Found out today at work another of my clients is dying. He has cancer. He only found out last Monday. He’s been in hospital for a while now having tests. He’s almost 80 years old.
I felt very sad for him. He’s had no quality of life now for a while. He’s been really ill, and he’s had a few falls also. He’s been in and out of hospital for a good few months now.
My supervisor said she was taking him off of our service. She said he’s too sick to talk. So I never got to say goodbye. That was hard. I wished I could have said a final goodbye to him.
I guess this is the hard part about my job. Things happen suddenly. Clients get ill and die. And there really is no closure.
Remember a few days ago I told you my cousin christine had a baby? And we all thought everything was fine with them? Well it wasnt.
When the baby was born he looked ok. But he didnt make any sound. He cried I think at birth but then once in the ward afterwords he never made a sound, or moved. He had tiny ears, and he wasnt feeding properly.
The doctors came that evening, and looked him over. It turns out he has downs syndrome. He is also deaf. His ear canals arent developed properly.
His heart and lungs are very weak too. He’s gone to neonatal and is in an incubator now. We dont know if he’ll make it. We’re hoping he will but literally its hour to hour. He’s very very ill.
If you pray please pray he’ll pull through.
We’re all devastated. Its awful. How something as happy as the birth of a new baby can turn into heartache within hours. Its so so sad.
Please pray he’s going to make it. I know he’s badly disabled, but my cousin can deal with that. We just want him to live.
with the grieving
Death comes to us all
at some point
we cant avoid it
but I will commiserate
as I think
grief and dying
to those who are left behind
on their sad loss
such a sad day
is better off now
and he was loved
always remember that
Dedicated to the family of my dads best friend
#NDRW – #61
You remember some weeks back I told you that my dads friend, his best friend, was dying? And at the time he went to visit him? His friend had a huge tumour on his lung, it was inoperable. Well he died last night, at 2 AM this morning, its so sad.
My dad is so upset. Naturally he is. His friend is being cremated. His cremation is happening today. I thought it was happening pretty quick, but maybe that’s what he wanted.
Before the cremation, he’s reposing at the funeral home for a few hours. I don’t know though, why he’s reposing, as that’s not what he wanted, since he was all swollen up, his head, hands, legs etc were all swelled up for the last few weeks before his death.
My dad is finding it extremely difficult to cope. He’s not good at showing emotions. You can tell he’s upset but he doesn’t want to let me in, he really doesn’t want to admit how upset he actually is about the whole thing.
He only saw his friend that one time before he died. He did tell me that the reason he didn’t go see him again is that he didn’t want to remember him being ill, he wanted to remember him the way he used to be.
That’s fair enough I suppose. He’s worried now about seeing him today in the funeral home. He said he will probably look awful. And he’s worrying about having that image of him burned into his mind.
I hope he’ll be able to cope. I worry about him. I hope it wont be too hard for him to see his friends dead body.
If you pray, please pray my dad will be ok.
I’d appreciate it. thanks, guys!
Into the darkness
And my minds
Yesterday we visited my gramma and grandpas grave. They are buried in the same one. I usually don’t like going to grave yards, I mostly went for moms sake, mom really wanted to go. I am proud that I faced my fears and went. It was nice. I said some prayers and spent a little time just talking to my gramma and grandpa. We got flowers and put them on the grave. We bought lillies, roses and some other ones not sure of what they were. The grave yard where they are buried is a very old grave yard. There are graves in there going as far back as the early 1800’s. We walked around and looked at a few of them. I don’t know why but grave yards always spook me. There are some houses near this one, and I was telling mom I’d hate to live alongside a grave yard. I’d be terrified. Anyway I am glad we went. Its not often I visit their graves. It was nice to do that and then go back to the lake that is nearby and feed the ducks and swans and have drinks. Doing that made it a little easier as I knew we’d be doing something fun afterwords.
I just finished an amazing book, by a wonderful author, Cathy broomfield. She wrote a memoir, about losing not one, but two daughers.
One of her daughters was murdered by her husband, and the other one, died of heartbreak after losing her little sister.
Its a shocking account, and heartbreaking. However Cathy is raw, and very honest, and I have to say it moved me, the details of her daughter Kirstys murder are shocking though, not for the faint hearted, so do be aware of that if you read this book.
Its a pretty short read, in audio its just over 3 and a half hours in length. I read it in one sitting.
I was hooked right from the start!
Its available in audio from audible, on kindle, and in paperback from all good bookstores or from amazon.
I will put a description of the book below. Please do check it out.
Cathy Broomfields youngest daughter, Kirsty, disappeared, Cathy hoped she had gone to stay with friends, to escape her brutal and bullying husband. But as the days passed with no word from Kirsty, a loving daughter who spoke to her mum every day, Cathy became increasingly anxious…until the day the police arrived at her door to tell her they had found a body. Her worst fears had been realised.
Through a Mothers Tears is the poignant and heartbreaking story of how Cathy lost not only Kirsty, her youngest daughter, but Kirstys big sister, Hayley, who died of heartbreak when the agony of her baby sisters loss became too much to bear. This harrowing audiobook will appeal to listeners of The Hospital and Cathy Glass.
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