Alexas thought of the day

Do not train a child to learn by force or harshness; but direct them to it by what amuses their minds, so that you may be better able to discover with accuracy the peculiar bent of the genius of each.


You cant see me so I’m not lying

My nephew is so funny. He’s five, and recently he’s starting to understand a little more about me not being able to see and he loves to tell me “you cant see me”.

Today we were sitting at the kitchen table. He was playing with a pen. He dropped it and went to pick it up off of the floor.

“I’ve dropped mom’s e cigarette, he said, knowing I’d probably get a little bit more excited than if he said he had dropped a pen on the floor.

He was right. I said very animatedly to my sister…he’s dropped your ecig. She then told me he had only had a pen in his hand and not her ecig, to which he then loudly announced to me, “you cant see me, and Im not lying”

Lol I had to burst out laughing. He’s so damn cute.

Beautiful weather

Its an absolutely gorgeous day today. The sun is shining so bright. Its around 22 degrees C. I love it.

I went outside, I didnt care about wasps, bees, or any other bugs, I just wanted to go out in it. So I did. Me and nitro went out and sat outside, played in the garden, and I read my book too.

Its so nice to just be able to sit outside. The kids are at mom and dads, my niece and nephew, and they are having a blast just playing outside, its so lovely to hear them playing.

Long may this beautiful sunshine last.

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Having children

A friend of mine just wrote a post about having kids. I have been thinking on it. I am childless but not by choice. I am childless due to having no ovaries. I am also childless due to being a lesbian and unable to have kids in the natural way. If I had ovaries, and I was straight, I think I’d have kids. I’ve always wanted kids. I could adopt or foster kids, but due to my mental illnesses I doubt I’d be allowed. I think the social services are very strict on that. I’ve never tried though. I could do IVF but its far too expensive to try it. I desperately wish I had kids, though. I’ve always longed to be a mom. I do question my parenting skills though. I am not sure I would make a good mom. I find it desperately hard to mother my littles so I think mothering a child would be super hard for me. I wish I could give it a go though. I ache to be a mom. I long for it. I do have my niece and nephew who I love dearly. I am not their mom though. But I do give them ample love and affection. I dote on them. At least I can be a mom to my furbaby. That counts. I love him and dote on him too. I also think my blindness would prevent me from having kids, since I think I would be watched closely if I did have a child. I don’t particularly agree with this stance since my friends are blind and have kids, in fact my best friend has two, but then she has a sighted partner so that helps. I feel like my chance to have a child was kinda robbed from me. Because I didn’t have a choice as to whether my ovaries were removed, they had to be for medical reasons.