The importance of community, connection and altruism in healing trauma.

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Guest blogger Eve Adams from Revenge of eve tells her story

Today we have a guest blogger, Eve Adams, from revenge of eve.
Check out eves blog at
http://revengeofeveforeveranonymous.wordpress.com/
Below eve shares her story of what it was like to be an alcoholic, now in recovery, Eve tells us what recovery is like also.

Eve writes…

Under the pseudonym Eve Adams, I write anonymously to express my deepest emotions. Blogging is a secret life and for that reason, I enjoy every moment of it. The mystery it creates allows me free range of speech and for this stage of my life, it seems necessary. I am not ashamed of any lessons that life has taught me through mistakes but privacy is key for me. Through this experience, I have learned to set boundaries by breaking my own. I am sharing my true self and at times this is difficult to do behind a mask. Often I feel like an imposter.

I am Eve, a sober bartender in recovery from alcohol. Yes, you read that right. This month,

April 2018, I will have three years sober.

In the beginning, I worked the graveyard shift at Denny’s. They are a 24-hour establishment that does not serve alcohol. Let me be honest, this is the type of restaurant where servers retire! Lol.. Prior to here, I had an extensive career as a fast-paced bartender in local nightclubs so the difference between the two places isn’t comparable. With that said, part of me was dying with my sobriety, a huge part. I can honestly say that I never thought I would step behind the bar again.

A brief history of what my alcoholism looked like. I was living in a town three hours away from home trying to get sober. Living out of my truck, to be exact, because I was kicked out of many sober living homes. I would sleep and drink in the Walmart parking lot. I did so I would be seen by cameras if something were to happen to me. I did this for about three months until I realized I wasn’t getting sober. I was unemployed for two years at this point, consuming a gallon of vodka a day. I made a trip home to spend my daughters spring break with her. It was here I promised my mother I wouldn’t drink and she gave me yet another chance.

I would go on to getting my job at the 24-hour restaurant and secretly I was drinking. This went on for a year before finally, my daughter said she had enough. I wasn’t hiding it as well as I had thought. I haven’t had a drink since that day, three years ago. I had tried everything. I completed six rehabs along with three mental institution stays, they didn’t work. I should be honest and say I didn’t put in the work. I would be employed at the “graveyard” for a year and a half before moving on to a restaurant that served alcohol. I wasn’t the bartender but I did have to make the drinks for my tables. They didn’t have a morning bartender. I worked here for six months before returning to my job at the casino, serving alcohol.

It was a concern for a few but not for me. I knew that I could not have a drink. It will ruin my life, I have the proof, the medal, and the trophy! I had not one desire to drink so when the position came available to work at a full-service bar, I jumped on it. During my interview, I informed the owner of my drinking history telling him if I had one temptation, I would leave. I value my sobriety.

Suddenly I began to feel life again. The part that was missing was in my career. I never imagined myself to be behind a bar again much less sober. There has been one instance that my anxiety was high and I imagined myself taking a shot. In that very moment, I stepped outside and debated leaving but I stayed because I am strong, not stronger than my disease but strong in my sobriety. I remained outside for a few before shaking it off and walking back in. I have been maintaining two jobs since October 2017 and I am happy to report, sober.

My struggle with being an alcoholic has been minimal. It was getting sober that was the hard part for me, remaining sober hasn’t been easy but doable. I find myself enjoying the simple things in life instead of taking them for granted. Today I am medicated for bipolar. I am a different person from who I once was. I now have patience, compassion, and understanding that others struggle too. I am no longer angry or debate every conversation had. I must admit this is the life I have dreamed of and it is mine. Sober. Positive and truly happy!

good Morning and goals update

hey everyone
how was your night?
mine was, awful. i got no sleep. i tried, man did i try.
but yeah, nothing. just tossing and turning and thinking…ug.
nitro was sleeping, so at least one of us was…
well today have a busy day ahead. have class in the morning, not sure what we’re doing before small break, but at 11 we’re cooking.
then in the afternoon i have my volunteer job…

Goals for today…

take meds
eat 3 healthy meals
participate in cookery class
go volunteering
journal
read for an hour
meditate
practice breath work
exercise if possible

have a lovely day everyone!
carol anne

Training another disabled person

i’m excited to start my new volunteer role today.
I’ll be training another blind woman in how to use her laptop!
I hope I can be a good teacher! I’ve never really taught another blind person, I hope she wont think I go too fast!
I will try to take it very slow. I will just first ask her what she would like to learn, like so then I can maybe taylor the training to the things she’s most interested in learning.
I’m pretty sure she’ll want to learn to use the internet. and she needs to know about the screen reader, like the commands for using it and how to read documents, save them, print them etc.
It will be an interesting two hours!

New opportunity

so you all know I volunteer on Tuesday at the cork city partnership, this is an organisation that works with vulnerable, and elderly people, and people living in disadvantaged areas.
Last week my supervisor said she had two blind people, who needed training in how to use their laptop and I phone.
she asked me if I’d be interested in doing it since I am blind myself, and could give them first hand experience.
so I jumped at the chance.
Well tomorrow I start the job. One of the girls who just got a new laptop will come to me from 2:30 until 4:30. I am excited. But nervous too.
Will I be a good teacher? Will she like my style?
She already knows me. I know her boyfriend, he teaches at a local centre for the blind near where I live.
Well I hope she’ll enjoy it and get a lot out of what I try to help her with learning.
And hoping I get and gain a lot out of it too.
At least I have patience and don’t mind going over things…that helps, right?