I am finally feeling well again! I feel so much more like myself!
Yay I am so thrilled to be feeling good again!
I still have a little bit of a cough, but nothing like what it was!
I am no longer taking meds! I am able to finally breathe again!
My nose isnt running like a tap any more yay!
Feels good to be better! ❤ ❤
So my PA Frances said she’d pick up my prescription for me. Kind of her, as it was not part of her job, she was doing it on her own time.
So on Tuesday morning, when I went to get my flu shot, we handed it in to my GP. The receptionist took it, and told me it would be ready for pick up on thursday.
Thursday came, my PA went to pick it up, and was told, sorry we dont have it. Are you sure you dropped it off? To which she said yes, she dropped it off, I know because I was with her when she did it.
After much looking, it was found, but the receptionist then said, Oh, well, come back tomorrow, it will be ready then!
So my PA asked, are you sure it will be ready if I come back tomorrow? And the receptionist got snotty and said, I hope so!
And would you believe it, when Frances went down there today, it still wasnt ready! She had to wait for it, and she was late to work because of their carelessness!
I felt so bad that she was late to work and all because of doing a kind thing for me!
Anyway, in the end, I got my meds! Thank god!
Never knew it would be such a fiasco though to get them!
So after coming home from the friendly call office, I crashed hard! I got home for around 5:30. Made dinner, ate it and then crawled into bed! And as soon as I did, I fell asleep!
And I slept from around 6:30 until just after 11:30! I know my routine is all wrong, but well for now, I am not worried! I’ll take it while I am getting it! That is 5 straight hours, with me only waking once, to let nitro out and say good night to my mom!
Its raining hard out there now. I love the sound of the rain! Its so sootheing!
I’m up now I think for the night! But that’s ok! I made a coffee, and I am reading blogs and enjoying the peace and quiet!
Mood is still good, yay thank heavens for that!
And I didn’t forget my meds either win, win!
So I just got done seeing dr. barry! We had a fantastic appointment! But thats the norm for us!
I had so much to tell her!
I told her about my smear test coming back clear, and she was really pleased for me. She encouraged me not to stress about the upcoming appointment to the clinic so for now I am not going to worry too much about it! It wont be for a few weeks yet, so I have time to prepare!
We talked about meds, and she asked me about the clonadine, how was it going for me taking it. I told her its working out really well. I am happy with how its working out. My anxiety has lessened since I’ve been taking it. And I am mostly sleeping a little better, I am now sleeping for around 4 to 5 hours when I do sleep, and I am having less nightmares too. She was really happy to hear how well the med is working out. She gave me another script for 2 more weeks supply of the med. We’ll review it when I next see her. We didnt increase it today, she is going to see how I do on it for another 2 weeks before we think about upping the dose.
I told her we didnt see eileen this week because of her being ill. We talked about the stress I felt at eileen being ill. I was also telling her about the kids, how much they worried about eileen and how their worry filtered through to me but that I was also worried and now that eileens ok again I am less stressed and just so relieved.
Then I told her my big news! About my trip to the USA next year! She couldnt believe I was going and she was really excited for me! It was so cute! She was like, Carol anne, I dont think you’ve been to the states since I’ve been your doctor have you? I had to think but no, I havent! The last time I went to america was in the summer of 2013, and I didnt start seeing dr. barry until november of that year.
She then told me that the nurse that was giving me my shot had left, and a new nurse was now administering the shots. She said if I wanted to she’d introduce her to me. So I said I’d like that. She left the room to see if the nurse, whose name is Kay, was still there, she was, and she came in to meet me. She knew me, but I didnt remember her. But she said she had worked in the hospital some years ago on nights, and she’d met me while I was an in patient. I had no memory of ever meeting her! But she seems nice. I’m glad we’ve met, it makes getting my shot from her easier to deal with and I wont be stressing over a new person giving it to me!
Somehow then dr. barry and I got on to talking about psychiatrists, and my former psychiatrist. That was interesting. We had a long conversation about my teen years in the mental health system, and she told me that my then psychiatrist dr. Mccarthy who was my first ever psychiatrist when I was in my teens, has now retired. I always liked dr. Mccarthy, she was a nice doctor and she was easy to get along with.
So yeah, a heavy apt, loaded with much chat, and lots to talk through. It was good though and we made another one for 2 weeks time. When dr. barry walked me to the front entrance to get my taxi, I told her as we were walking to the entrance about nitro retiring, as I forgot to tell her while we were in our appointment. So then we had a further conversation about that.
We’re coming up on our six year anniversary, it is in a few weeks, she’ll have been my doctor for six years this coming november, wow, how that time has flown, I’ve grown a lot since we started our work together, I am so glad she’s my psychiatrist, I couldnt ask for a better doctor.
I’ve been feeling a lot less anxious since I started clonadine. It has been very helpful. I’m so glad it seems to be working for me. I still have some anxiety, but its not nearly as bad as it has been.
It feels so good to just be able to say that. Perhaps we really have found a good solution, and a med that actually combats it. I really hope it continues to work for me, otherwise I might have to restart the lyrica. I dont want to have to take it because it causes weight gain. So if the clonadine works well, then that is a much better option for me.
For now its working well, and I’m very glad it is!
I am finally on a good sleep schedule! I got a great nights sleep last night! I slept from 8 Pm until 4 AM! It was amazing! I feel so good having had that sleep!
I was exhausted because on Monday night I didn’t sleep a wink!
I am determined to keep this going! What I am going to do is go to bed each night at a decent hour, even if I don’t feel tired! I will try to sleep even when I think I cant!
Its got to work well I think it will!
What I am also going to do is not drink any caffeinated drinks after 6 PM!
My new med is working well! I am less anxious on it!
I made myself go to bed relatively early. I watched a documentary on tv after the 9 O’clock news. That was over by 10:30 and once it ended I went straight to bed. I didnt think I’d sleep but I surprised myself, I fell asleep almost straight away. I did wake a few times on and off, but overall I slept well. I only woke at around 4 AM. I decided then to get up. So now I am up but I feel a lot better than I did yesterday, the sleep must have did me good. I made a coffee and am drinking it now. It tastes like heaven. I am listening to the radio also. I heard an interview with the author Louise O’neill who wrote the book, asking for it. That was a good book, its about a girl who was raped, its fiction but its an irish author, and a great read. My PA frances will be here at 9 AM. I need to to to the pharmacy to drop off my prescription, and I also have to hand it into the doctors as the pharmacy can only dispense one week worth of it, after that you have to get the rest of it from your GP. I’ll be starting the clonadine tonight. Well I hope I will, I hope the pharmacy will have it in stock.