it’s knowing how hard life can be
and knowing before the age of three
its being rejected before you can speak
and living by it week by week
no hugs, no tickles, no high fives
nothing to show you exist, your alive
you cant be stirred from your bed
you are trying to get the nighttmare out of your head
we gotta hav pancaks
thay was so nummy
we only had lemon juise on ares
that ok tho
they wer stil nise
i likd them
it shrove tuesday
dat why we had them
everone eat pancaks on dis day
atleast that what i know
i fink we be hav them for diner tonite to
I HATE LIFE. I HATE MY ABUSERS. I HATE EVERYTHING. I WANT TO GIVE UP. I’M SO PISSED. I WANT TO BREAK EVERYTHING IN THIS DAMN ROOM. FUCKING ABUSERS THEY ARE SCUM. CONSTANTLY HARASSING US. GETTING US ALL RILED UP. HARD NOT TO GET RILED UP. I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIE. I REALLY REALLY DO. I AM DONE. I AM SO FUCKING DONE. BEAT DOWN AND DONE. LIFE SUCKS. MY LIFE IS PATHETIC. I AM A FAILURE. I COULDNT EVEN SUCCEED AT ENDING IT.
PIXIE AGE 21
my anxiety is through the roof right now. i feel very emotional too. i woke up feeling that way.
i had some nightmares which were awful. i dreamt my dad left and i also dreamt my sister died.
it was horrible. when i woke up from the nightmares i couldnt move. all i could do was cry.
i eventually got up and let nitro out. its snowing outside. nitro doesnt really like the snow. i made coffee and now i’m feeling a little calmer but i still feel so anxious.
just another day in our crazy life i guess.
i hate myself. i feel so fat. fat and disgusting. i want to vomit. i cant help it i just feel so gross. it will get all the badness out of me if i do it. i am black on the inside. why did carol anne let erika eat those cookies earlier? i wish she hadnt. im just obsessing over the amount of calories in them.
emily age 12