve been here many times before
and i know that unless i get help
the right sort of help
i’ll be here again
Carol anne age 19
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