well i’ve been getting festive tonight! i’ve been writing my christmas cards. i have a ton of cards to send out this year! so i started on the writing of them tonight. i wrote all the braille ones. i’m going to send those tomorrow. then over the weekend I’ll do the print ones as I will need help to do them. I had fun writing them all! I put on some christmas music, ou r local radio station has a christmas station running and thats what I listened to while I wrote them and it was just so much fun! it took me about an hour to write all the cards. and now my agitation is gone! yay! i’m so delighted. i knew i could distract myself. writing the cards was just the perfect distraction! now i think its time for a cuppa! and then a little more reading of blogs before i turn in for the night! hoping i will be able to sleep. not sure if i will or not. right now its not looking good for me. but we’ll see i guess. i need to hand in my prescription for the fenergan tomorrow. the sooner i can reset my body clock the better! i hope i’ll get a little sleep as i am hoping to go to the gym in the morning! all going well I’ll be there working out!
well our apt with dr. barry went great. we were almost late to it though. we had a taxi booked to take us, he was meant to arrive at our house at 8:30. he never showed up. i rang the base and the lady said traffic was mental due to the storms. i told her i had to be there by 8:45. she quickly got a driver to come get me. i was about 5 minutes late meeting sarah. but sarah knew i’d be late. she had an idea i would be due to the bad weather. she had gotten there on time and went indoors. she rang me just as i was arriving. i told her i was just arriving and so she came downstairs to meet me. we first went to get my shot. first of all the building where dr. barry is is huge. when you walk in the main door you take a right turn. go all the way to the end of that corridor and then that is where the mental health services are based. the place where i go for my shot is right by where dr. barry is. that part was good. i got my shot. they weighed me and i’m now 90.5 kg. they gave me my shot. then sarah brought me to the waiting room. the room is open plan. the chairs are so hard. wooden chairs. very hard on your back. i told sarah i didnt think i’d manage the building very well from what i’ve seen of it. i sat and waited for a while before i saw dr. barry. a junior doctor called me to come in but i told him i dont see junior doctors and i would wait for dr. barry. afterwords dr. barry told me he made a mistake, they all only moved in to the building on monday, and things arent set up properly yet so he took my file by accident. finally dr. barry came and got me. she brought me back to her office. she said she’s going to try to book the same office each week for consistency. she asked me if i thought the building was brighter, did I notice the brightness, I did. she said it was very clinical, like a hospital, not very cosy or comfortable. i noticed that too. in the old building it was cosy, and there was only all mental health staff and clients. this new place there are way more people milling around. its just not as homely. we chatted about the move. she knew i was anxious about it. she asked me when the anxiety started about it. i told her after sarah phoned me yesterday to tell me that they’d moved. she then said she’d ask sarah to meet me each time i am coming in, for a few weeks at least. she said she thought I’d eventually be able to navigate the building by myself. I’m glad she has faith in me because I dont. lol. We talked about my sleep. i told her I am only getting 2 or so hours of sleep a night on most nights. i told her the haldol isnt doing anything for me. where as before it would knock me out completely. she asked me if i would like to try fenergan. its a sedating antihistamine. i cant think of the other name for it. i’ve taken it before though. when i took it before it did knock me out. i only took it while i was hospitalised. she gave me a weeks supply and said take it for 3 night in a row. see how i do with that. see if that resets things for me and enables me to get a better sleep. i havent collected the med yet but i will later this week. we talked a lot about therapy. i told her about the new things eileen is trying with us regarding touch and sensory stuff and about eileens training and about our last two sessions. she said it sounds as if we are doing a lot of very intense work. i agreed. we talked through a couple of other things. but mostly it all centred on the move, and on therapy. at the end she made another apt for me for 2 weeks time. and then she very kindly walked me to the entrance where i waited for a taxi. i think i’ll be ok. i think in time we’ll get used to the new layout and the new building. i’m hopeful that we will.
There is a bad storm outside this morning. It started last night. High wind, rain, and the wind was really whipping up outside, howling very loudly. I wasnt able to sleep with the noise. I am very tired this morning. But I need to go see dr. barry and go get my shot also.
I dont really want to go out in it. But I have no choice. I hope I’ll be ok and manage ok in the bad weather.
I’m going to mom and dads today after I see dr. barry. I got invited to a lunch with the staff of friendly call today too. They are being audited and there is a lunch and they invited me to it. So I will be going to that today but other than that I wont be doing much else today.
The weather warning is in effect until noon. Its pretty bad out there right now.
Finish this phrase…if life gives you lemons…
If life gives you lemons, make lemonade and then wash it down with some Xanax!
Im still up. Its almost midnight. I was going to take some haldol to try to help me to sleep. But I dont want to be groggy in the morning. And I know I will be if I take it.
I refuse to be groggy for therapy tomorrow. Its too important to me. So I am not gonna take any.
If I am unable to sleep, then so be it. I’ll just sit here and blog, read blogs, read email etc.
Is anyone else up still? What are you up to?
I had an up and down kinda night. I woke up at 2 AM. I wasn’t able to go back to sleep for a few hours. I got up and went online for a while. Then I read my book for a bit. Finally at around 6 AM I fell back to sleep. And then I slept until 9 AM.
It was raining really hard during the night. I was enjoying being snuggled up and listening to it beating down outside. I even had nitro in my bed with me. We were all cuddled up until he jumped down because he got too hot.
I finally got up at 9 AM. It is still raining. I rang my supervisor and told her I wouldn’t come in today. So I am not going volunteering. I just don’t feel like getting wet. So I turned on my heating and am chilling out now at home for the day.
No plans. Just read, watch tv, blog, prepare food, etc. Nothing major. I love these sorta days. Feels nice to just be able to say I am staying home today.
Well I’d better go take my meds! Catch yall laters guys!
so i just got back home from my diabetic review. i had to go to my gp and see his nurse in the practice, and then see the doctor as well. all is good. the great thing is, i am no longer diabetic! my blood sugars show I have reversed the diagnosis, because I am losing weight. I am so delighted. All my hard work payed off. My sugar today was 5.2 and the last time I checked it it was 6.5. But my overall A1C is great. I know the numbers are done differently in different countries, but mine went from 48 the last one I had done to 41 now, and it has to be 42 for a diabetes diagnosis. I got an ECG on my heart and all is good there too. My vitamin B 12 was also good and my cholesterol has come down from 6.5 to 5.4. So I dont see the gp again now for another six months. By then I’ll hopefully be down another 30 to 40 pounds in weight. The nurse was thrilled that I was going to the gym and that I’ve lost 15 kg or 35 pounds since feburary. I asked my gp if I can come off my metphormin but he said no to that. He said that even though I am no longer diabetic now, that they use metphormin for other things like prventing polycystic ovary disease and stuff like that so he said I have to stay on it forever. Thats fine with me. Its only 2 pills a day. And it will also ensure that things stay in check with my blood sugars too which will be good. So I’m good with staying on it. So overall a great appointment and I am really pleased with how it went.