So i am at my friends house. I got here a little while ago. We aren’t doing anything special, just hanging out and chatting. It’s nice. I like spending time with her, its my friend Norma. She’s blind like me and she has mental health difficulties so we have a lot in common. We’ve been discussing books we’ve read recently, and we’ve also been chatting about our mentors, as she also has a mentor at the basement club, she goes there too like i do. I’ll stay here for about 3 hours I’d say. When i got here her pa was here and she made me a coffee, she makes a mean cup of coffee. 🙂 it was so cool that she did that for me. I got a taxi here, and the partnership where i volunteer for friendly call pays for the taxi’s to Norma’s house, as they consider me to be visiting her and its kinda part of what i do for them as she’s a client of friendly call also.
I am feeling very alone tonight. Its 1:30 AM. I cant sleep. I am alone here in the house as I live on my own. I wish someone was here to talk to. I feel lonely and overwhelmed and so very alone.
I have the radio on for company. I was cold so I put on my heating. I made a coffee as I am not going to sleep. I tried reading, it didnt help. I tried settling down after reading, I couldnt. I just feel wired.
This sucks. If anyone is around, send me a hug or some support please.
I could really use it.
I am participating in Allie’s weekend coffee share, check out her post here!
If we were having coffee I’d tell you that I am totally exhausted after the party yesterday. And I would tell you I didn’t sleep well at all last night! It was 5 AM by the time I got to sleep even though we got home at midnight. I just couldn’t go to sleep, I couldn’t fall asleep. So I sat up and stayed online for ages, then when I finally did go to bed I was on my phone for a while longer. Eventually I dropped off though and stayed in bed until 9 AM!
I would tell you that I have to go grocery shopping tomorrow before I go home to my own house! Mom is going to take me after therapy. I have therapy in the morning first thing. Then when I get back to moms we’ll go to the store to get my groceries! Then my sis will drop me home!
I would tell you my dad is outside this morning fixing the roof. The roof was leaking! He’s been up on the roof all morning fixing it, that was until it started raining and he had to come indoors. He got most of the work done though. Personally I don’t think its a good thing that he tried to fix it! It wont hold! They need a new chimney but they’re debating whether to get the work done on it or not as it costs a small fortune! So they’ve been doing DIY and fixing the leak on their own without any expert help!
I would tell you that I have an assignment for college which is due next week! Its the last one and I have had weeks to do it but I didn’t get around to it. So I will have to do it this week. I am not thrilled that I have it still to do, but I will get to it probably during the week. I was going to leave it until the weekend, but on reflection I think I’ll do it during the week one evening when I have a free hour or two! Its a learning journal so my own thoughts and reflections on what I’ve learned from doing the course, so that part is good at least. I should be able to crank that out in an hour or two! I will sure be glad when its over and handed in!
I would also tell you that I am back to work this week. I took a bit of a break last week, my depression was bad making me not be able to go volunteering, I couldn’t function well at all. So I took a few days off. This week though I am hoping to get back to it again. I think I am ok to go in now! I am less depressed thanks to my new med Prozac! It seems to be working out and I seem to feel a little better which is nice. I am always glad when I feel better!
Volunteering makes me happy! I really enjoy it. I enjoy helping others!
So that’s my catch up for the weekend! I hope your all having a fantastic weekend!
Or is it just me?
I woke up early, like 4 AM early. I had a fitful sleep and tossed and turned all night.
I decided to just get up. Made some bacon and had breakfast, now having a cup of coffee and trying to start my day.
I have a bit of a migraine. Im sure coffee wont help it. But oh well. Maybe its just a bad headache and not a migraine.
Did anyone else have trouble sleeping last night?
My thoughts were racing. I couldn’t settle down no matter what I tried.
I finished my current book, daddys little soldier by Maggie Hartley. It was a great read. I’ll do a review of it later on today.
So I got woken by gusty winds. Its wild out there guys! Really wild!
Now I cant go back to sleep! I keep thinking weird things! Frightening thoughts. Scary scary thoughts. I hate this!
Its 3:41 AM. I’m wide awake. So might as well make a cup of something, chose to make some coffee.
I’m kinda nervous about our therapy session this morning. I wonder how it will go. I get anxious just before session a lot. But because we didn’t show up last time, and I know Eileen wants to get to the bottom of it as to why, that’s making me a little more anxious than usual.
I trust Eileen though. I know if anyone can get the full story as to what is up she can. I just have to leave her to it. She is kind, gentle, compassionate, caring, she will help whoever is scared of therapy right now to talk about why.
Well better go drink my coffee before it gets cold. I hate cold coffee. 😛
If we were having a coffee today, or tomorrow, or any time this weekend, I’d tell you that I am at my parents house, and I am usually here every weekend! I normally come to my parents after my shift on friendly call which I do on Friday afternoons. Occasionally I will stay at home for the weekend, but normally I don’t.
I’d tell you that today I visited my friend Norma. She gave me a nice gift for my birthday, which is next Friday, I’m going to be 39! Omg! 39 guys! I am so old!
She gave me earrings! They are shaped like hearts and I love them!
I’d tell you that my dog is sleeping soundly by my feet. He is such a wimp. Tonight I was watching britains got talent on tv, and every time the buzzers went off to say that the judges didn’t like someone, he’d jump up and be all freaked out! He doesn’t like the noise of them! I had to take him out of the room until it was over, which also meant I couldn’t watch it either, boo!
I’d tell you that mom and me are going to Killarney in county Kerry next weekend, for a mother daughter weekend away for my birthday! And I cannot wait! I am so excited!
I’d tell you that mom is also going to come over to my house tomorrow when I am going home, and help me to do a few things, like clean my yard, there’s dog poop out there, yucky! And so she’ll clean it up for me since I cant, since I am blind!
And that’s about it for the weekend! I hope you all had a nice one! I hope whatever you did, you had fun!
How do you take your coffee? If you drink coffee that is?
I take mine with milk and 3 sweeteners! I dont use sugar any more since I’ve been dieting. I have to have sweeteners in it though, I cant drink black coffee, and I dont like very strong coffee either.
How about you?