a helping hand

So I am meant to be off work this week. But my supervisor called me this afternoon in a bit of a panic, one of the other volunteers was having trouble with her p hone. She had nobody to do the calls that that volunteer was doing. So she asked me if I’d step in. I was free, I wasnt doing anything at the time. So of course I said I would do it. So I ended up working in the afternoon for about 2 hours making calls. It was a pleasure to do it for her. I wouldnt see her struggling to find somoene to do the calls, if I can oblige I will. The calls were easy, all of the clients were ok, It was great talking to them all. There was this one client, she asked me if I was knew. I said no, that I’ve been working for friendly call for the past 2.5 years. She then said to me how she finds it so hard to talk to people who she doesnt know. I could appreciate that. Because, I also find it hard to talk and open up to people I dont know, well especially in real life. So I did my best to put her at ease. She told me she was 73 and I told her that she didnt even sound her age. That made her laugh and she told me I made her day. But it was so true. There was no way I’d have guessed she was 73 years old. So I think we clicked after that. I enjoyed working today and there is a chance I may have to work tomorrow also.. Not sure yet but my supervisor said she’d call me in the morning if she needs me to work.

I had to fire one of my PAS

So yesterday I had to fire one of my PA’S! Her name is nuala.
She had been my PA for 2 years! But I didnt get along with her!
And things were getting worse and worse over the last few weeks.
When she was doing her shifts She was leaving before it was her time to leave, she’d say to me, is there anything else? Meaning, is there anything else to do, and if I said no, she’d say, ok, well, I’ll head away home so!
Also, she was very well how do I put it, outspoken? We’d say here in ireland, she was very opinionated, and was very forward!Meaning, if she thought I should have an item in my house that I didnt have, she be like, you need to go get whatever item it was! One time she bought me a cooking pot without asking and then she expected me to give her 20 euro which is how much the pot cost!
anyway, I grew tired of her constantly leaving early, and I prefer my other PaA frances, Frances never ever leaves before she is supposed to, she’s not opinionated, and she is great at her job and we get along great!
So I rang my coordinator at the agency yesterday, and I asked her if I could change my hours around, and if frances could do all of my hours with me!
I told her the problems I was having, and she agreed that I could have frances workwith me full time!
Then she said she’d ring the other lady to tell her the situation!
what did Nuala do when she found out? She rang me! I kinda knew she would. I didnt answer the call. Instead, I blocked her number so she cant contact me again!
I dont need that stress!
She had no right calling me! Not when the coordinator had told her we werent going to be working together any more! The coordinator had told me that she was just going to tell her I was canceling the evening service, that I wanted to change my hours around, and that I wouldnt be needing her services any longer!
I dont know why she was calling me! She shouldnt have done that!
So anyway, now that I have frances full time, I am happier! We have to give Nuala 2 weeks notice, which is fine with me. She hasnt been working with me anyway due to the coronavirus, so after the 2 weeks are up I can start working full time with frances.
I am so relieved!

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Who won the week april 5th edition

Fandango has asked us who won the week for us this week? He says in his post…
Its time for another Who Won the Week prompt. The idea behind Who Won the Week is for you to select who (or what) you think won this past week. Your selection can be anyone or anything politicians, celebrities, athletes, authors, bloggers, your friends or family members, books, movies, TV shows, businesses, organizations, whatever.
I will be posting this prompt on Sunday mornings (my time). If you want to participate, write your own post designating who you think won the week and why you think they deserve your nod. Then link back to this post and tag you post with FWWTW.

For me, this week, all of the front line workers have really won the week. Doctors, nurses, delivery drivers, all essential workers, they are all doing an amazing job of trying to keep everyone safe, healthy and happy. They continue to put their own lives at risk to help us. I am eternally grateful to them for their unwavering generosity and their willingness to help in this awful time of the pandemic. Without them we’d all be fucked. Thank you to those of you who work on the front line, your all amazing.
❤ ❤

Fowc: Making progress

I am making progress slowly with my symptoms. They are improving a little bit. The dissociation hasnt been as bad the past two days. For that I am so grateful. I am still not sleeping great though. Last night I went to bed at 10:30. I read a few chapters of my book, turned it off at around midnight. Fell to sleep almost right away, but woke up again at 3:45 and couldnt go back to sleep until 6 AM. I went on the computer for a while, then I just lay there thinking. Not good. I dont like doing that as my mind starts racing. I start thinking all sorts. Which is what happened to me last night. My anxiety went skyrocketing. I was listening to Nitro snoring softly. He was so cute. Listening to him and reading eventually calmed me down enough that I was able to get 2 more hours of sleep. I woke around 8 AM. I got up then. I am hopeful that I will make further progress this weekend. I’ve started to see improvements in my thought processes too and in the amount of amnesia we’ve been having. This is all positive. I’m not working today. I decided to take this week off of work. I needed a break. I’ll be much more able to do the job after a few days off.



In The volunteering I do, there is a lot of outreach work associated with it. So my regular followers know that I work for an organisation locally called friendly call, we have a client base, who are vulnerable, elderly, isolated and living alone, ill, mentally ill, etc. As part of our work, we do things sometimes for the clients, it isnt just daily phone calls we provide for them. We have also been known to cut their lawns, bring them shopping, do home visits, in fact today my supervisor brought a client to macdonalds for lunch. My supervisor is awesome. She goes way above and beyond what she is supposed to do, what her job description says. She really is a great community development worker which is what her title is. If we werent doing those things, our clients would have very little support, so its good we’re able to provide them with the extra support. It feels so good to be able to help someone out. I really do feel great every time I finish a shift at my volunteer job.


I met with my new job coach today

so this afternoon, i went and met my new job coach, whose name is chris. and what a lovely guy he is! he’s so nice, and so easy to talk to!

we are starting off with an initial get to know each other period, so today we just filled out paperwork, and chatted about me, and about the type of work I’d like to do, about my background etc.

I told him about my mental illnesses, and we talked about disclosure to an employer, he said I probably should disclose that I am suffering with a mental illness to them, but that I didnt have to disclose the exact illnesses, he said 1 in 3 people who are in a job now has a mental illness of some kind! Mindblowing!

Anyway, he said they work with some employers, like, they have a list of employers that they work with, and something might come out of that, because sometimes the employers ask if there is anyone on the job coaching agencys books who can fill a role they are hiring for.

But he encouraged me to look for jobs, and he said I can email him or phone him if I need anything, so if I find a job I feel is suitable, I can email him on the details and he’ll look at it for me. He gave me a few websites to go looking up jobs, so I’ll be doing that soon!

We talked about pay, and he told me minimum wage here is 10.10 an hour, so thats the least I can earn, but I could earn more. But I gotta be careful about my benefits, not work too many hours. But I’m going to try for part time at first, about 25 hours per week.

It was a very encouraging meeting, he seems like a very competent guy, like someone who can really help me to succeed and get a job! At least I hope so! He said he’s going to email me on some stuff over the next while, and he’ll also tidy up my CV!

So I left feeling very hopeful!