THIS IS A SUCKFEST OF A NIGHT.
I SHOULD BE ASLEEP, ITS ALMOST 2 AM
INSTEAD I AM UP RUMINATING
I AM OVERTHINKING AND PANICKING AND ANXIOUS AND FEARFUL
I MADE MYSELF SOME COFFEE, PROB NOT THE BEST IDEA BUT OH WELL IT IS WHAT IT IS
I NEED COFFEE I NEED TO CALM DOWN AND COFFEE HELPS ME CALM DOWN
PANIC IS RINNING RAMPANT THROUGH THE SYSTEM
I WROTE EILEEN AN EMAIL TO TELL HER WHAT IS GOING ON
I THINK ITS TO DO WITH MEMORIES AND BEING SCARED TO SLEEP FOR FEAR OF NIGHTMARES
WE TOOK OUR MEDS EARLY AND ALL HOPING FOR A GOOD NIGHT OF DECENT SLEEP
GOD HAVING DID IS A SUCKFEST SOMETIMES
I’d like to introduce you all to my good friend and fellow blogger, DV. Her bio and one of her poems is below.
Please pop on over to her blog and connect say hi support her, she is an amazing person!
Im an Australian doctor, artist, writer and mother coming to terms with longstanding mental health problems resulting from complex trauma. I started my blog Dangerous Voyage last year because I was inspired by reading about other peoples journeys through therapy, and I wanted to speak out too and to connect with people who understood what I was going through in a way that friends and family and therapists did not. The caring and support that I have received from being part of the blogging community has been amazing.
My poem: Hope
Hope is a flower
on a distant tree
thick fleshy petals
soft and white
touch leaves bruises
dirty and brown
starts the rot
I copy the flower in stone
thinking it will be strong
but that fails too
a brittle shell
which crumbles to dust at a touch
hope is a flower
on someone elses tree.
If I can’t hug physically, to help heal a broken or troubled heart, then I will hug with my words socially, mentally and spiritually until I reach the inner wounds of brokenness; soothing innerly with words that heal and mend with assurances of hope to rise again through faith and self-belief. Give a healthy hug to help ease the pains away, with hope!
Keep all special thoughts and memories for lifetimes to come. Share these keepsakes with others to inspire hope and build from the past, which can bridge to the future.
Enthusiasm is a Power that can give Dreams to the Dreamless, Life to the Lifeless, and Hope to the Hopeless.
this is a song I am currently digging. I love to turn it up loud and sing along to the tiny bits of it that I know. It makes me feel like I want to go abroad somewhere sunny and drink cocktails on the beach.
Let us be a glimpse of hope for someone suiting up for a battle, or just finished one or is in the midst of one. Encourage someone today and lift their spirits up!