so i’m still very anxious. the anxiety hasnt lessened at all. i took my night meds, in the hopes that would help some, as there is clonadine in there for the anxiety.
it hasnt helped, although i only took them about 30 minutes ago. i did nap earlier which i was glad about. i got about 90 minutes of sleep. the 90 mins i got was pretty decent sleep.
we’re under a weather advisory tonight and tomorrow and i think on tuesday as well. there is talks of us having hail, sleet and snow showers. i’m not sure if we’ll get it or not but they’re saying we could. i do have therapy in the morning but thats all that i have on tomorrow. so if it is pretty bad at least i can stay home.
i just wish i felt good. i really feel awful. im not liking the feelings this anxiety is bringing up in me. hopefully in therapy tomorrow we can address some of it. i’m sure its more than just one thing causing it.
i had another call today from the weekend team. this morning, a nurse called mary who I also knew from the hospital, when she was a nurse on the ward rang me. she was nice, and she talked me through some stuff. it was a good call, and it did help me to feel a little better.
if i need the weekend team again next weekend i can ring the outpatient clinic during the week and ask for a referral to go in so that they can visit me and call me. i wont be going to my parents house next weekend, so if I get referred to them, they’ll probably come out to my house to visit me.
Well I am going to go watch operation transformation on tv now. I like following it. Its a good show and I will enjoy it and have a coffee while I watch it, as I’m going to be up for a while yet I think.
I really need to quit napping by day. I dont get a lot of sleep, so I’ve been sleeping when I can. I know this is bad though. I know I should only nap for an hour or two max, if I do nap. I should set an alarm or something to wake me up and then just get up and stay awake until a decent hour. I napped earlier this afternoon, and now its 2 AM and I am wide awake. I woke up at about 1 AM. I did go to bed early, at around 9:30. But I couldnt settle, even though I was super tired. Has anyone got any tips, on what you do? Do you have a decent sleep schedule? Or do you sleep at funny hours? I cant be the only one who does can I? I doubt I’m going to go back to sleep now. I will probably stay up and read. Its a vicious circle though as I am busy this morning with slimming world, then I work on friendly call in the afternoon, so by 5 PM I’ll be done in. All I will want to do then is rest. I’ll try to stay up until 10 pm or so though I think. I have to get my sleep schedule back on track. I just have to. I know it isnt good to be asleep during the day and awake at night. And they also say weight gain is atributed to getting little sleep. If I want to lose weight I need to look after my body. I’m just so tired of fighting this sleep thing. Its just getting me down a lot. Sometimes I’ll sleep for 12 hours, its rare, but it does happen, especially when I am at my parents house. I love when I can do that. I feel so refreshed the next day when I get a good number of hours of sleep the previous night.
I am going to go to bed and try to sleep. I probably wont be able to but I have to try. I am tired, so maybe I’ll surprise myself. I really hope so. It would be nice to get at least 5 or 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep. as I think I said earlier, I did nap this afternoon, so I hope that wont mess things up for me. We’ll see. Good night, everyone. Have a great night!
Well moms curry was epic! I absolutely demolished it!
We had nan bread and pompadoms with it, yum!
I ate a huge plate of it! It was absolutely gorgeous. it has onions, carrots and peppers in it, green, red and yellow ones!
I have leftovers for tomorrow!
And after dinner I took a 3 hour nap! I was reading but was falling asleep reading so turned off my book and snuggled down and took a nap!
Why is there so much bad language on tv? Time to plug my ears I think! Why is every second word a curse word? I am not impressed! Also, my washing machine is so loud! Maybe the sound of that will drown out these crazy reality tv stars, so I dont need to hear their stupidity! I might not have to plug my ears after all, but I do need to turn off this damn tv. I need to take a nap. I am starting to drag a little. If I got an hour of sleep I’d be all set. I think I’ll try for that now.
5 AM and not a wink of sleep! I am so frustrated. Meds on bord, and still, nothing.
This is crazy. Thank god I dont have too much I need to do today. I can nap if needs be, but I am going to try not to do that. So then maybe I can sleep properly tonight.
Im still thinking I’ll go visit my friend norma today. spend a few hours with her. I need to pick some things up from her anyway, so maybe I will go do that.
It will keep me busy, and I’ll be less likely to nap then.
I enjoyed a leisurely afternoon. I napped for 2 hours since I didnt sleep much last night. It was nice and I feel good after it. I woke up, made coffee, then jumped in a nice hot shower. Now I feel energised. I am feeling good. I am going to enjoy my evening and watch some tv, and maybe read. I am still doing really well on my food plan too. There will be a separate post about my food diary for the day later on this evening. For now though its back to watching the news, which is kinda depressing but I like to know what is happening in the world so I’ll watch it!