Dads best friend died

You remember some weeks back I told you that my dads friend, his best friend, was dying? And at the time he went to visit him? His friend had a huge tumour on his lung, it was inoperable. Well he died last night, at 2 AM this morning, its so sad.

My dad is so upset. Naturally he is. His friend is being cremated. His cremation is happening today. I thought it was happening pretty quick, but maybe that’s what he wanted.

Before the cremation, he’s reposing at the funeral home for a few hours. I don’t know though, why he’s reposing, as that’s not what he wanted, since he was all swollen up, his head, hands, legs etc were all swelled up for the last few weeks before his death.

My dad is finding it extremely difficult to cope. He’s not good at showing emotions. You can tell he’s upset but he doesn’t want to let me in, he really doesn’t want to admit how upset he actually is about the whole thing.

He only saw his friend that one time before he died. He did tell me that the reason he didn’t go see him again is that he didn’t want to remember him being ill, he wanted to remember him the way he used to be.

That’s fair enough I suppose. He’s worried now about seeing him today in the funeral home. He said he will probably look awful. And he’s worrying about having that image of him burned into his mind.

I hope he’ll be able to cope. I worry about him. I hope it wont be too hard for him to see his friends dead body.

If you pray, please pray my dad will be ok.

I’d appreciate it. thanks, guys!

Friday chatter!

I am so thankful its friday!
I got up very early. I had a fantastic nights sleep. I am also so thankful for that fact. I was up at 6:30, and I hopped in the shower! I felt so good after my shower! Its a warm day here, and it just felt so good to wake up and get in the shower right away!
I’ve had a nice chilled morning, its been relaxing. I ate breakfast, was online for a while, and am now drinking some coffee, before I get ready for work!
I’m also waiting for my meds to be delivered. My dads gone out for a while, and I am here with the dogs, but I think my dad will be back before I have to go to work.
I’m looking forward to going in to work today. I didnt go in on tuesday, so I am really looking forward to going in today. I’m glad I skipped it on tuesday, I just wasnt in a place emotionally to go in, so the easiest thing was to not go, and take care of my own mental health.
Now that I’ve done that, I will be able to be more available to my clients.
Eileen texted me last night, she’s still stuck out in spain. She doesnt know when she’s going to be coming home, she said she’d keep me updated, wich I am thankful for.

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#weekend coffee share!

Weekend Coffee Share is a time for us to take a break out of our lives and enjoy some time catching up with friends (old and new)!

Grab a cup of coffee and share with us! Whats been going on in your life? What are your weekend plans? Is there a topic youve just been ruminating on that you want to talk about?

All are welcome! Just add your link to the Linky-List, and be sure to visit others and join in their conversations! The link will be open from Friday, February 8th at 7am (Pacific Time) until Monday, February 11th at 7am (Pacific Time) to give us a good range of weekend!

Well, if we were having a coffee today, I’d tell you that I got a good nights sleep last night, without taking any meds! I went to bed around 11 PM, but I did not go right to sleep. Instead I watched an episode of britains most evil killers on my phone, before going to sleep, probably not a great thing to be watching, but that sorta thing doesnt bother me too much, so I didnt get triggered by it! It was a good episode, about a serial killer called joanna denehy, who killed 3 people.

I’d tell you that I woke up early today, and its a beautiful sunny day here. I enjoyed eggs and toast for breakfast, took a nice cool shower, and am going to relax for the day now. I do need to go to the grocery store later on with mom, I need to buy chicken, fruit and spice mix.

I’d also tell you that mom and dad are both out doing the garden, cutting the lawn and strimming it. The dogs are out there with them. I might go out there too in a little while to read, but not until they’re done cutting the grass, as the grass bothers my asthma.

I’d tell you that my nails are bothering me. I have them manicured, but they’re getting super long, and getting in my way, but I cant cut them because I’ll ruin the shilac on them. So I need to wait for another two weeks, before I can file them down, I hope they wont grow too much in that time and look totally disgusting!

Have a great weekend everyone! Enjoy what’s left of it!

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So mom took up for me!

Mom is finally home from her camping trip. Thank god!

I have missed her. Dad is hard to deal with. He’s so controlling. I am so glad mom is back home now again.

And it was never more apparent how glad I was, until my dad blamed me for frightening the dog, his dog. He said I had a squeaky voice, and his dog was scared of it. I call bullshit!

But mom took up for me! She told him to shut up and she said maybe it was his loud rough voice that scared the dog. She said I didnt have a squeaky voice and to take no notice of him.

Thanks mom! I love you!

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Knew it wouldnt last

I knew dad and me wouldnt see eye to eye for the whole weekend!
I wanted to have a shower before bed, he said I couldnt. I know I should have just gone ahead and did what I wanted, but he yelled at me about it, and made me feel upset. He said why was I wanting to shower so late, it was only 9 PM though.
I didnt see what the problem was!
Then when I went to make myself some tea he said he didnt want me making any more tea. I think he’s such a control freak. He likes to have the control in every single situation! Its so annoying!
I rang mom and I complained to her, but I dont want to ruin her trip! She told me to just stay in my bedroom and wait until the morning to shower when he’s in a better mood.
So thats what I am going to have to do!
Ug sigh this sucks!

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Morning ramble

I am feeling good this morning. I feel good because I was able to go back to sleep, even though I woke up at 5 AM! I only stayed up for half an hour, then I went back to bed, and I slept until 9 AM! Yay! Sleeping in was good! It felt nice to be able to do that!
I had a nice breakfast and am now just messing around online, on twitter, reading blogs, I made coffee, it is delicious!
Life feels good! And I got trhough the summer solstice too so yay! I managed to get through it in one piece! For that, I am so grateful!
I talked to my mom this morning, she said it hasn’t rained yet at the campsite, I’d say we’ll have some rain later on today though, as its very cloudy outside and the sky looks dark too.
Mom is enjoying her trip. She said if it doesn’t rain she’s going to go walking this morning.
My friend Norma rang me, she is in a good mood. She just rang for a chat. Its nice to have friends who do that. I am so glad I do.
I have no plans today, just going to chill, relax, just do nothing, enjoy my free time. May have a bath later, for some self care, may read, I started a new book, just a child by Sammy woodhouse. Its good. I am on chapter 3 now.

Camping trip

Mom and my sister have gone camping for the weekend. I didnt go. Camping isnt really my thing. I dont think I’d enjoy it. I think I’d be too nervous about insects, and about eating outside and sleeping outside.
But they’ve gone, and I hope they’ll have fun. The weather doesnt look too good though. Its supposed to rain tomorrow and sunday, all day and evening. They’ve gone to a campsite with some of my sisters partners family.
So its just me and my dad for the weekend. I just got here an hour ago. We’ve eaten, and now I’m just doing my own thing, relaxing in the bedroom while dad watches tv.He’s in a pretty good mood which is good. He’s easier to get along with when he’s not being whiny or a control freak.

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