No volunteering today

I decided to skip volunteering for today. I just dont feel up to helpping people today. I need a day at home. I need to just relax and rest and take things easy. I am feeling kind of off today. Mood is low sorta anyway. We’re having a lot of issues with after therapy effects. Some inside are scared about therapy. Not sure why. They just are feeling like its all too much.
I’m sure we’ll be ok though. I am watching the ellen show right now. I love ellen.


Volunteering this afternoon

Well in about 20 mins I am off to go volunteering for the afternoon. My supervisor is picking me up. I am excited to go in to the office. I really love what I do. My job is so rewarding, I know I keep saying that. But it really is.
I am so looking forward to speaking with my clients today. I hope some of them will have stuff to tell me. Sometimes they do. I hope its not a day where people arent answering their phones. I worry when that happens.
I will be there from 2 PM until around 5 PM. One of my colleagues will drop me home after my shift. I’ve had a pleasant morning of chill here at home, so I’m ready for my shift.



well i had a good afternoon. volunteering went well. I didnt manage to get hold of all of my clients though. some of them didnt answer their phones. i did talk to a few of them though and we had a nice chat. I am pleased with how the day went. Now I am sitting here with all of my calls done. I have to sit here for the next half hour, since my colleague Trish cant leave the office until 4:45 PM. She is going to drop me home then though. I dont mind having to sit here though, there is plenty of things I can do online for a while until its time to go home. There was one incident with one client today, he was drunk, and he didnt know what day it was or where he was going, he does this a lot, drinks heavily, and gets himself lost and into such a state that he literally cant find his way home. Its awful for him. The first time it happened and I was on the phone to him I was really concerned. But my supervisor told me not to be. So now when it happens I am not too worried. He always gets home in the end. My supervisor has spoken to him on a few occasions, and told him that maybe he shouldnt be drinking so heavily but he never listens. Anyway besides that the afternoon went fine. Everyone else was ok and happy and in a good mood so that was nice.

At the office

well I am here, at the office. i got here 45 mins early. so i am just having a coffee and messing around on my laptop until 2 PM when I start making my calls.
My sister dropped me off. Mom came with her and she walked me from the car into the office. then they’ll go back and pick up my nephew from school.
I have extra clients to call today. A good few extra. I dont know any of them. But I am sure I’ll get to know them once we chat a few times. Some of them I have never called before.
Anyway, coffee is calling, chat soon guys!

A busy week ahead

This week is going to be crazy busy. Tomorrow I have to go volunteering, my supervisor rang me earlier, she has to go to Dublin tomorrow for some meeting around funding, so she’s unable to pick me up as she normally does. Its ok though I have sorted a ride, my sister is going to drop me off. My supervisor also sent me my list of clients that I have to call, and turns out my next door neighbours name was on the list, so I had to email her back and let her know I wont be calling her, as my neighbour and I are very friendly with each other, and I am sure she’d recognise me and be uncomfortable. I am happy to be going back volunteering again. I am happiest whenI am there doing the job I love.
Wednesday morning I have college. We are back after last week being canceled. I am excited to go. I am wondering what our lecture will be on this week. Something good I hope. I also have slimming world on Wednesday night. I just know I wont have lost any weight. I wont be surprised if I don’t. If I do I’ll be very surprised. I will go because I haven’t been in two weeks now and I think I need to go and be accountable.
Thursday is the only day this week where I don’t have something on! I can stay home and chill out. I am sure I’ll find stuff to do, but it will be nice to just be able to do what I want when I want on that day.
On Friday morning mom and my sis and me have to go to the solicitor to sort out about our cheques, we have to sign them so she can lodge them into her account, pay her fees, and then she’ll ring us to come in and collect them once all that’s done. , In the afternoon, mom and me and moms two sisters are going for afternoon tea. Mom got it as a Christmas gift from my sister, and she booked us in for Friday afternoon at 4. I am looking forward to it. We’ll have the tea and then stay in the hotel for some drinks afterwords. I’m sure it will be a late night for us on Friday.

#JusJoJan prompt january 31st 2019

Your prompt for JusJoJan 2019, January 31st is your favorite thing/part/blog post of last year or last month. Talk about what you did or discovered that gave you happiness and/or success. Have fun!

My favourite part of last month was starting college! For those who dont already know, I started a course this month, I am studying mental health in the community. And I am loving it. I find it so interesting, not least because I am a patient, I have a mental illness, so I am learning a whole lot of new stuff about all aspects of mental illness! From the history of psychiatry, to positive psychology, to learning about the different chapters in the DSM, I even have to do a presentation on one disorder, I am thinking I’ll do mine on complex ptsd, or did. I am not sure yet though. But that was my thought. I really love the course so far though. 3 weeks in and I am itching to learn more already. The course is for a year, and at the end of it I get a certificate in mental health in the community. I am so glad I decided to do this. As I work in friendly call, and work with a lot of clients who have mental health difficulties, not only will it help them, but I am also benefiting, and I am hopeful it will help me too. The positive psychology part of the course is really helping, we also did wrap training, which was amazing. I am now qualified to teach wrap if I chose to do that. Or I will be once I get my certificate.

Yet another death of another of my friendly call clients…will the loss ever end?

well guys, bad news, more bad news.
my supervisor told me today on the drive to the office that another client died. His name was daniel. He was in his 80’s. He was one of my regular callers. He was such a kind, gentle man. A very genuine warm kind caring person.
We arent sure what exactly happened to him. I talked to him last Tuesday afternoon, and then I couldnt get through to him on friday, but it turns out that by then he was already dead, we just didnt know it yet. My supervisor went on which is a site where you can find out whose died. She saw his name on there.
I am heartbroken as I knew this guy really well. I am saddened at his loss. I will really miss him. He always made me laugh, and I looked forward to our chats every week.
We’ve lost four of our clients in the space of 2 or 3 weeks now. Its so sad. I really hope we dont lose anyone else. I really feel unable to handle any more loss. I am struggling as it is. I am really finding it difficult to come to terms with all these losses.
If you pray, please pray. If not, send good vibes thoughts to me. I really need them right now. I just hope all of the clients who died lately are now at peace.