Am at the office now volunteering. My shift is going well! I am enjoying it! A lot of my clients arent answering their phone though! I always get nervous when people dont answer! I wonder if that means they are not ok! I hope I am wrong!
Tomorrow it is our christmas party for friendly call! We’ll have a dinner and some music and some raffles. All of the volunteers had to buy gifts, we had to buy two or three items each to raffle off! I bought some bath stuff and lip glosses and chocolates! I think all of the clients will end up getting a present!
I am excited to go to the party! I think it will be fun!
Well I’d better get back to work! I still have about 10 calls to make! And its almost 4 PM now! So I’ll be heading home soon!
so today we did the documentary for the radio, the one that is featuring the work of friendly call, it was myself, my supervisor and two other volunteers. Two producers came from the national broadcaster in ireland, RTE, and interviewed us. It was really cool. They were very nice and they did a great job. We all got to talk about the work we do. We got to tell them a little about ourselves and how long we’ve been volunteering, and what brought us to be doing it. Then they asked us about the work and the clients and stuff. It is going to be broadcast the week of the 17th to 21st of december. The producer told my supervisor she’d text her the date when we’d be featured, it will be available to listen to online on the podcast so when I know more I will let you all know so maybe some of you can listen to it.
I am very happy with how my interview went. I wasnt even nervous. The girl interviewing us really put me at ease!
I am glad we did it. I am glad that friendly call is getting lots of exposure. They deserve that.
So today my supervisor in friendly call got a call from the local radio broadcaster here in cork. They want to do a radio documentary about friendly call. They want to talk about how people are experiencing isolation and loneliness, and about the friendly call service. My supervisor asked myself and 2 other volunteers to take part in it.
So on Sunday afternoon, we are going to do it. We’ll all be interviewed, and a documentary will be made for the radio. When it airs I will share it here with you all.
I am so excited! This is a great opportunity!
Its also a great opportunity to get the work of friendly call out there, and show off our great service!
I found out today that one of the friendly call clients I call each week killed himself. I’d spoken to this man on numerous occasions. He was in his fifties. He had a severe mental illness. My supervisor told me he did it last week. We were the last people he spoke to, friendly call was the last contact he had with anyone before he did it.
I was floored. Its the first time something like this has happened to me while I’ve been a volunteer. I just cant believe it. It really brings it home to me how precious life is. And how you just never know how things can happen on a spur of a moment.
I hope he’s at peace now. I am glad he had us I am glad we were able to maybe bring him some happy times. The fact that we spoke to him daily. The fact he had someone on the end of the phone to talk to. He was very isolated, he lived in a rural area. And he was so lonely.
Loneliness kills. It really does.
Its going to take me some time to process this. I still feel kinda numb. Maybe because I’ve also come close to ending it. Maybe because I know his pain. I know how he must have felt when he made his decision. I just wish he’d have told us how he was feeling.
Its a sad day for me today. I’ll send prayers up to the universe and hopefully he’s at peace now.
look to the moon
is it bright?
can I fight?
with all of my might?
in the towel
to win the fight
against all odds
at any cost
i simply must!
she sits and stares
nothing in her eyes
fear of the night
and other parts
they run rampant
inside her mind
they are confined
inside her head
full of dread
feeling a mixture
wanting to disappear
young parts cry
they want to fly
to a new day
THIS IS A SUCKFEST OF A NIGHT.
I SHOULD BE ASLEEP, ITS ALMOST 2 AM
INSTEAD I AM UP RUMINATING
I AM OVERTHINKING AND PANICKING AND ANXIOUS AND FEARFUL
I MADE MYSELF SOME COFFEE, PROB NOT THE BEST IDEA BUT OH WELL IT IS WHAT IT IS
I NEED COFFEE I NEED TO CALM DOWN AND COFFEE HELPS ME CALM DOWN
PANIC IS RINNING RAMPANT THROUGH THE SYSTEM
I WROTE EILEEN AN EMAIL TO TELL HER WHAT IS GOING ON
I THINK ITS TO DO WITH MEMORIES AND BEING SCARED TO SLEEP FOR FEAR OF NIGHTMARES
WE TOOK OUR MEDS EARLY AND ALL HOPING FOR A GOOD NIGHT OF DECENT SLEEP
GOD HAVING DID IS A SUCKFEST SOMETIMES