To all of our abusers, Judgement day

i want to hurt myself

and tell the world you did it

i want to scream “i’m in pain””

but i never could admit it

i want to take all the hate

you put into my heart

i want to write it all on paper

and rip it all apart

i want to  look at you with disgust

the way you looked at me

i want to hold up a mirror

so you can see what i had to see

i want to go back in time

and put up quite a fight

i want to be the one to win

but you keep me caged in fright

i want to be the one in control

and watch you shrink to the floor

i want to keep on hurting you

long after you scream “no more””

i want to watch you as a child

helpless and alone

i want to make you know

all the troubles that i’ve known

i want to make you yearn

for a love you’ll never get

i want to watch you run

into arms that pose a threat

i want to make you keep secrets

that made me go inside

i want to make you create

the only ones in whom you can confide

i want to take just one day

when our roles could be reversed

i want to make you hold the pain

and know that it’s the worst

i want to know that you understand

what your actions have done

i want to insure that in the future

your behaviors effect none

i want to warn the world

all you’re capable of

i want to ban you from showing

your insincere kind of love

i want to but i can’t

and there’s only one thing to say

i want to let you know

that everyone has a judgement day