it’s knowing how hard life can be
and knowing before the age of three
its being rejected before you can speak
and living by it week by week
no hugs, no tickles, no high fives
nothing to show you exist, your alive
you cant be stirred from your bed
you are trying to get the nighttmare out of your head
its allie. and i am sad. i was watching the rugrats movie, and at the end there is this song, its called i want a mom that will last forever. look it up on youtube. its a sad song, well its sad to me. because even though we have a bio mom, she doesnt love me, she never has, never will, not for me allie, she might love shirley, the body. i’m sure she does. but she doesnt love me. and that hurts. it hurts so much. it makes me so so very sad. it makes me mad too. but mostly it makes me very sad. all i’ve ever wanted from my mom is for her to recognise me, see me for me. and love me. but she wont. she cant. she is in denial about us all. she doesnt like that we’re mentally ill. even when dr. barry told her all about us and our diagnosis, she still didnt really accept it. she never asked us any questions. i wish i could change who she is. i wish i could make her ask questions. but i cant. and it just makes me sad. i feel rejected. hurt and abandoned and unloved and rejected.
allie, age 9
The more we embrace who we are as people and rely less on our physical attributes, the more empowered we become. Beauty shouldn’t be so easily defined. It is limitless.
Cara Delevingne, rejecting society’s standard of beauty, on Instagram
When you give yourself permission to communicate what matters to you in every situation you will have peace despite rejection or disapproval. Putting a voice to your soul helps you to let go of the negative energy of fear and regret.
Shannon L. Alder