I FEEL SAD DONT KNOW WHATS UP WITH ME TONIGHT I JUST FEEL BAD TONIGHT FEEL INSECURE AND DEPRESSED SAD AND ALONE NUMB AND EMOTIONAL ALL AT ONCE IT SUCKS I HATE IT I WISH I COULD TURN OFF MY FEELINGS I WOULD REALLY LOVE IT IF I COULD DO THAT BUT I CANT I JUST HAVE TO GRIN AND BEAR IT I GUESS I WISH WE COULD TALK TO JESS THATS CAROL ANNES PARTNER I WANT TO KNOW HOW SHE IS SHE IS STILL IN RESIDENTIAL IN A FACILITY BUT SHE HAS HER PHONE TURNED OFF AND WE TRIED RINGING THE PATIENT PHONE BUT NOBODYS ANSWERING IT SO WE HAVENT TALKED TO HER IN A FEW MONTHS AND WE MISS HER IN FACT I MISS HER WHOLE SYSTEM SHES MULTIPLE TOO ANYWAY OH WELL WHAT DO YOU DO NOTHING I GUESS BETTER GO TAKE MY MEDS NOW
Today the prompt over at what if we all cared is, sleeping in the park!
Lucky for me I’ve never had to sleep rough. Never had to sleep on a park bench on the street. I feel so lucky that I havent ever had to do this.
My cousin is not so lucky. He sleeps rough. He is a heroin addict. He has a hard life, I used to be close to him when we were kids, but now I’m very scared of him.
Scared because he steals, he hurts people, he doesnt think, all he cares about is drugs, and where he gets his next fix.
It must be such a sad existence. I think to be homeless must be one of the worst things ever, the sad thing is he has a home, but he cant live there because of his drug addiction. His dad refuses to let him stay, I can see why.
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hi everyone 😀
i guess i slept ok. not great, just ok.
i went off to bed around 2 AM. i did fall asleep almost right away, but i tossed and turned a lot in the night.
i woke twice, and ended up going to th e kitchen for a drink.
i finally woke for good around 7 because nitro was whining to go out.
so i got up, fed him and let him out. and now he’s happy again.
feeling kinda emotional this morning, no clue why that is, just feel a sense of deep sadness.
my body feels heavy and i feel like i could burst into tears at any second.
maybe things will get better as the day progresses.
I AM IN TEARS RIGHT NOW I CANT STOP CRYING I FEEL SO LOW I WISH I COULD BE HAPPY I HURT I JUST HURT EVERYTHING JUST FEELS SOOO BAD…
IM NOT OK. NOT DOING WELL AT ALL TONIGHT. FEEL SO SUICIDAL. TRYING NOT TO BE A DEBBIE DOWNER BECAUSE WE ARE ON VACATION AND I KNOW THE REST OF THE SYSTEM ARE ALL HAVING FUN. IM NOT THOUGH. I CANT SEEM TO ENJOY MYSELF. THE DEPRESSION IS JUST TOO BAD. I FEEL TOO SHITTY. MY MOOD JUST IS AWFUL AND I FEEL VERY LOW. A BLACK CLOUD HANGS OVER ME. I HATE IT. IT IS SUCH AN AWFUL FEELING. WHEN WE GET HOME IM DEFINITELY GOING TO TALK TO EILEEN IN THERAPY ON MONDAY ABOUT HOW I FEEL. IM SURE SHE’LL HAVE GOOD SUGGESTIONS FOR ME. THIS HAS GONE ON NOW FOR ALMOST 2 WEEKS. I FEEL LIKE CRAP. AND I HATE FEELING THAT WAY.
HOW MANY TIMES WILL IT TAKE…TO GET IT RIGHT?
LOVET HIS SONG FROM GLEE…
LISTEN TO IT, THE LYRICS, THEY HAUNT ME…
i miss eileen already. its not even been a whole day since i saw her.
i dont want a therapy break. i want to go to session next week.
i hate therapy breaks.
they suck. i wish i had got a hug from her today.
just feeling sad and scared. i hate night time.
allie age 9