Finally got in touch with my partner

so some of you know I’ve been trying to contact my partner jess for a while now. She is in a long term residential psychiatric facility in Illinois. She’s been there for 3 years. I wasn’t able to get in touch with her lately, the phones were not being answered. Finally tonight I was able to talk to her.
She’s doing well. She has been ill, she had chicken pox and was in isolation for a week. I had sent a card which she never got. I don’t know why or what happened to it!
She said she’d sent me a letter by snail mail, but I never got it either. Wonderfing now where our mail is going!
She told me she’s started with a new therapist. She likes her which is good. Her old therapist retired, she’d been seeing her for 21 years, she retired and never even said goodbye to her.
Jess has did also like me. She’s not blind though, she’s sighted.
Anyway. It felt so good to talk to her. I am glad I got to do that tonight. We feel a lot better now knowing she’s ok.
I can go to bed happy in the knowledge that she’s safe, and doing well.
carol anne

My partner!

i cant sleep. i’ve been thinking about my partner jess, whose currently residing in a psychiatric residential facility, a long term care facility. she’s been there for a couple of years. and i havent heard from her in a few months. so i decided to call her tonight. i couldnt reach her on the residents phone line. so i rang the main reception and the person who took my call said that they were cleaning the dining room right now so she told me to call back in 30 minutes. so i will. i really would like to talk to her and check up on her and make sure she’s ok. i miss her tons lately. its so hard not talking to her on a regular basis. like we used to. we used to talk every day numerous times a day when she wasnt in the psych facility, we’d spend hours on the phone or we’d email a lot back and forth to one antoher. i hope she doesnt think i dont think of her or that i dont care. i do care very much. its just so hard. so hard when half the time the residents phone isnt answered. hoping i can get through to her in a little while. fingers crossed. I’ll be so happy if i do.
carol anne


100 days of healing. Day 1

today, I bonded some with my mom. Our relationship hasnt always been the best mother daughter kind of relationship. WE’ve struggled to maintain a positive relationship over the years.
its gotten a lot better though these last 3 or 4 years. for that I am so grateful.
today we spent quality time together talking, laughing, and most importantly having fun. And I know she is there for me no matter what, she cares, she loves me like a mom should.
Thanks, mom. I love you