so I just got some good news! I thought I was way behind on my work experience module, and I found out I am not!
Yay! I am so glad!
I have the majority of the module finished. I just have to write my thank you letter to my employer, and my reflections on my work experience process. I cant do those though until I’ve finished my work experience. I also have to finish the diary I am keeping about my work experience.
I have 7 weeks of my work experience completed now. Cant believe I’ve been there 7 weeks already!
I am meant to do 10 weeks in total.
I will probably do longer if Anita is happy to keep me on. But after 10 weeks I can do the rest of the stuff that i need to do to finish up the module.
There is also a team work exercise that needs to be completed but I cant complete that unless one of my class mates is in to help me because we’re meant to work in teams to do it.
So yeah progress is being made and I am happy!
so this morning we had a phone consult with our OT mark. It went really well. We talked about different options going forward, in regards to courses, both leisure interest courses and educational courses. He told me about some courses that two local colleges have on offer in the spring, these courses include things like learning a language, creative writing, guitar for beginners, art and yoga and mindfulness and meditation. They all sound interesting. He also told me about some courses that I could do which will lead to certification, these include theraputic play, a course on dementia, child care courses etc. He said that I should probably wait until I get hooked up with the job coach in early January before I go ahead and apply for any of the courses. His thinking was that when I get hooked up with the job coach and figure out what direction I want to go in in regards to my career and making goals surrounding that, then I’ll be more equipped to apply for courses to either enhance my CV or pursue something for just leisure interest. I’m thinking I’ll probably like to work in either tech support in some company, or else in a call centre, it seems like all the jobs are in those areas. And I dont have to stay at the same job for years, maybe I vcan just stay in one job for a year or two and then move on to something else. I’d like to do the theraputic play course, it sounds like it would be very good and I think I’d learn a lot. He said the local colleges have plenty of psychology related courses on offer if I was interested in any of those. He also did a brief check in with me about how I was doing, I told him how things have been for us over the past couple of weeks. I passed on the tip to him about the ap for reminding me to take my meds, he was pleased. He says he’s learned so much from me over the past couple of years, and he passes all my tips on to his colleagues. That made me feel good. It was a good consult and we agreed that when he’s back in the new year he’d call me and we’d meet up. We decided not to meet up until after I get hooked up with the job coach. He said he’s working next Thursday the 29th and if I need anything I can call him. He’s a wonderful OT and I consider myself very lucky to be working with him.
yesterday we saw our OT mark as well as seeing dr. barry. It had been a month since we saw mark. We had a lot to catch up on.
We talked about me possibly getting a part time job in the new year. I’m currently waiting to see a job coach. I’ve been waiting for at least 8 weeks. Mark gtold me to phone them and see where I was on their waiting list. So I did. The girl I spoke to couldnt tell me so she said she’d try to find out and call me back.
We also talked about possibly going back to college part time. I said to mark how every time I go to college it never seems to work out for me. He said why repeat the same pattern then? But he agreed to look at options and get back to me with what he finds. I’m looking for courses with certification something where i can get a qualification. But something i can do part time one or two evenings a week.
We are going to have a phone session on 19th December. During that session we are going to discuss the college options. I told Mark too yesterday about my symptoms being quite bad. he was very sympathetic. it was a really productive appointment.
this morning I saw mark our OT. We had an 8:15 AM apt. I always have early apts with him which suit me because I am always up early and he likes to come into work before the traffic gets crazy. he works as an OT in the secure unit, I was his client when he used to work under my old psychiatrist and he kept me on as a client when he moved to the secure unit. this morning we had to discuss my going back to college. i am temporarily off the course and have a date to go back which is april 4th. that is a provisional date. i was hesitant about going back, because the last module i did was so stressful. there was a ton of technology and accessibility issues and in the end to get through the module I had to learn off a ton of formulas. but i got through it. also when i am in college i put a lot of pressure on myself to do well. dr. barry has been trying to tell me lately that my best is good enough, its one of her new mantras. she told me i put unrealistic expectations on myself. i know she’s right. i wanted to get distinctions in every module. even if i was stressing out to the max, even if the stress was so much that i was getting sick, i still felt like i had to excel, i had to succeed, i had to do well no matter what. and i did do well. in the 3 modules i’ve done, i’ve gotten all distinctions in every one. i told mark this morning that i’d decided to go back to college, that being home all day every day was driving me crazy. even though i’d been going out, going to the basement club, involving myself in groups, meeting friends for coffee, going to appointments, even though i’d been doing all that I still felt like I had a lot of time on my hands. and that leads to me thinking too much. it leads to my symptoms becoming worse. when i over think or have too much time on my hands i decline and go downhill pretty quickly. i need routine. i need something to occupy my mind and to keep me busy. plus when i am done with the course i want to go to work part time. i ended up talking to mark about that possibility too this morning. he said he’d support me in that too when the time came for me to pursue work if that is what i wanted to do. and i think it is. eventually i’d love to work part time. for now though he’s going to ring fiona the psychologist at the school and talk to her about setting up a meeting between the 3 of us before i start back in April. I’m due to start back on April 4th. all going well that is what will happen. so between now and then i have some free time, i should use it wisely. i’m going to meet with mark again next wednesday and we are going to do some preparation for my return to college. i’m not sure what that involves but I’m ready to start preparing. its great to have marks support with all this. it is invaluable and he has been so helpful. when i went into hospital a few weeks ago and had to do a temporary exit of the course he sorted it all out for me. he has done so much work on my behalf. i am blessed to have him on my treatment team. i feel like i’ve made a good decision. i’m ready and feeling in a much better place now that the decision is made. heres to my success at college. mark encouraged me to go back, but not to focus on results. instead to enjoy the process and relish in the new friends i am making, instead of always focusing on the work and achieving distinctions. he is right. i need to enjoy my experience. and i will. i’m going to go much easier on myself when i go back in a few weeks. i’ve learned a lot and i plan on putting what i’ve learned into action.