so tomorrow there is a documentary being filmed at the basement club. it is all about learning and education and how we learn at the basement club through doing groups and having a recovery space and through mentoring and having a drop in information service. The documentary will be filmed over two days. then it will go on a couple of websites including our local health executive services’s website, and unesco, which is a european website which is about community development. 3 organisations were picked to be part of this documentary. only a couple of members of the basement club were chosen though to be part of it. i was chosen which is a great honour. i’ll be talking about volunteering as an admin and how i have learned from that. on wednesday we will have an art room set up and they will be doing shots of us doing art, to show off our creativity. in a couple of weeks i will have a link to the documentary, which i will be able to show all of you. so stay tuned. i am so excited to do this. it is a great opportunity to show off the work that the basement club does. and even though we are a mental health related organisation there is much much more than just mental health recovery that goes on in here. through groups and talking and sharing information and sharing ideas we learn. some people come and participate in one or two groups and then from that are able to have the confidence to go back to college. others are able to find out through our catch ups or from the notice board what is going on in the community. then there is the whole creative side through art and creative writing and gardening and other creative projects. the 3 members who were chosen to do the interviews tomorrow will do different things. one member will go to the green ribbon garden and talk about what he has learned from being part of the gardening committee each week. then another member will go into the resource room with denise who is the co-ordinator and talk about how finding resources can be helpful in learning and she will also show how staff help members fill out forms and other documents. and then i will sit with emily in the computer room and we will talk about the newsletter and ideas for that and how me being an admin and volunteering has helped my recovery and helped me to grow. it should be a really fabulous experience. i cant wait to be part of it.
so some of you might know i was looking in to going to college in september. i have been working with my OT mark on this. I had a couple of things in mind, mainly childcare, advocacy and youth and community work. I decided childcare is not for me. I’ve tried it. It is great, and I love learning about child development and education and stuff but its not practical really given my blindness. And doing another course in childcare would not be cost effective either because it would be a full time course and I’d need to take a taxi there and back each day which there is no way I could afford on my weekly budget. So i’ve decided childcare is now out. My next choice was doing an advocacy course. However I rang them up and it turns out the course only runs every two years, and its been running this year so wont be running again until 2019. So thats now out too. So my last option for now is a course in youth and community work. Its called substance use and misuse in youth and community work. When I first looked at this course I thought it would not be very benificial to me because I dont work with the youth or addicts. But then my mentor colette from the basement club said I should rethink because she had done it and she doesnt work with that sector either but she said there is lots of things it taught her and lots of stuff to learn about addiction and even if you dont work with young people it could come in handy for other communities that you are a part of. Well then I was thinking yeah, I work voluntarily with the basement club and I will be starting a volunteer position soon with cork city partnership working with vulnerable people in disadvantaged areas. So yes it would come in handy. I was also a youth club leader in the past, and I also have a diploma in youth and community work. So I filled up the application form today. The course is part time, one evening a week for 3 hours, and then some work to do at home like assignments and other projects. It runs for a year. There are only 25 places though and usually about 50 or 60 people apply to do the course. Interviews are run and I hope I’ll at least get an interview. So thats my good news of the day. I’m really hopeful that I will get to do the course. I think I would benefit from it and learn alot too along the way.
Yesterday I had an apt with my OT mark. It was a really good apt. We talked some more about options for me to do a college course. I am still interested in something related to childcare. at least I was until I got a phone call yesterday evening from one of the tutors on the other course I am interested in which is called issues in substance use in youth and community work. When the tutor rang me she said she’d send me an application form and brochure which she did and i’ve sent it on to mark, I also sent him an email this morning asking him to fill out the application form with me. But back to yesterday and the apt. We talked about the childcare course. And the supports I may need in the college. Funnily enough the course in issues of substance use in youth and community work is taking place in the same college where the childcare courses I wanted to do are. The thing is I only want to go part time. And the substance use course is part time. The childcare one is full time and that is way too stressful for me. Plus I’ve gotten a volunteer position with cork city partnership as an office admin worker I’ll be doing up letters, writing email and answering phones. Its only 1 day a week but then I also volunteer at the basement club, I’ve taken a small break while I was hospitalised recently but I will be going back to it soon. I work better under less pressure so that is what myself and mark talked through yesterday. Then we got on to talking about the adaptive technology and home improvements. I had asked him to request a price on a frame that goes around my toilet, which he did, but yesterday he said that rather than having me pay for it, he should refer me to the community OT and she could do an assessment and then I should be able to get the frame on my medical card. Since I’ve been having balance issues and postural hypertention that is why I need the frame. I told him I am having the blood pressure monitor done next week to see if my meds are causing my blood pressure to drop. so we decided to wait until we meet again in 3 weeks time to make a final decision about the adaptions to my home. I also have to see what equipment I might need and send him a quote for it, then he will get Karen the social worker to do a funding application for me. That was the bulk of our appointment. I did talk to him some about my ongoing symptoms. He always checks in with me about how I’m doing, what is going on for me, etc. Which is really nice. He’s a good listener and I was able to get a lot off my mind before I ever went in to see dr. barry.
yesterday i saw dr. barry. while i was in hospital I had asked dr. barry if I could educate the junior doctors on did, by doing a case conference to educate them. basically, these case conferences are done every week, each week a different case is picked but the patients arent always present. what happens is all the doctors and different team members, like nurses, social workers, community psych nurses, etc get together and discuss a case. there is a presentation and then they discuss treatment options outcomes etc. so dr. barry asked if i’d like to be part of that. of course i jumped at the chance. when i was in hospital this time i had to explain my did to some doctors. i always find that frustrating because you get a barrage of questions about it, most of which seem so stupid to me. i know they have to learn though so i agreed to do it. it will be happening in 3 weeks time. basically what will happen is dr. barrys junior doctor dr. wall will bring me into a room and ask me some questions. i will be on video camera and the video link will be fed back to another room where the rest of the doctors and nurses will be. i dont know yet what the questions will be that i will be asked but dr. barry told me yesterday that she will work on them and let me know soon. i think its up to dr. barry what she wants to ask. i’ve done one of these case conferences before some years ago. i feel kinda priveleged to actually be there and be part of it because as i mentioned usually patients arent involved in them at all
I hate people who are condescending. Someone in my life, a person who is influencial is being so condescending. Its driving me nuts. She’s a teacher that I habve, but she makes me feel like crap. When I ask questions she makes me feel like crap, like I shouldn’t, like I am bothering her or putting her out, inconveniencing her in some way. It is a terrible feeling and I hate the classes because of her. Luckily I wont have to deal with her for much longer, I’m glad as I don’t think I could tolerate it. Teachers are supposed to encourage their pupils, she definitely doesn’t do that. She throws things at us and just kinda expects us to know what we’re doing and where we’re going without clarifying anything. Its nuts. I’d complain her but I am not sure who to complain her to. I’m only the learner after all. Just having an off day. Feeling fragile and overwhelmed right now.