I just had a phone call from my CPN Alison. She’s not my usual CPN, but my usual one Sarah is away on holidays so Alison is covering for her.
I don’t know Alison all that well. So it was hard to engage with her. But I tried. I get brownie points for trying, right? Lol.
Anyway. We mainly talked about my mood, sleep, and about Eileen being away, and she asked me if I was still E THAT OPTION> It is handy to be able to contact a nurse if things were to get really bad or if I felt very low.
Alison was actually meant to call me last week, but she didn’t, and I’d all but given up hope that she was going to call me. But she did, it was a nice surprise this morning. I will have to text eileen now to tell her that she actually has called me after all.
I am glad I have the support of a CPN. I feel lucky to have that support, because I know some people don’t. I am grateful for the call and check in today.
So finally I heard from sarah. She called this afternoon. We talked and that was good. It felt good to be able to talk to someone finally. Sarah helped me see that I am doing my best, I am trying hard, and she said it was good that I went to my parents for the weekend. We talked about my symptoms, and she said she was going to leave a note for dr. barry, and that she’d probably read it before she sees me next week. She told me she’s going on holidays tomorrow, but that the other CPN Alison will be covering for her, I know Alison, not as well as I know sarah, but I do know her. She asked me if I wanted alison to call me the week after next, to check in, and I said I did. So next week I’ll see dr. barry and the following week I’ll have a call from Alison, then hopefully by then eileen will be back. If she’s not, sarah will continue to support me until she comes back. And I’m happy about that. I like her. She’s easy to talk to. I think you need that when your really struggling, someone who validates and listens without judging. I had told eileen that sarah hadnt contacted me, so then when she did, I texted her back again and told her I heard from her. I still havent heard from Eileen, but I know she’s probably up the walls busy with her family member being ill. She’ll contact me when she has a chance to do it. I’m not worrying that I havent heard anything. I know she cares, and is just busy and once things have calmed for her she’ll be in touch with me.
So yesterday, my CPN sarah, CPN which stands for community psychiatric nurse, phoned me for a check in. Dr. Barry had asked her to do that, since she wasnt able to see me this week. It was a 10 minute phone call. We talked about how I was doing, and managing eileens break. She congratulated me on managing so well. She said I always try my best to cope, that meant a lot to me that she saw that and noticed it. We talked about my sleep, and I told her I am taking the haldol when I dont sleep for more than 2 or 3 nights, she said that was the right thing to do. I made sure to tell her my sleep patters are all off, and I hope she’ll write it in my notes so dr. barry will know before I see her next week. We also talked about slimming world. She asked how I am doing with that, am I still going, and I told her I was. We’re not planning to check in again before Eileens return, but she did offer that if I am struggling I can call and leave a message for her, thats nice to know I can do that, I probably wont have to but its nice to know the offer is there.
well our apt with dr. barry went great. we were almost late to it though. we had a taxi booked to take us, he was meant to arrive at our house at 8:30. he never showed up. i rang the base and the lady said traffic was mental due to the storms. i told her i had to be there by 8:45. she quickly got a driver to come get me. i was about 5 minutes late meeting sarah. but sarah knew i’d be late. she had an idea i would be due to the bad weather. she had gotten there on time and went indoors. she rang me just as i was arriving. i told her i was just arriving and so she came downstairs to meet me. we first went to get my shot. first of all the building where dr. barry is is huge. when you walk in the main door you take a right turn. go all the way to the end of that corridor and then that is where the mental health services are based. the place where i go for my shot is right by where dr. barry is. that part was good. i got my shot. they weighed me and i’m now 90.5 kg. they gave me my shot. then sarah brought me to the waiting room. the room is open plan. the chairs are so hard. wooden chairs. very hard on your back. i told sarah i didnt think i’d manage the building very well from what i’ve seen of it. i sat and waited for a while before i saw dr. barry. a junior doctor called me to come in but i told him i dont see junior doctors and i would wait for dr. barry. afterwords dr. barry told me he made a mistake, they all only moved in to the building on monday, and things arent set up properly yet so he took my file by accident. finally dr. barry came and got me. she brought me back to her office. she said she’s going to try to book the same office each week for consistency. she asked me if i thought the building was brighter, did I notice the brightness, I did. she said it was very clinical, like a hospital, not very cosy or comfortable. i noticed that too. in the old building it was cosy, and there was only all mental health staff and clients. this new place there are way more people milling around. its just not as homely. we chatted about the move. she knew i was anxious about it. she asked me when the anxiety started about it. i told her after sarah phoned me yesterday to tell me that they’d moved. she then said she’d ask sarah to meet me each time i am coming in, for a few weeks at least. she said she thought I’d eventually be able to navigate the building by myself. I’m glad she has faith in me because I dont. lol. We talked about my sleep. i told her I am only getting 2 or so hours of sleep a night on most nights. i told her the haldol isnt doing anything for me. where as before it would knock me out completely. she asked me if i would like to try fenergan. its a sedating antihistamine. i cant think of the other name for it. i’ve taken it before though. when i took it before it did knock me out. i only took it while i was hospitalised. she gave me a weeks supply and said take it for 3 night in a row. see how i do with that. see if that resets things for me and enables me to get a better sleep. i havent collected the med yet but i will later this week. we talked a lot about therapy. i told her about the new things eileen is trying with us regarding touch and sensory stuff and about eileens training and about our last two sessions. she said it sounds as if we are doing a lot of very intense work. i agreed. we talked through a couple of other things. but mostly it all centred on the move, and on therapy. at the end she made another apt for me for 2 weeks time. and then she very kindly walked me to the entrance where i waited for a taxi. i think i’ll be ok. i think in time we’ll get used to the new layout and the new building. i’m hopeful that we will.
Well its finally happening! Dr. barry is moving to a new building! I am seeing her tomorrow in the new building! I am so anxious!
My CPN sarah rang me this morning. She said dr. barry was speaking to her and asked her to meet me tomorrow morning as she knows this is a huge deal for me. For one thing I know absolutely nothing about the new building, other than its huge, and there are a lot of other doctors and services in there!
So I am meeting Sarah at 8:45 tomorrow morning. She is going to show me where to go. I also have to get my injection so I will need to be shown where to go for that too!
I hope this new building wont be too hard to get around! I dont know how many times I’ll go before I will know where to go or what I am doing! I have a feeling I will need to do some route familiarisation with nitro! So hopefully sarah will help me out with that!
Dr. barry has been brilliant. She knows change is hard for me. She knows I am an anxious mess. I did not want this to happen! I dont think she did either! Its just that a new medical complex was built and all medical services have to move in there and out of their old buildings as the old buildings are being knocked down!
But OMG this is so strange! So weird and just ug not liking it one bit!
Im glad to have sarah’s help in this though. Makes things a bit easier. She’s lucky I even answered my phone as her number is a private number and I rarely answer private numbers!
Anyway. Will report more on how the move went tomorrow!
my cpn sarah just called. i’d been having phone sessions with her for the month of october. for some extra support.
she had caught me on my way out from seeing dr. barry last week, and she had told me she’d ring me the next day, but then she forgot. I knew she probably forgot to do it. I had no number to contact her.
But all is good she just called me all apologetic and we had a final session. If I need her again I can link back in with her I just need to be refered which dr. barry can do for me. Her support is good. I like her. She’s friendly and approachable and very kind.
She told me I should be proud o f myself for getting through october, and staying out of hospital. I guess that was a pretty big thing. I am proud that I did that.
Its good that I have her support going forward if I need it. I have a great team of mental health professionals around me. thank goodness for that!
I have a lot to be grateful for this fall. Here are 10 things I am really grateful for in my mental health right now. In no particular order…
1 A good book. Reading is my favourite hobby!
2 Coffee! The elixor of life!
3 My psychiatrist dr. barry!
4 My therapist Eileen!
5 My furbaby, nitro!
6 The support of friends
7 My family!
8 Having a daily routine on most days!
9 Spending time with my niece and nephew
10 My community psychiatric nurse, Sarah!
What are you grateful for right now in your mental health recovery?
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