Healing words of the day!

Conquering any difficulty always gives one a secret joy, for it means pushing back a boundary-line and adding to one’s liberty.
Henri-Frédéric Amiel

I definitely think if we conquer our difficulties, and face our fears, life will become much nicer.
Plus the sense of achievement we will feel will be awesome too!
Go out and live your life, face your fears, and conquer them!

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Facing my fears and ready to take on today!

I never did sleep. am up and ready to face my day. a long day at that. wont be able to nap either during the day today. am going to the basement club this morning, have a taxi booked for 9:45 to take me there. So nervous. But I know I’ll be fine, just feeling apprehensive about meeting the new staff. Will stay down there until around 1:30 and then go straight to my volunteer job. I hope we arent too busy today in friendly call. I could do with a light work load and a fairly quiet afternoon. When I come back home I have to cook dinner, so I doubt I’ll get to rest until quite late tonight. Thats ok too though. I’ll be ok. I feel kinda emotional I think its others feelings though not my own. The littles were really scared during the night, so I think its the left over feelings from that along with some nervousness and anxiety about going to the basement club. I wish rose hadnt canceled and was going with me but well I’m sure I can do this on my own too. I think if I do I will have accomplished a huge thing, setting my anxieties aside and just getting out there and doing it, going in to meet the staff despite my huge fears about it.
carol anne

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Changes

From Every Change In Life, You Can Learn Something Important
In every change that you experience in life, there will be times when you’ll wonder if you can endure.
But you’ll learn that facing each difficulty one by one isn’t so hard.
It’s when you don’t deal with a situation that it sometimes comes back to confront you again.
Changes are sometimes very painful, but they teach us that we can endure and that we can become stronger.
Everything that comes into your life has a purpose, but the outcome is in your hands by the action you take.
Be wise with your life, be willing to endure, and always be willing to face life’s challenges.

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Talking through my anxieties around starting the independent living skills course with dr. barry

i had a great apt with dr. barry yesterday. we mostly talked about me starting the independent living skills course. i told her i have been trying to implement some things so that uncontrollable switching does not occur during the day while we are working on the classes, because the staff at the residential centre where I’ll be living are only trained to work with disabled people, they arent trained to work with mental illness. although there will be at least 3 of us with mental illnesses living there. i know this because two of the other girls who live there told me they struggle with mental illnesses. but anyways. i dont want the younger parts coming out at inappropriate times. i am going to work next week in therapy on implementing some strategies to avoid this if i can. i will make a team of insiders me and a few others, who will participate in the classes during the day. i think that will be the best thing to do. then the kids can come out in the evenings when we’re alone in our apartment. they can watch tv, play games on our phone, blog etc. that way its fair and everyone gets to have time out in the body. dr. barry thought this was a great idea. we talked about my anxiety around starting. i am a little anxious but i suppose thats to be expected. i know there is going to be six of us doing the course, 3 guys and 3 girls. the thing I am most anxious about is using public transport. I just have no confidence, despite my trainer nathalie telling me that she thinks i’d be fine and be able to do it with no problems. when my mental illness got severe some years back i stopped doing routes with my dog, i didnt go anywhere alone, i always took a taxi places etc. i’m determined that on this independent living skills course that I will change this. I want my independence back again, plus also if I dont tackle it now, when it comes time for Nitro to retire they will not give me a new dog. I just have to be brave and face my fears head on. Wish me luck guys.