Gender and transgender in our did system!

Today I am going to talk about our insiders, and their gender. specifically trans insiders. Of which we do not have any. We have males, and females, lesbians, gay males, bisexuals, but no trans insiders.
I find that kind of weird. I mean its odd, not weird but odd that in a large polyfragmented did system, no one identifies as transgender.
I just thought about that now, and what that means for us. I never took the time to really think on it before. We also dont have any gender fluid insiders in our did system.
Hmmm, thought provoking, for sure!
I Carol anne identify as lesbian, but there are insiders who dont. There are also insiders as I already said who identify as bi and gay. For the most part though, since I am the one who mainly fronts on a daily basis, we identify as a lesbian female.
The odd thing about it is though, Shirley, our host, and the birth person, identifies as straight, and she doesnt ever see gender identity as an issue for herself.
Now I am really going to have to do some more serious thinking on all this!

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Fowc:so many layers

When you have did, there are so many layers at least for us there are anyway, I think its pretty similar for most did folk. We have tons of alters, because we are a polyfrggmented system. That means, there are more than a hundeed alters. The way our system works, there are sub systems, in the main system. So there is the outer layer, and then more inner layers.  then there are also some alters who have insiders of their own, so they have their own alters inside of themselves. I know its confusing, it is for us too.  We’re still getting to know Emilys insiders, she’s been working hard with Eileen in therapy, she knows them, but the rest of us we don’t know a whole lot about them. She keeps them very protected, and they in turn protect her.  Sometimes Emilys insiders will pretend to be Emily, so that we don’t know its actually one of them whose out. Did is a complicated thing.  Then in our system there are darks, and lights, the darks have been subjected to a lot of abuse, some of the lights have too, but mainly, the lights are out to help, protect the body, they are cooperative, they are helpful, they want to do good all of the time. The darks on the other hand, they are destructive, non cooperative, and they don’t want to help the system, but now some of ours are changing, they’ve been doing a lot of hard work in therapy, and I applaud that. They’ve been so courageous, discussing their memories, changing roles, getting new roles etc. Having did is definitely a roller coaster ride. I wouldn’t change it though. Not for anything. I guess I am just so used to it now.

 

FOWC with Fandango — Layer

 

 

littles time!

hi it taylor
in case you forgeted I’m six
we got to have ar own tim today
afer class
for 2 hours
we watched cartoons on net flicks
and play a game on the puter
lexi and me and Erika and darina all had time
it was fun
we ar supposed to go inside later on and give the bigs time
for adult things
like adult tv shows
and reading adult stuff
but carol anne says we can lisen to Eileen reading the in my heart book
before we go to bed
it time to brush my teeth
and get ready to go to bed
goodnight everyone
taytay

blog Notice, protected entries

I’ll be putting up two passworded entries later tonight. they are the entries detailing my our did reassessment that we had with Remy acqueron of the pottergate centre for dissociation and trauma back in december.
I know a lot of you my regular readers have the password already. it wont be changing. so if you have it then you’ll be able to get in.
if you dont, and you’d like to know what a did assessment looks like, then email me at
manyofus1980
for the password. ours was a reassessment, we’ve had our diagnosis already 7 years ago.
they were reassessing to make sure we’re getting the correct level of treatment and care.
carol anne

protected entries

I’ll be putting up two passworded entries later tonight. they are the entries detailing my our did reassessment that we had with Remy acqueron of the pottergate centre for dissociation and trauma back in december.
I know a lot of you my regular readers have the password already. it wont be changing. so if you have it then you’ll be able to get in.
if you dont, and you’d like to know what a did assessment looks like, then email me at
manyofus1980
for the password. ours was a reassessment, we’ve had our diagnosis already 7 years ago.
they were reassessing to make sure we’re getting the correct level of treatment and care.
carol anne

Daily prompt: conveyor

its so hard to always
be the
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of bad news
did you know
that sometimes
it really sucks
to be me?

really feeling this tonight as I had to bring some bad news about a system member to the rest of the system.
having did really sucks sometimes.
being the ANP also really sucks.

carol anne