I am feeling unstable at the moment, very much so, so in order to look after me, and my mental wellbeing, I will do some stuff to try to break out of the func I am currently in!
The first thing I will do is write a post answering laura of laura venturini’s weekly song challenge! Thanks for tagging me Laura!
After that, I will go make a cup of tea, because I am not able to sleep, and hot tea soothes me. And it soothes my alters, so tea it is!
Then, I might have a snuggle with nitro, if I can get him to wake up! He always makes me feel better. I am sure he wont object if I want to pet him and snuggle him! He loves pets and scratches!
After that, I think I’ll read a chapter or two of my book. Maybe have a shower, maybe put on some nice smelling lotion, I have my lovely rose scented one, that always reminds me of my therapist eileen, who I miss a lot right now!
I will be ok! I am not giving up or giving in to the darkness or dark emotions and thoughts!I can beat them! I got this! I can do it!
I am strong! I am courageous! I am a fighter!
I decided to do some self care today. So after dinner I went shopping with my mom and my sister.
I bought some new clothes. A new sweatshirt, a pink one, and a new pink sweat pants. And a pair of comfortable flat shoes.
I feel so good after doing all that. It was a nice distraction. I feel good about myself, and I feel happy with what I bought.
Going to enjoy the rest of my evening now, have a cup of tea and read, watch a little tv, and have an early night tonight.
for a little distraction i played around with my amazon echo. i love it. the alexa ap is so much fun.
i played a game of song quiz. its where you have to play a round and name the song and artist, from a snippet of a song they play for you, you can pick the years, from the 1960’s to the 20 1’s. you play against an opponent. its so much fun.
it brought me out of the feelings i was feeling.
now i am back to feeling normal again, yay.
i made some tea and i am listening to the radio and drinking it.
STRUGGLING SO MUCH TONIGHT. REALLY JUST FEEL LIKE SHIT. CRAP, CRAP, CRAP. THATS WHAT I FEEL LIKE. I HATE MYSELF. MY LIFE. MEH. JUST DONT KNOW WHEN THIS SHIT FEELING IS GONNA END. MADE A COFFEE AND AM SITTING HERE TRYING TO WATCH A LITTLE TV. BUT CANT DECIDE WHAT TO WATCH. THOUGHTS ALL JUMBLED UP. MY MIND IS RACING. I FEEL JUMPY. I AM SHAKY AND IRRITABLE. I JUST WANT A BREAK FROM THE TURMOIL THATS MY HEAD RIGHT NOW.
so trying to think up funny things here about our day to distract ourselves.
one thing today was nitro. while we were at the basement club he was being so rebellious.
he got hold of someones bag and went snooping in it. he found a bagle and ran off with it. how embarrassing, the guide dog who runs off with other peoples food!
it was hella funny though, I had to admit to that.
Our dogs got class!
so in case you wondered about who wrote the post earlier where we wanted to cut? it was liz. some of you who know us well might have know it was her. she forgot to sign her name at the end though. but she did write in all caps which is her style of writing so people may have guessed who wrote it.
we all tried to help her well ok not all but some of us did some of the teen insiders did. me, amy, alexa, Tristan, asher, cora, wendy, willow, ro, jade, etc.
she listened to music and read a book. we also made some tea and watched a little tv with surprise of surprises our dad. he was in a chatty mood which was nice. we watched the six o’clock news, that was kind of depressing but we do like to know what is going on in the world.
this weekend is going to be very low key. I intend on finishing a Maggie Hartley book that I’ve been reading called who will love me now. I also intend on catching up on some shows I like on tv, doing something creative, maybe going to visit my friend if I feel up to it.
Anyone got a good idea for a creative craft?
Do any of my readers do art? If you do what kind do you like to do?
What tv shows do you like to watch on tv?
The shows I am watching are shows that I will need to watch during the day because they relate to crime and so I cant watch them by night.
What is the weather like this weekend in your part of the world?
Its actually sunny here today rare for September. Its about 16 degrees c not sure what that is in degrees f.
Here, is my cover of the song writings on the wall. I didn’t practice this. Just decided on a whim to make the video to distract myself.