so i had a really quiet afternoon. i did absolutely nothing.
i just slept. yes i know its lazy but oh well. dont really care. i needed the rest.
i slept from around 1:30 until 5:30. yes it means i will be late going to sleep tonight, but well thats ok with me. as long as i get 7 hours of sleep tonight if i can manage it, i’ll be happy.
my mom was very helpful to me today. she went out with my sister to buy camping supplies, i asked her if she’d pick up fruit for the week for me. she said of course she would so i gave her some money and she brought me back a ton of fruit. so now i’m well stocked up for the week.
i’ve decided that I am going to spend the week at my parents house. i could have went home for a few days and came back again nearer the weekend. but mom asked me today if I’d like to stay for the week. since mom and my sis are going camping next weekend with the kids, i’ll be staying here with my dad then. so really that means i’ll be here from today until next monday.
thats fine, though. i’ll do what i normally do in any given week. all it means is that i’ll sleep here and eat here.
thanks to all of you for all of the support today. it meant so much to us.
we really are blessed to have so many people who read our blog who care. your all amazing.
I have an expectation that tomorrow will be a good day for us. I’ll feel like myself again. I wont feel bad or low or down. I wont struggle. I will be carefree. I will enjoy family time. I will have a happy day. That is my expectation. I hope it comes true. I’m counting on it.
Do you find practicing self care hard and why? What do you do for self care activities?
For me I find self care to be a challenge. I try hard to do it though even when it seems to be difficult. I find doing some self care things really helps boost my mood and it helps me not to feel so depressed.
How about you?
MY MOODS NOT GREAT. WE RESTARTED OUR MEDS FOR OUR SEIZURES ONE OF THEM IS DEPOCATE. HALF OF THAT IS FOR OUR MOOD. I WONDER HOW LONG IT WILL TAKE BEFORE IT STARTS TO KICK IN. WE’VE STARTED OUT ON A LOW DOSE.
JUST FEEL SO BLA TONIGHT. BUT ITS JUST ME WHO IS FEELING IT. THE REST OF THE SYSTEM ARE DOING JUST FINE.
I achieved most of my goals today. the one i didnt achieve though was getting out of the house.
I need to work more on that. Work on actually doing it and not just backing out at the first sign of a low mood.
I ate healthily though all day. We had a lovely chicken curry for dinner with brown rice. My dad made it. It was so delicious.
I managed to read, and get in a nap. I also managed to do one self care thing, I took a bath. I went to my parents for the night, and they have a bath, so I was able to take a nice long hot bath.
I exercised for 30 mins. Exercise is getting easier.
I’m proud of myself for achieving most of the goals on my list.
I’m slipping again. My mood is sliding. I was meant to go out this morning to the basement clug. I didnt go.
I couldnt face going. So I stayed in bed instead.
I know, i should have pushed myself to go. Its not like i was tired, or needed extra sleep. I went to bed at 10 last night.
And I got a decent nights sleep. And its not like I didnt wake early. I woke at 7:40.
I just, well I am not sure, I know I felt low, and bla, and like I couldnt face people.
I felt like I just couldnt go around and smile and be happy, because deep down I dont feel it today.
Ug depression bloody sucks.
GAWD GUYS, I FEEL, LIKE, SHIT!
I WANNA RIP OFF MY ENTIRE SKIN! I CANT STAND IT!
THE ANXIETYS REALLY AND I MEAN REALLY FUCKING BAD RIGHT NOW!NOT SURE WHY, NO CLUE, JUST, JUST THAT ITS FUCKING PURE HELL.
AND I CANT TAKE IT NOT FOR ANOTHER MINUTE!
I’M ALL OUT OF OPTIONS FOR COPING SKILLS, I’VE TRIED THEM ALL!
UG UG UG THIS FUCKING BLOWS!