me jus sayin hi tu everbody
wat yu doin taday
we ar at volteering
i not relly posed to be ote here
so i hav ta go insid afer riting this email
i can com back ote later agin
the bigs ar drinkin coffee
i tasted it
bigs ar werd thay drink werd drinks
lexi im six
I did something awful. I’m so ashamed of what just happened.
I was sleeping soundly. I went to bed at 11 pm and I went into a deep sleep.
well, I just woke up, soaked. I had peed in my sleep. I never ever do that!
I am so ashamed. So embarrassed.
I had to take off my wet pajamas and hang it up. I hope the staff wont say anything. The sheets are wet now.
This has hpappened before when little insiders were out. We have had accidents and have not been able to hold it. All I can think is a very young insider was out when this happened.
Its not a pleasant experience.
Just feeling bad right now.
we gotta hav pancaks
thay was so nummy
we only had lemon juise on ares
that ok tho
they wer stil nise
i likd them
it shrove tuesday
dat why we had them
everone eat pancaks on dis day
atleast that what i know
i fink we be hav them for diner tonite to
THIS IS A SUCKFEST OF A NIGHT.
I SHOULD BE ASLEEP, ITS ALMOST 2 AM
INSTEAD I AM UP RUMINATING
I AM OVERTHINKING AND PANICKING AND ANXIOUS AND FEARFUL
I MADE MYSELF SOME COFFEE, PROB NOT THE BEST IDEA BUT OH WELL IT IS WHAT IT IS
I NEED COFFEE I NEED TO CALM DOWN AND COFFEE HELPS ME CALM DOWN
PANIC IS RINNING RAMPANT THROUGH THE SYSTEM
I WROTE EILEEN AN EMAIL TO TELL HER WHAT IS GOING ON
I THINK ITS TO DO WITH MEMORIES AND BEING SCARED TO SLEEP FOR FEAR OF NIGHTMARES
WE TOOK OUR MEDS EARLY AND ALL HOPING FOR A GOOD NIGHT OF DECENT SLEEP
GOD HAVING DID IS A SUCKFEST SOMETIMES
i so hapy we got a presint at tha call centre we visited we got a fidget spinner i love it it spin round and round in my hand i make it go fast fast fast we also got pop corn and candy and grape juice to drink i likd that it so fun i had so mush fun i going share the fidget spinner wif tha other kids but ive alwas wantd one of them and now i have one i so hapy
adelle i four
How long have you known you had did?
we knew in childhood we were different. back then we had no name for it but we heard each other. we knew we were sharing a body. we knew, i mean the insiders, not shirley, we knew we existed.
we were unofficially diagnosed with multiple personality disorder when the body was 20. back then shirley the birth personality hosted a lot she was still around quite a lot of the time. we went to therapy and she told our therapist about us and we were assessed by a psychiatrist, and she said it was more than likely that we had did.
we were formerly diagnosed in 2010. remy acqueron and dr. paul miller from the pottergate centre for dissociation and trauma in the UK came to ireland and assessed us and gave us the did diagnosis.
I’ll be putting up two passworded entries later tonight. they are the entries detailing my our did reassessment that we had with Remy acqueron of the pottergate centre for dissociation and trauma back in december.
I know a lot of you my regular readers have the password already. it wont be changing. so if you have it then you’ll be able to get in.
if you dont, and you’d like to know what a did assessment looks like, then email me at
for the password. ours was a reassessment, we’ve had our diagnosis already 7 years ago.
they were reassessing to make sure we’re getting the correct level of treatment and care.