unhappy with our weight

its emily. i feel like throwing up. carol anne says i shouldnt. she says we’re losing weight. but its happening way too slowly! i wish it would just come off faster. i want to use laxatives and throw up and restrict. we told karen we’re getting a little bit obsessed with food and what we will and wont eat. she was understanding and told us to just eat if we want to and if we have a party where there will be certain foods that are bad foods then we could just eat a light breakfast that day and then eat normally at the party or even whatever that is. i dont know though. i keep thinking we are going to gain back the weight we’ve lost. if that happened i’d have to kill us. it would make me so sad if it happened. its so hard to lose weight and keep it off.
Emily age 12