Yesterday we visited my gramma and grandpas grave. They are buried in the same one. I usually don’t like going to grave yards, I mostly went for moms sake, mom really wanted to go. I am proud that I faced my fears and went. It was nice. I said some prayers and spent a little time just talking to my gramma and grandpa. We got flowers and put them on the grave. We bought lillies, roses and some other ones not sure of what they were. The grave yard where they are buried is a very old grave yard. There are graves in there going as far back as the early 1800’s. We walked around and looked at a few of them. I don’t know why but grave yards always spook me. There are some houses near this one, and I was telling mom I’d hate to live alongside a grave yard. I’d be terrified. Anyway I am glad we went. Its not often I visit their graves. It was nice to do that and then go back to the lake that is nearby and feed the ducks and swans and have drinks. Doing that made it a little easier as I knew we’d be doing something fun afterwords.
Good morning gang!
Its 5 AM. I woke up at 4:30. I couldn't sleep any more. So I got up. I decided I'd slept for long enough, even though in reality I only slept from 1 AM onwards. I decided I didn't need any more sleep. 3 hours was enough.
I woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed. Feeling surprisingly good. I even feel a little bit energised. It feels nice. I'm feeling very happy.
Today mom and me and moms sister are going to go visit my grammas and grandads grave, and take flowers to them. Its my moms mom, and dad. So really we're visiting both of them.
I haven't been at the grave in a while. I usually don't really like to go there. But something told me that I should go today. Mom wanted to, so I said I'd tag along. Maybe when I am there I will ask my nana and grandad to help me with the feelings and the deep depression and suicidal thoughts we're having lately.
I don't pray a lot, but today I think I'll say a few prayers to them.
After we finish at the graveside, we're going to a local lake, and we'll go walking around it. If you walk around the perimeter of the lake its 1 mile. We're planning on walking around it maybe 3 or 4 times. So I will definitely get my exercise in today.
Other than that it will be a quiet day I think. I don't have any other plans today, or for the rest of the weekend actually. I'm kinda thinking I might go visit norma tomorrow, for those who are wondering, norma is my friend, she's blind, and has mental health difficulties, and we are really good friends. I visit her a lot, she's a client of friendly call too. I am the one who referred her to them.
Well I hope you all have a good weekend! At the lake we're going to, there are a lot of ducks, so I may get nice pictures of us feeding them, or of me standing by them. If I do I'll be sure to post some of them here!
Well happy Saturday all!
Today August 24th is my grandads birthday. If he was alive he would have been 85. He died 3 years ago though.
I still miss him every day. Today I will think of him. And I will send a quick prayer up to him up in heaven, to let him know I miss him and love him.
RIP grandad bill, you were one in a million.