#whatif prompt 20.10.18

Today’s #whatif prompt:

floating fantasy

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A floating fantasy
For me
Is to be
Free
Free from nightmares
Night terrors
And free from the claws
Of pain, pain
That tends to drive me insane
Free from it all
For just one night
I would love it
And I would be
Full of happiness
Floating on air
But that my friends
That is just a floating fantasy
For me
Since it just is not
The way it is
On most nights
On most nights
Nightmares call
Night terrors send me
Reeling in fear
For what feels like
Forever

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Facing my fears and ready to take on today!

I never did sleep. am up and ready to face my day. a long day at that. wont be able to nap either during the day today. am going to the basement club this morning, have a taxi booked for 9:45 to take me there. So nervous. But I know I’ll be fine, just feeling apprehensive about meeting the new staff. Will stay down there until around 1:30 and then go straight to my volunteer job. I hope we arent too busy today in friendly call. I could do with a light work load and a fairly quiet afternoon. When I come back home I have to cook dinner, so I doubt I’ll get to rest until quite late tonight. Thats ok too though. I’ll be ok. I feel kinda emotional I think its others feelings though not my own. The littles were really scared during the night, so I think its the left over feelings from that along with some nervousness and anxiety about going to the basement club. I wish rose hadnt canceled and was going with me but well I’m sure I can do this on my own too. I think if I do I will have accomplished a huge thing, setting my anxieties aside and just getting out there and doing it, going in to meet the staff despite my huge fears about it.
carol anne

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A quote from a ted talk

“we feel so much pain and so much love, and we sense that the world doesn’t want us to feel that much, and doesn’t want to need as much comfort as we need, so we start pretending. We try to pretend we’re the
people we’re supposed to be. We numb and we hide and we pretend, and
that pretending does eventually turn into a life of lies. But to be fair, we thought we were supposed to be lying. They tell us since we’re little that when someone asks us how we’re doing, the only appropriate
answer is, “Fine. And you?” But the thing is that people are truth tellers. We are born to make our unknown known. We will find somewhere to do it. So, in private, with the booze or the overshopping or the
alcohol or the food, we tell the truth. We say, “Actually, I’m not fine.” Because we don’t feel safe telling that truth in the real world–we make our own little world–and that’s addiction. And so what happens is, all of us end up living in these little, teeny,
controllable, predictable, dark worlds, instead of all together in the big, bright, messy one.”

Lessons From The Mental Hospital

Glennon Doyle Melton | TEDxTraverseCity
TEDx Talks

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHHPNMIK-fY&t=367s

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