hapy darina

it me darina and i hapy
i hapy cuz i got to hav lots nummy food las nit
lots of turkee and ham
that wat we always hav to eat on crismas
did yu merican peple kno dat bout europeans
thay eat turkey well UK and ireland do
not sure bout everywher else
but las nit at the partee
we had turkey and ham
mash tato vegebles and gravy
stufing and roast potato
and thay even served fries on the side
hahaha that was funy
i like fries
i ate a buncha them
then for dessert we had crismas puding
wif cream and it was nise
i was so full i thot i wuld burst
i like food ha
i lik to tast all the yummy food wen we go ote
wat yu eat for crismas diner guys
darina

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littles. darina talking

liz sen me ote to tok
so her i be ha
put up wif me
rit guys
ya all lov me tho rit
cuz i am cute
hahaha everin says that
thay says yur so cute
cute as a buton
hahahaa
so yep dats me
cute as can be
im six in case ya dint kno
i usd to be four
but i growed to six
cuz i am smart
and cute smart and cute ha
i got to email my sissy tonit
my sissy innother system
her nam abby
she my bestest sissy
she liv far way tho in america
and im in ireland
very very far
big ocean got tween us
i visit her tho somtims
and wen i do we do things together
we go stor to get candy
and soda and we go on aventures
hahaha i like aventures
darina

WE ARE A HOT MESS

I’M A HOT MESS TONIGHT. OH YES I AM. TRYING TO HELP LIZ RUN THINGS IN OUR SYSTEM, WELL ITS HER SYSTEM NOT MINE BUT I AM HELPING HER OUT SHE IS STRESSING OUT. REPORTER ALTERS ARE AROUND AND THEY ARE TRYING TO CAUSE CHAOS. ZOE AND ALANNA BOTH ARE WORKING IN THERAPY WITH EILEEN NOW AND THAT HAS STIRRED UP OTHERS AND THEY ARE WREAKING HAVOC. ITS A NIGHTMARE. WE’RE JUST A CRAZY HOT MESS. AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO FOR THE BEST. THESE ALTERS NEED NEW JOBS. CONTACTING OUR ABUSERS FROM THE PAST BECAUSE THEY THINK ITS THEIR JOB, THATS JUST NUTS.
WENDY

THATS NOT MY BODY?

ITS LIZ. SO TODAY IN THERAPY AN INTERESTING TOPIC CAME UP. I WAS TALKING TO EILEEN TELLING HER THAT I’D BEEN TALKING TO SOME OF THE INSIDERS AND BETWEEN US WE FIGURED OUT THAT WE’RE VERY DISCONNECTED FROM OUR BODY. AND WE DONT SEE IT AS OURS. WE SEE IT AS BEING SHIRLEYS. SO EILEEN WAS ASKING HOW OLD WE FEEL, SHE ALWAYS ASKS THAT, SHE ASKED ME TODAY, I SAID 18, AND THEN SHE’S LIKE, OK, SO YOU FEEL 18, AND THERE ARE ALL DIFFERENT AGES AND STAGES AMONGST INSIDERS, BUT YOU KNOW, WHEN I AM LOOKING AT YOU NOW AND WE’RE TALKING, I HAVE A COMPETENT CAPABLE ADULT IN FRONT OF ME, A 37 YEAR OLD COMPETENT ADULT, DO YOU SEE THAT? NO, I SAID, I DONT. THEN SHE ASKS ME CAN YOU GET YOUR THUMB AND MIDDLE FINGER, AND PRESS THEM OFF OF EACH OTHER, DO IT AND TELL ME WHAT YOU FEEL? ME, NOTHING? OK, DO IT HARDER? SO I DID. NOW WHAT DO YOU FEEL, WHAT IS THE SENSATION? ME, CONSTRICTION, TIGHTNESS. SO YOU DID THAT, YOUR BRAIN SENT THAT MESSAGE TO YOUR BODY AND YOU DID THAT, I DIDNT DO IT FOR YOU, YOU HAD TO CHOOSE TO DO IT, DO YOU SEE WHERE I AM GOING WITH THIS? ME, UH, NOOOO, NOT REALLY. I AM JUST REALLY CONFUSED. I JUST…I JUST FEEL SOOO DISCONNECTED FROM MY BODY! THEN WE TALKED ABOUT HOW THE OTHER NIGHT RAVEN WHOSE 11 WAS OUT, SHE HAD THE URGE TO CUT, SHE WAS ALMOST GONNA DO IT, ANDI WAS WATCHING, BUT COULDNT DO ANYTHING, I WAS FROZEN, FROZEN AND UNABLE TO GET PAST HER TO GAIN CONTROL OF THE BODY AGAIN. AND WHAT DID THAT FEEL LIKE, WHEN YOU WERE WATCHING HER? EILEEN ASKED. IT FELT SO SURREAL. IT FELT LIKE I WAS FAR AWAY, IN THE DISTANCE, I WANTED TO COME BACK OUT, I WANTED TO BE IN CONTROL OF THE BODY, BUT I WASNT AND I COULDNT GET THERE. DID YOU SEE YOURSELF OR DID YOU SEE HER AS THE CHILD THAT SHE IS, EILEEN ASKED. I SAW A YOUNG VULNERABLE FRIGHTENED CHILD, I SAID. THIS DISCUSSION WENT ON FOR A WHILE. IT WAS SO INTERESTING. AND I THINK WE NEED TO TALK MORE ABOUT OUR BODY AND THE SHARING OF IT, AS SOME INSIDERS, NOT ME PERSONALLY, BUT SOME OF THE YOUNGER ONES, AND TEENS, ALL DO NOT BELIEVE THEY SHARE A BODY, YOU’D HAVE A HARD TIME CONVINCING THEM THE BODY THEY ARE PART OF IS NOT ACTUALLY THEIRS. EILEEN TRIED ONCE TO MAKE ONE OF THE DARKS BELIEVE IT, BY PLACING A CHAIR ACROSS FROM THEM AND ASKING THEM IF THEY COULD MOVE AND SIT IN IT, AND THEN THEY DID AND SHE WAS LIKE YOU SEE YOU HAD TO MOVE TO DO THAT, THE BODY YOU OWN HAD TO MOVE, YOU DIDNT AUTOMATICALLY SIT IN THAT ACHAIR, YOU COULDNT HALF YOURSELF TO GO SIT IN IT. ANYONE ELSE WITH DID, DO YOU FEEL LIKE THIS? DO YOU FEEL DISCONNECTED FROM YOUR BODY? DO YOU FEEL AS IF YOUR BODY ISNT YOURS? DO YOU GET FRUSTRATED ABOUT IT? DO INSIDERS DENY THEY ARE SHARING A BODY? LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS.
LIZ

taylor is sad

it be taylor
or yu kin cal me tay tay
dats my niknam
i am six
i felin sad
i sad and skard
it dark and i not likin tha dark
it mak me fraid
i rap up in my blanket
it has horses on it
i like horses
i got my two stufed rabits here to
nibbles and flopsy
and my bear cupcake
is anyon else skard of the dark
any litles?
in nother sysem
can somon be my frind
please i wil like that
taytay