IM IN A VERY BAD MOOD. A REALLY BAD MOOD. THE KIDS BEEN CRYING TONIGHT. I CANT HANDLE IT. SO I EMAILED EILEEN TO COMPLAIN TO HER. SHE DIDNT EMAIL ME BACK. SHE MIGHT TOMORROW. IF SHE DOESNT ITS NO BIG DEAL I GUESS. I WOULD HAVE LIKED A RESPONSE THOUGH FROM HER.
AH WELL YA DONT ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT DO YOU?
STILL THOUGH IM PISSED OFF. ITS HARD TO LISTEN TO THE DISTRESS OF LITTLE KIDS.
i dont feel too good right now. i feel low. depressed. sad. i think i’ll snuggle up with nitro. he gives me comfort. he makes me feel good. right now i am feeling very unsafe.
so one of the insiders, sirena, is feeling very bad. she is suicidal. she wanted to take all of our meds and she almost did when I went to take my night meds she was out, luckily I was able to overpower her before she did anything, but it was this close, she was about to down them all.
I was never so scared! I didnt see it coming!
I tried talking to her but she’s not ready to open up. She just went back inside very quickly. I am going to email eileen and tell her. I think she will try to work with her in therapy.
I really feel for her. I know how it is to be suicidal. But man is it scary when you didnt even know she was gonna do it!
having a really tough day here. went out, but had to come right back home again.
just wasnt coping. felt so anxious. and also feeling really tearful and depressed. think others feelings are blending in with mine.
thats always hard for me. its hard to entertain others feelings. the joys of being multiple i guess.
so i came home and went to bed. slept for a few hours, maybe 3. it was very fitful sleep though.
got up and ate. and now sitting in front of the computer staring at the screen. wondering what to do next, have so much to do, need to do dishes, not in the mood. need to make my bed, cant be bothered. need to empty the bins, dont wanna do it.
can you tell im having a bad day?
Hi. I have another blog to share with you. A new blog to me and a new blogger too!
Do pop on over and say hello! Give her a follow!
She writes about her life with depression and trying to find her own happiness!
hi again guys 😀
another new blog, and another new blogger, she just started her blog yesterday, the blog link is
please go on over, say hi, follow her, check out the blog. im sure she’d really love it if you did!
IM STILL STRUGGLING THINGS HAVENT CHANGED FOR ME SIGH I DONNO WHEN OR IF THEY WILL IT JUST SUCKS TO BE STRUGGLING SOOOO MUCH
WHY DOES IT HAVE TO ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME?
I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT I EVER DID TO DESERVE THIS SIGH