7 years

You remember my cousin who died this year of liver cancer? Her name was Alison. She was fifty remember?
Well her son was on remand, for a drugs charge, he’s 28. Well, found out today he got 7 years, I guess drugs charges are serious, I didnt think what he did was that bad, but then tonight my mom told me he was caught selling drugs, so yes, it is that bad.
I feel sad for him. Now he’ll be in prison until he is in his mid to late 30’s. I know it was his choice to sell drugs, but really there was more to it, he grew up in a part of london that is full of gangs, and so it was kinda a given he was going to do something like this. His life was mapped out for him.
Now he’s in prison, and also grieving the loss of his mom, who he was very close to.
I think when he does get out of there, he’ll be far worse off than he is now. He’ll probably be angry, and rebel or do something else, I think his life wont get any easier once his time in prison is done.
The family didnt need this devastation, his sister and grandparents and aunts and uncle all didnt need more on top of what their already dealing with. A sad sad situation for everyone involved.

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Book review: Denied a mummy by maggie hartley

Just finished an amazing book, denied a mummy by Maggie Hartley.

Here’s the summary of the book, and my thoughts are below.

When Maggie’s latest placement arrives on her doorstep, the three young siblings have clearly been through unspeakable traumas in their short lives. Violent, malnourished and showing signs of sexualised behaviour, the two brothers and their big sister have been left to fend for themselves by their drug-addicted parents. Maggie must use all of her skills and experience as a foster carer to help these damaged siblings to learn to be children again. With much love, care and patience, their behaviour gradually starts to improve, and social services start looking for a forever family for them.

But alarm bells start to ring when Maggie meets the couple who have been matched to adopt the siblings. It is clear that they’re looking for the perfect ready-made family, and they’re not going to get it with these vulnerable brothers and sister. Despite raising her concerns with social services, Maggie is powerless to prevent the adoption from going ahead, and she must put aside her own fears to help the siblings settle in with their new parents. But she can’t shake the feeling of dread as she waves them good-bye.

Six months later, Maggie’s worst nightmares come true when she learns that the children have been handed back to the care of social services following the breakdown of the adoption. Maggie must fight to get the children returned to her, but is it too late to undo the damage that has been done?

My thoughts…

An absolutely fabulous read. Gripping, a page turner. This book you wont be able to put it down! It was heartbreaking in parts, uplifting in parts, an overall great read! You cheer as the children progress, you cry with them, laugh with them, I highly recommend you read this one! It will not disappoint!
Its available on audible, kindle and in paperback.

#whatif prompt 6-10-18

Today the prompt over at what if we all cared is, sleeping in the park!

Lucky for me I’ve never had to sleep rough. Never had to sleep on a park bench on the street. I feel so lucky that I havent ever had to do this.
My cousin is not so lucky. He sleeps rough. He is a heroin addict. He has a hard life, I used to be close to him when we were kids, but now I’m very scared of him.
Scared because he steals, he hurts people, he doesnt think, all he cares about is drugs, and where he gets his next fix.
It must be such a sad existence. I think to be homeless must be one of the worst things ever, the sad thing is he has a home, but he cant live there because of his drug addiction. His dad refuses to let him stay, I can see why.

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so I was watching a tv show on drug misuse

ive been watching this tv show about people who use cocaine.
its eye opening. it is based in the UK. but OMG.
I cant believe the lengths some people will go to to get cocaine.
If that was me all I’d be thinking is if I take this will I die?
I dont think I could take that, not even if I was desperate.
Im not just talking about young people taking it either, this show was showing men in their 50’s and 60’s snorting it up their nose.
I couldnt believe it. I didnt watch all of it. I couldnt bring myself to watch it.
The show was also showing the dealers, the people supplying the cocaine.
I actually couldnt believe that they showed actual dealers, and actual taking of the drugs on tv.
Anyway. i made some tea. And now me and Nitro are in our bedroom all nice and snug and cosy.

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run around tuesday

omg i have had the busiest of days! i literally havent stopped all day.

this morning we did digital media, the rest of the class are all way ahead of me, so this morning our tutor gave me a bunch of exercises to do so i could catch up to the rest of the class. i found them pretty easy, it was mostly common sense, very straightforward, all i had to do was read the notes and then answer questions on them.

after small break we cooked, we made vegetable soup and chicken caesar raps, i will post pics in a separate post. we ate the soup and raps for lunch, it was delicious. who knew butternut squash would be good in soup!

after lunch i went volunteering at cork city partnership. when i got there my supervisor was out of the office, and the girl i normally work alongside was out at a meeting, there were a couple other staff there but they were all busy, so i literally was on my own in reception for about an hour and a half. it was quiet though which was good. the only thing was it was so quiet that i was falling asleep, my eyes were literally closing and i was having a hard time concentrating.

trish, the girl who works alongside me came back at about 3:30 and she made me a coffee. she said i could go at 4:30 but i said i wouldnt, that i’d stay until 5 pm. we had a bit of a catch up over our coffees. then trish went to type up some minutes in another office and i stayed on the phones.

at 5 pm i went to mom and dads for dinner. i enjoyed dinner. i also had to change my outfit because i’d spilled all soup down the front of my top, because i am a disaster when it comes to food and spillages. after i’d eaten i was able to sit and relax for half an hour, talk to mom and dad and watch a little tv, before i had to get ready to leave again.

i had college tonight from 7 pm until 10 pm. the class tonight was so interesting. in our addictions module we learned how drugs effect the brain, the changes that occur in the brain when you take a substance, it was fascinating stuff.

the taxi was a couple of minutes late picking me up after class, but it was ok, the caretaker waited with me. when the taxi did finally pick me up he said he had passengers in his car who were drunk and wouldnt get out of the car. so at least he had a good excuse for being late.

now i’m back in abode, flat out exhausted, and wondering if i’ll be able to sleep tonight. i’ve taken my night meds, had a cup of tea and a yogurt, let nitro out, and now i’m sitting here on the couch surfing the net.

i’m happy with how my day has gone. tuesdays are long, but very productive

your Definition of addiction

so I’m wondering…

How would you define addiction?

I mean if you had to come up with your own definition of it.

This is a question we were asked last night during class.

I am curious as to what peoples answers are on it.

College went great

well the first night went great! I was so exhausted afterwords that I came home and fell into bed!

We had intros to the two modules we’d be covering. Community development, and substance use and misuse.

We did some ice breaker games, to get to know one another. That was cool. We had to introduce one another and give two statements about ourselves, one which was true and one which was false. Then the class had to guess which was was true or false.

We got our assignment briefs. There are a lot of assignments. For the community development module, we have a community development project, and a community profile, and a group project. For the substance use and misuse module we have a book review, a reflective journal, a case study.

All of the assignments are about 2000 words in length each. So we’ll be kept very busy.

The tutor who teaches the substance use and misuse part of the course is a psychotherapy and works in the field of addiction. He’s really experienced. I think we’ll learn a lot from him.

I enjoyed the first night though. At least four people in my class are in recovery from drug or alcohol addiction. It was interesting to hear them speak. To look at things from an addicts perspective.

I think this course is going to be great. I am looking forward to the weeks ahead.