Prayers needed, I found a small lump on Nitro

I am so worried. I was petting Nitro and I found a small lump on him. On his right side, near his shoulder, On the side of his body, its small and round and its moving, it doesnt seem to be hurting him, he seems fine, he’s not yelping or he doesnt seem to be in pain with it. I was just stroking him and I found it. Of course the minute I found it my mind went into overdrive. I was thinking all sorts. I’m going to take him to the vets first thing on Monday morning. I’ll cancel therapy to go with him.
I hope its nothing serious. My friend said it could be a fatty lump. I hope thats all it is. If its anything else I’m going to be so upset. My baby, my boy, he’s 9 now, almost 9.5 so he’s getting older and of course with age he’s going to get illnesses.
Please pray guys. Pray for me that its only something small and not serious.
I cant lose him, I just cant lose him.

I’m raging

I am so mad right now! I’m absolutely fuming.

I was going home from my parents to my own house. My mom and aunt were both coming with me. So I rang my usual taxi base, and I asked them to send me out a minivan, since I had the dog, a load of bags, and there was the 3 of us as well.

First off, I had a 20 minute wait, which I wasn’t too fussed about, since we were getting a minivan, and I know there aren’t too many of those on the road on a sunday.

Eventually the minivan came. The driver was so rude. He wanted me to put Nitro in the boot of the van, on his own. I told him I didn’t think that was appropriate, that guide dogs aren’t meant to go in the boot, they are meant to either sit in the front with their owner, or else sit in the back on the back seat.

He was like, well, there is no room, I suppose he can sit in the back. But by then Nitro was very nerous and frightened, since he’d been trying to get him into the boot and Nitro was refusing to do what he said.

So I said fuck it, and I told him I’d leave it, that I wouldn’t be taking the taxi after all. By this time, I was close to tears. So then, I went back indoors to moms house and I rang the base, and I complained. The girl was not impressed with the way the driver treated us. She offered to get me another taxi, but I said it was fine, as I’d already called a different company.

So I did eventually get home, and I’m not the better of it. Taxi’s have gone so bad lately, all moaning and complaining about having to take the dog, they either complain about his size, or the hair, or something else. Its actually against the law for them not to take him, so they don’t actually ever refuse directly, but they do make it known that they aren’t happy about him being in their cars.

It really gets to me. I am really upset now because of what happened.

My dog is now a senior

Nitro is 9 years old now. Oh my god! 9! How did he get here?

I rang his vet this morning. I wanted to check when his next check up is due.

She told me to bring him in in april. He gets a check up every six months. She said if I am worried about him to bring him in sooner.

She asked me if he’s losing weight, I said, no, quite the opposite. I think he’s gained some weight.

I’m not actually worried about him at all. He does have a little lump on his ear, its like a wart, but the last time he was at the vets I got her to check it. She said it was nothing and if he was ever under anastetic she’d remove it then.

He’s in good health. I think he’s getting a touch of artheritis though poor guy. He can still run around though, and he can still jump on the bed, so I don’t think its that bad.

I hope he is going to live for at least another 5 years. All going well, he should. I just cannot imagine my life without him in it and I hope I don’t have too for a very long time.

Just so sad

hhihihii its Emily
im just so sad
my heart hurts
ive been crying a lot
I cant stop
I feel numb
and theres a heavy weight too
weighing me down
I cant wait to go to therapy
I don’t like when I feel this way
life feels unmanageable
unbearable even
night time sucks
I hate it
I think i’ll go pet nitro
he makes me happy
hes such a cute dog
love him to bits
butterfly hugs
love
Emily age 12

what a cutie!

Nitro is being so cute! He’s in his bed, snoring loudly!
I love when he does that!
He’s so adorable!
I wish I could get a picture of him or take a video!
But if I go over to where he is he’ll stop!
Animals are so amazing! I am so glad I have Nitro. He makes me so happy.
I am so proud to be his mommy!

Can you stop with the treats?

My dad is a bloody nightmare! He keeps giving Nitro dog biscuits, and anything that he can find that Nitro can eat! I keep telling him Nitro doesnt need the treats, but he doesnt listen!
The girls at work are the same! They keep getting nitro dog treats, and even got him some sausages recently from the chip shop next door to our office.
Nitro is getting fatter by the minute! I am losing my rag!
I dont want him to be too overweight! But nobody listens to me!
Its so irritating! I am not sure how I can fix this but I know I need to!
Anyone got some good ideas for me? How do I tell all these people, that, they’re killing my dog!
I’m not pleased about all this!
I dont want my boy to develop arthritis!
I hope I will be able to get through to my dad soon! And I am not to worried about work, as sometimes Nitro doesnt come with me, and, if I say no to the girls in the office, they dont try to override my decision.
Its my dad, he’s tough to deal with! He loves dogs, and he’s a soft touch!
I hope someone has a good idea for me on how to make him stop? I suppose I’ll just have to say, clearly, your shortening Nitros life!
And hope he’ll listen to that!

I am home!

I am home in my own house now. I went home an hour or so ago. Mom is here with me for a few hours. She’s doing a few things for me around my house.

The taxi driver we got wasnt a bit impressed with Nitro. Well, thats his problem, not mine. By law he has to take a guide dog. Nitro is shedding, and when he got out of the taxi he left tons of hairs on the mat. What can I do? There really is nothing I can do about it.

Now that I am home, mom is putting away my groceries for me, and then she has to take apart my old TV equipment, while she’s doing that I have to arrange for a delivery crowd to pick up the equipment on tuesday.

I put my heat on right away when I got in. The house is freezing, since there was no heat on all weekend.

Feels so good to be home! Me and Nitro are going to just relax this evening. I may face time with my friend Sarah in colorado if she’s up for that.