Today’s prompt over at what if we all cared is:
to last a life time
it will no longer be
part of me
of my day
Let’s not look back in anger, or forward in fear, but around in awareness.
Fear grows out of the things we think; and lives in our minds. Compassion grows out of the thing we are; and lives in our hearts.
todays prompt over at what if we all cared is…
In the walls
fear is in the walls
of the prison I’ve built
not letting me be free
the fear permiates
and i get more and more frustrated
wanting a way out
not seeing one
no matter how far i run
my mind stalls
as i try to call
but only fall
trying to escape
my prison of fear
to go somewhere
where i can feel
and most importantly heal
I WANT AN END TO THE PAIN, I DONT WANT TO BE HERE ANY MORE, I WANT OUT, I WANT OUT NOW. I CANT TAKE IT ANY MORE. I CANT I CANT. IM DROWNING. IM SINKING FAST. LIFE FEELS JUST SO UNBEARABLE.
SIRENA AGE 16
I WOKE UP WITH FEAR RUNNING THROUGH ME. I THINK I HAD A NIGHTMARE. I CANT REMEMBER IT BUT I FEEL AFRAID. SO SO AFRAID. I FEEL VERY UNSAFE. I GOT UP AND MADE A CUP OF COFFEE. IM IN THE KITCHEN NOW WITH THE RADIO ON DRINKING ME. I LET NITRO OUT. I PATTED HIM. I TRIED TO DO SOME GROUNDING TO DISTRACT ME FROM THE FEELINGS OF FEAR BUT ITS NOT WORKING TOO WELL. I ONLY GOT 2 HOURS OF SLEEP. WELL OK MAYBE 3. I WENT TO BED AROUND 8, WOKE UP JUST AFTER 11. NOW WIDE AWAKE AND UNABLE TO GO BACK TO SLEEP. ITS VERY UNLIKE ME AS NORMALLY AFTER A HARD THERAPY SESSION WE’RE DRAINED. THIS FEELS PRETTY UNMANAGEABLE. MY EMOTIONS AGAIN ARE ALL OVER THE PLACE. I’M TRYING NOT TO PUSH THEM AWAY. I JUST FEEL FRIGHTENED FEAR IS THE MAIN ONE I AM FEELING. FEAR OF WHAT IM NOT SURE THOUGH.
From Every Change In Life, You Can Learn Something Important
In every change that you experience in life, there will be times when you’ll wonder if you can endure.
But you’ll learn that facing each difficulty one by one isn’t so hard.
It’s when you don’t deal with a situation that it sometimes comes back to confront you again.
Changes are sometimes very painful, but they teach us that we can endure and that we can become stronger.
Everything that comes into your life has a purpose, but the outcome is in your hands by the action you take.
Be wise with your life, be willing to endure, and always be willing to face life’s challenges.