my friend norma came over this afternoon. i cooked for her. i cooked for myself to but i made a healthy meal for me. and an unhealthy one for her lol. i had sweet potato, baked beans, and fish cakes. the sweet potato came out great. i baked it in the oven, and then cut it down the centre and scooped out the potato. it was yummy. other than cooking we didnt get up to much. just hung out and chatted. i enjoy spending time with her though. she is blind too and she also has mh issues. we have a lot in common. we usually take turns going to one anothers houses. i’ll be going to hers next week. she recently moved house and i havent seen her new place yet.
i waked up frum a bad dream. i cry.
tears tears and i sad. i no like them dreams.
i go find nitro. cuddle him. rub his fur and try to feel beter.
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ITS SO CRAZY. MY THOUGHTS THEY ARE RACING. I AM WIDE AWAKE. I JUST CANNOT SLEEP.
ITS WEIRD THE THOUGHTS THAT KEEP YOU UP AT NIGHT? DO YOU EVER START THINKING ALL SORTA WEIRD THINGS WHILE YOUR LAYING THERE TRYING TO NOD OFF? I SURE DO. I RUN THROUGH MY DAY, THEN I RUN THROUGH CONVERSATIONS I’VE HAD. I RUN THROUGH THE SHOULD HAVES AND COULD HAVES. I RUN THROUGH EVERYTHING AND STILL I LIE HERE WIDE AWAKE.
I DONT KNOW. I WISH I COULD JUST SLEEP.
tuesdays goals are…
wake up at 7, feed nitro and let him out, done
eat a healthy breakfast, done
take meds, done
go to class, work on the health and safety module, done
complete my food diary, done
go and tour a call centre, as part of my work experience module, done
eat a healthy lunch, done
do my volunteering for cork city partnership
eat a healthy dinner
read for an hour
get some exercise in
call my friend
do one self care activity to relax this evening
i’m starting to love monday. i get eased into class. after a hard therapy session most mondays thats awesome.
this afternoon we watched this documentary about your data and who has rights to your data when you post stuff online. it was fascinating. very very interesting. i never had really thought much about it until this afternoon. in the documenary this girl hired a security analyst to see what he could find out about her from things she’d posted online to her social media. he was able to find out lots of stuff, like, where she lived, where she worked, went to college, how much she payed for her house, etc. it was quite scary.
class ended at 3 and then i just chilled out for the rest of the afternoon.
tomorrow we are going to visit a call centre. it should be an interesting visit to see how a call centre operates as I’ve never been in one.
we arent cooking tomorrow. but on friday we are making spaghetti bolones and i am making apple crumble again because i want to practice it.
on thursday we are having a coffee morning for past pupils of the ILS course. we have those once a month. there is also an awards ceremony for some of the people on the course, as they are graduating it will be finishing up in 3 weeks time.
i still have to complete my work experience diary for last week. its one of only two things left on my goals list to achieve today. the other is reading, and I will do that in bed tonight.
My goals for Friday are
take meds, done
pack my bag up to go home for the weekend, done
eat a healthy breakfast and lunch, done
write up a review of my skills demo, done
catch up on reading blogs
catch up on email
do one self care activity
I did not sleep well last night. It was after 3 am when I went to bed. Mostly thats because the weather was so bad outside, and I knew I wouldnt be able to sleep, and also, nitro was afraid, so I was staying up with him to reassure him things would be ok. He came into the bedroom and was standing by my bed, shaking. Poor guy. He always gets so scared when there is a storm.
I tossed and turned a lot when I finally did sleep. I kept waking up. I was having weird dreams. Now that I am awake I cant really remember them, but I just know they were really weird.
I finally got up at 6. Made coffee, and sat down doing email and catching up on blog posts. It felt good to have a little time where there was complete quiet in the building. I enjoy that sometimes. I think the staff here get up at 6, but I dont hear anyone walking around so maybe they dont get up until 6:30. Then again, its hard to hear things from my bedroom, we have fire doors in the rooms, they are very heavy and so noise is kept to a minimum.
I am going to see dr. barry this morning. I need to talk to her about my sleep, and I also need to tell her Ive started a work experience placement at the preschool. She doesnt know that yet. I think shell be thrilled for me.
Ok well better go feed nitro and let him out, before it rains again. I can hear the birds chirping outside, it is so nice to listen to them. Catch you all later.