very Early

Its very early. not even 5 AM. I woke up, I heard a dog outside, he kept barking, I couldnt get back to sleep. So I got up, ate, and am now just sitting here trying to do email and blog. I am kinda feeling off though. A little anxious. And just blah. But I am trying, I get points for trying right?


3 things challenge, 14th Jan 2019

Todays prompts: automaton, magical, twilight


In the twilight hour
I sit
Thinking and pondering
What is life all about?
How do I make it count
All of a sudden
I am overtaken
By magical thinking
And I sit
Wonder, is this real?
I wonder, how I should feel?
As the hours tick by
Slowly I try
To reflect on my life
But that magical thinking
Clouds my vision
Makes me feel
So surreal
So eventually I quit
Lie down
And try to sleep
And dream, hopefully


Unable to sleep

Another night where I am unable to sleep. Sigh.

I fear I’ll never get my sleeping pattern back to normal. I spend most nights lately wide awake, I am awake until I crash hard, and eventually fall into a fitful sleep.

I wish I didn’t suffer from insomnia, its the pits.

Anyone else suffering from lack of sleep or unable to get to sleep?

We should start a club! 😀

Insomnia rules!

I barely slept. I couldnt drop off. I didnt go to bed until 1 AM. But then I felt unsettled. I have a lot on my mind. Just thinking about memories and stuff. Tried to settle. Brought Nitro on the bed with me, cuddled with him. Eventually fell asleep. Woke again at 3:30. Now am up and have made some of the very yummy coffee that our wonderful kind friends sent us. Doubtful I’ll go back to sleep. Oh well. 2 hours is better than no hours I suppose.



It is 4:30 AM. I cant sleep. I’ve been up since around 2:30.

I am frustrated. I went to bed around 8 last night. I wen to bed early as I’d been up since 4 AM. It took me ages to fall asleep. Eventually I did, but then I kept waking. I kept tossing and turning.

Now I am up again. I am very dehydrated so am drinking a lot of water. I also was hungry so I ate some fruit.

I am supposed to go out with mom this morning. We’re going in to see about my computer. I am getting a new MacBook pro. We have to bring the cheque in to the store. Then it has to clear before I can get the computer and bring it home. So provided the weather isn’t too bad, we’ll go in today and talk to them at the apple store.

I dont have any other plans for my Saturday. I am just going to do this and then chill out for the rest of today at my parents house. I am kinda worried. I think I’ve put on more weight. I doubt I’ve lost any. I’ve been pretty bad and eating a lot of junk. I haven’t been too mindful of my diet lately. I don’t want to undo all my hard work but I think this week I have put up some weight. Oh well. It is what it is I guess. I just have to try not to put up too much weight over the Christmas.

Ok am off to read some more blogs. Talk soon guys!


I be fraid of the dark
I no want to go sleep
I fraid of bad peple
thay go get me
I kno it
I know they wil
I don wanna hav nitemares ether
im fraid of dem too
I emailed Eileen
I wish she cud hug me now
I wish she wus here
I lisened to her readin to us
that help me feel beter a little
I glad I hav some recordings of her readin to us
we ar getting som new books soon too
some new ones for her to read to us
thay haven’t com in the mail yet
I go pat nitro
hes sleepin rite now tho
I wil hav ta wake him
taylor six

Almost Midnight

Im still up. Its almost midnight. I was going to take some haldol to try to help me to sleep. But I dont want to be groggy in the morning. And I know I will be if I take it.
I refuse to be groggy for therapy tomorrow. Its too important to me. So I am not gonna take any.
If I am unable to sleep, then so be it. I’ll just sit here and blog, read blogs, read email etc.
Is anyone else up still? What are you up to?