in a vulnerable space

i feel so triggered right now. my head is full. my mind is whirling. my body aches. i am hurting. i need someone or something, a hug maybe? I need reassurances. I think I will email eileen. I did last night. I doubt she’s seen it yet though. thats ok. i cant cry and i really need to. my anxiety is through the roof. i cant pinpoint just one thing thats making me anxious, i think there are a couple of things making me anxious. i can get through this. if anyone is around i’d appreciate some reassurances. life can be so hard sometimes.