Therapy yesterday was hard. Hard, but good.
We worked with Allie. She had to work on some memories. It was really tough. Just hearing her memories was super hard on all of us. Hearing some things she went through when we were a kid. It was painful.
Eileen was unbelievable. She was with us through it all. There for us at every step. I love her. She made us feel so safe.
Part way through the session during the EMDR and when the memories were especially hard to deal with, our body became super cold. It was like we were reacting to processing them. We were freezing. Eileen went and got a fleece blanket and wrapped it around us to warm us up. It was so nice. It felt so good.
At another point she just held us. She put her arms around our back and shoulders, and held us and talked sootheingly to us. It felt so reassuring. It made us feel so safe.
The holding really helps us. Its part of what she’s doing in her somatic bodywork course. She’s training in bodywork and to be a bodywork practitioner. So this is ths sort of thing they are larning. How to support your client while they process memories.
It was a great session. And we did a lot of hard work. We still need to process more, but we made a start. And the memories we processed, well they’re allie’s, but they are around going to bed, and bedtime. So that will hopefully help us to not feel so triggered at night.
I know with Eileen by our side, we can do anything. She was so kind yesterday. Just her voice, the calm way she speaks to the kids, to all of us, is so, so sootheing to us. It really helps. We felt validated, heard, listened to, and that was just so amazing to me.
I definitely think touch in therapy is so important. I dont know if its for everyone, but for me, due to us being blind, it is so helpful. Eileen thinks so too. She said she’s mindful of doing it with some clients, but for us, she said it works. She feels its beneficial to us to use it during our sessions. And so do I. I feel that it works for us.
I’m glad we got to process the memories. Now to get through the rest of this week, hopefully we can. We had to rearrange our session for next week as next monday here is a bank holiday, so we’ll see Eileen on thursday morning instead. I’m so glad she could fit us in on another day. I’m so grateful to her for doing that for us so we wouldnt go without therapy for a week.