#whatif prompt june 15th

Todays #whatif prompt over at what if we all cared is lilac dreams!

My take on it:

In my lilac dreams
I float
Its so surreal
My lilac dreams
Tell a story
I dont want to wake from them
I want to go on pretending
That these lilac dreams
Are my every day dreams
That there are no nightmares, ever
that these lilac dreams
That filled tonight
Bright and shiny
Like a new penny
Making me feel
Happy, joyful
In a good mood!
These lilac dreams
Are just, so, brilliant!
Long may they last!

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winning the lottery

i wanna win it! i really would love a big win. it would make life so much easier!
the euromillions was won in ireland this week! a syndicate of 32 people won 17 million euros.
Fair play to them! I hope they’ll be very happy.
Now if only I could win big. I can dream though?

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Awake again at 1 AM

second night in a row that I am up and awake at 1 AM.
I managed to get maybe 3 hours of sleep. So not a lot. I just made a coffee because I know I wont sleep again.
I had weird dreams. I cant really remember any of them fully but I just know they were weird.
One of the staff here came in when I was sleeping and woke me up. She wanted to close the windows. I hate it when I am asleep and someone wakes me up. Thank goodness I was able to go back to sleep again.
Ok well I am going to catch up on blogs. I have a load to catch up on. Thanks for reading guys!
carol anne

UP AND AWAKE AT 1 AM

ITS GONE 1 AM
AN DIM AWAKE…THOUGHTS RACING, HEAD POUNDING, FEELING SO EMOTIONAL, CANT SHUT MY BRAIN UP.
DOUBT ILL GET ANY SLEEP TONIGHT. NOTHING NEW THERE THOUGH IS THERE?
I JUST HAVE A LOT ON MY MIND TONIGHT. SHOULD PROBABLY EMAIL EILEEN. HATE THE INTENSE FEELINGS. THEY FEEL SO CRAPPY.
FEELING IMPULSIVE LIKE I WANNA BREAK SOMETHING, I WONT, BUT I WANT TO.
JUST NOT OK AND NOT DOING WELL TONIGHT.
ITS MY USUAL, NIGHT TIME IS MY FUCKED UP TIME…
LIZ

Daily prompt: Betrayed

My body has betrayed me
look, can you see?
each day I fight
with all of my might
but each day, my body betrays
in every way
triggered by trauma dreams
things are never as they seem
look closely
you will see
a quivering mess
that is me!
because
my body, my body
betrays me
and no matter what i try to do
how i try to get a clue
i’m still left
with this mess
to try to fix
will I ever heal
in order to heal I have to feel
or so they tell me…
but…
I’m just left with
A lot of unanswered questions
and with each passing day
my body, it betrays
carol anne