Tossing and turnning all night

I only got a little sleep. I started watching tv at around 11 last night, and I got hooked on some shows. I probably shouldnt have, but I was watching crimes that shook britain, it was an old episode which I hadnt seen, it wasnt creepy or too triggery so I decided to stay up and watch it, that show started at midnight, and lasted for an hour. Then I was flicking channels for a while. I was going to watch sex sent me to the ER on discovery home and health but then the tiredness overtook me. I turned off the tv and fell asleep. I did have a few crazy dreams, but mostly what kept waking me up was my cough. It was horrible and I kept having to get up to get a drink. At around 4 AM I was feeling hungry so I ate a banana. I did manage to go back to sleep for about another hour, but at 6:30 I gave up and got up. Had to see to nitro and now he’s fed and was outside, I have a little time to spare before I need to get ready to go to therapy. I’m thinking I probably shouldnt go into work today. It wouldnt be fair to go in and pass my germs around the office. I’ll ring my supervisor later on this morning to let her know. It will give me the morning once I am back home to finish off my assignment for college. I literally have 400 words left to write and its done. I’ll be oh so glad when its finished. Completed and handed in! Uploaded to canvas! What a relief that will be!


Got the results of my smear test back!

The nurse from my gp’s practice just called me. She had good news! My results of my smear test are back and everything is normal! Thank god! I am so relieved!
They are still going to refer me to a clinic to have my cervix looked at, since I bled after the test, and they want to make sure that nothings going on to make that happen.
I’ll be waiting a few weeks for an appointment! I dont really want to go to be looked at, but I’ll go, because its caring for my body, and I’d rather be safe than sorry.
I’m really relieved though that all is good with the smear! Thats a huge relief!



Eileen is better, yay! We texted her this morning, and she texted back and said she’s doing better, feeling better.

The kids are thrilled! They’d wanted to send her a text last night, but I said no. I thought she was probably too sick to get a text, and I was thinking she might not be in the mood for the kids so I wouldn’t allow them to text her.

So this morning they were like, lets text her! So we did!

She offered us a session tomorrow, but I couldn’t take it, as I have college at the time she offered us. I texted her and said I could do Thursday, but I don’t know if she can, but if she cant, its ok.

I’m just happy she’s feeling better again!

Its such a relief to know she’s ok!

Finally, my wasp problem is going to be fixed!

I just had a call from a local pest control place. The housing authority is going to pay to have my wasp issue sorted, and my neighbours also. Thank god! I am beyond happy about this. The guy from the pest control place said he will come out this afternoon. I am not home right now, and so I asked him if that matters, he said no. He said he’s going to spray the area and hopefully get at the nest. I told him my neighbour had been spraying with powder, as he said that is what he will use, but that she wasnt able to see th e nest. He said its probably in a vent, or behind the wood paneling on our windows. He asked me if the sun beats down on that area, and yes, it does. So he said thats why they’re there, heat draws them. Plus, I also have a big tree in my garden, with lots of flowers on it. After this is done, I think its time to cut it down! Anyway, thankfully he’ll be out this afternoon and he’ll sort it. And hopefully they’ll all be dead soon. He said within a matter of hours, they’d all be dead. I am happy the local city council is paying. I’m glad they did that. We thought they might not. But we’re renting from them, so its up to them to fix the problem. And I’m glad they will now. What a relief!


college worry all sorted

So I’ve sorted out about my presentation. Remember I said we wouldnt be able to do it? Because of being in england at our cousins funeral?
Well, I had emailed two of my lecturers, the one whose teaching us and marking the presentations and also I had emailed my course coordinator. They hadnt gotten back to me.
Then this morning by chance, the coordinator was actually there. She was teaching us today. So I mentioned to her that I wasnt going to be there next week, I explained why, and she said that was fine, that I could do my presentation the following week.
I am so relieved! I was thinking I may lose out of marks, and get a lower grade, the presentation is worth 25 percent of the grade for the entire module. So I am glad I can now do it on the following week. Thats a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders.
And one less thing to be worrying about. She said she had emailed me back, but I never got it. She told me to text her rather than emailing, as she answers texts quicker.
Good to know I guess.
I’m just glad its all sorted now. What a relief!



and with a heavy heart
I fall apart
Dont trust myself
Dont trust no one else
Feeling misunderstood
Falling in a heap
On to the floor
Screams echo all around me
And i can finally see
I am lost
Lost in a sea
of tears and fears
Feeling so helpless
Unable to do anything
That will bring
Sweet relief
Its all I want, and need

Update on mom

so turns out mom is gonna be ok, thank goodness.
they ran tests in the ER, she had a chest x ray and some bloods taken to see if there was a clot in her lungs. there wasnt. and the doctor said the x ray showed no signs of infection in the lungs either.
he told her she shouldnt have tried to go out this afternoon to get groceries, that she should have stayed home and rested after seeing the gp.
anyway, he said he’d send her an apt to go to the COPD outreach clinic, that will take about a week to organise.
So in the meantime he told her to contine to religiously take her inhalers, and also she is to finish her course of steroids.
I’m so glad she’s ok. Thank you for all of the prayers and kind thoughts you sent earlier today. They were very appreciated.
carol anne