A bit of wisdom

People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered.
forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies.
succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you.
be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight.
build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous.
be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow.
do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough.
give the world the best you’ve got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God.
it never was between you and them anyway.

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thankful for dr. barry

this morning i am thinking about dr. barry. i am thinking about all the times she’s come through for me, been there, validated me. all the times i have told her things and she’s understood. how nice it is to have a doctor who is so compassionate and caring and who truly gets it and gets me. it is wonderful. she is wonderful. and i feel so blessed and so lucky to have her. for years i had psychiatrists who i either clashed with, who didnt get me, who questioned why i did things, who didnt get the attachment stuff, or my complex needs. for years i put up with that because i had no choice. i couldnt change psychiatrists. that wasnt an option. then in 2013 dr. barry became my psychiatrist. and i’ve never looked back since. from day one she has made a conscious effort. she has tried to understand me and where i am coming from. she is open and has not questioned my did diagnosis. she is ok with talking to other insiders, whoever presents, she talks with them. as long as they want to engage with her she will engage with them. and i love her for that. it is an amazing thing to watch younger insiders, the kids in particular, form a relationship with her. they are so attached to her and hang on her every word. it is lovely that they have someone in their lives who they can trust fully, and turn to if they need to. i would love to be able to tell her exactly how i feel about her coming into my life. but mostly my words get stuck in my throat and i am not able to form them to tell her how grateful i am for her expertese, love, and constant presence in my life. some day, hopefully i will be able to get the words together to tell her, i think i might write her a thank you letter. if i sit down and write it out, then i can think about what i want to say. it feels important to me that i get it across to her how much having her as our doctor has changed us for the better.

30 days of writing challenge day 10

Day 10: write about something you feel strongly about
I should be more widely accepted.  ptsd is accepted and people are very compassionate to those that suffer with ptsd.  did is a form of ptsd so people should be compassionate to those of us who suffer with that condition also.  it isnt our fault we were abused, and because of the abuse developed did.  did is an adaptive way of coping with awful situations.  the mind is wonderful and allows us to continue when we really think it is impossible.  have compassion for people with did, compassion and acceptance.