lissy

it bes so skary i so skard
i wroted eileen
i teled her i am skard
i holdin my buny rabit
her name is cupcake
i love her shes so soft
i liks her long floppy ears
i am four
i wish ican get a hug frum eileen
i miss her and her ofice
i wants go there
i no like the night time
i no lik da dark
i am sad and skard
lissy 4

I lost one of my clients today

I had some sad news today. I was working and making my calls, I had a new list of clients to call this week, so I got to one lady, we’ll call her R. I rang R’s number, and her son answered. He told me R passed away yesterday. She’d been very sick for a long time, and she’d been in hospital for about a year, but he said she came home last Tuesday from the hospital. She died peacefully at home. It was a huge shock. R was so lovely. She loved the chat and would always look forward to our call every day. I felt so sad upon hearing the news. I spoke a little to her son and told him what a character she was. I think he felt better talking to me. I told him I’d tell the supervisor and that she’d be in touch. Its going to be a big loss. I felt so sad all day after hearing this news. It really shook me up. Its part of my job, I mean its happened before that clients have passed away, and it never gets any easier to hear it. I hope R is at peace now. I’ve been thinking about her all afternoon, she’s been in my thoughts and I said a prayer for her family and especially her son who I spoke to today. Its just so so hard to lose one of my clients. It made Monday very hard for me.

mia: I wand tak tu eileen but i dint getta do it

it mia i bes 3
i wand tak to eileen
she said we hada stay wif tha adults tho
dat shes holdin tha kids in her mind
but i don kno wut dat meens
i wand tak to her
tel her bowt stuf
how im feling
not haf ta sta wif tha adults
adults ar stupid
i wand tu hav tim tu tak
it no fair
i misin her now
i rilly misses her
it hurts
mia 3

LIZ WITH SOME POETRY

DID YOU EVER FEEL
THE WORLD SPIN
AS YOU LIE THERE
BEGGING THE DARKNESS NOT TO SWALLOW YOU WHOLE
BEGGING FOR THE PAIN TO END
BUT DARKNESS
DARKNESS IS MY CONSTANT FRIEND
IT ENVELOPES ME
TAKES ME IN ITS CLAWS
AND SWALLOWS ME UP
THEN SPITS ME OUT
LEAVING ME FLOUNDERING
LEAVING ME UNABLE TO COPE
PAIN IS ALL I KNOW
THE PAIN OF MENTAL TORTURE
OF DISSOCIATION AND FLASHBACKS
OF HORRIFIC MEMORIES
THAT LEAVE ME GASPING FOR BREATH
AS I TRY NOT TO CRY
BUT I NEVER SUCCEED
ALWAYS ALWAYS
I’M IN FLOODS OF TEARS
AS I LIE HERE IN THE DARKNESS
JUST WISHING FOR AN END