Not wanting to die but also not wanting to live?

I dont want to die but I dont want to live either. I hate my mind right now. Everything feels so pointless. Feeling like I dont matter and my life isnt worth anything. After all I am just an alter, hardly anyone knows me in real life. My therapist is the only one, along with some online friends. I cant live for them, but I dont want to live for me either. There is no motivation to keep on going or trying. Ending it all seems inviting right now. Just feel so lost and alone.

Jasmine