i want to hurt myself
and tell the world you did it
i want to scream “i’m in pain””
but i never could admit it
i want to take all the hate
you put into my heart
i want to write it all on paper
and rip it all apart
i want to look at you with disgust
the way you looked at me
i want to hold up a mirror
so you can see what i had to see
i want to go back in time
and put up quite a fight
i want to be the one to win
but you keep me caged in fright
i want to be the one in control
and watch you shrink to the floor
i want to keep on hurting you
long after you scream “no more””
i want to watch you as a child
helpless and alone
i want to make you know
all the troubles that i’ve known
i want to make you yearn
for a love you’ll never get
i want to watch you run
into arms that pose a threat
i want to make you keep secrets
that made me go inside
i want to make you create
the only ones in whom you can confide
i want to take just one day
when our roles could be reversed
i want to make you hold the pain
and know that it’s the worst
i want to know that you understand
what your actions have done
i want to insure that in the future
your behaviors effect none
i want to warn the world
all you’re capable of
i want to ban you from showing
your insincere kind of love
i want to but i can’t
and there’s only one thing to say
i want to let you know
that everyone has a judgement day
