here ar som joks fir ya!
hops yu liks dem!
darina, age six
What do you call a tea drinking wizard? A sorcerer.
Why did spider man pick his nose? To get rid of the green goblin.
When does eating birthday cake cause heartburn? When you forget to blow out the candles.
What do you call a singing computer? Adele.
What does a house ware? An address.
hi hi hi!
how ala ya bes?
i havnt writed here in loong time!
did ya al mis me?
we gots ta drink coke zero! ders no sugar in it
i prefir pepsi but mabe tomoro carol anne wil let me get pepsi
wes is goin groceree shopin then
im esited to go to colorado
it is gona be so cool ta meet my frends in sarahs system
sarah has did lik us
and shes blind to lik we are
and her insiders som of them ar kids
and thay ar my frinds
and i cant wait ta meet them!
and kno wat else?
i cant wait ta see eileen and dr. barry again!
its ben hard not seein them!
eileens gona read ta us and dat wil be so neat
we wil wrap up in her soft blanket
and shell read ta us
i love dat
it is so cool and shes a gud reader!
wel i betta go now!
see yas soon guys!
love and pooh bear hugs,
im six yars old!
Well I sended our therapist a text! I had to I was just feeling so sad! She said if we need her to just text her! So I did! Heres what I said in the message to her!
Hi Eileen, its Em. I am so sad! I wish you were here! I need you so bad right now!
Do you think we can have a phone check in today?
I miss you so, so much!
Everything feels so hard!
I hope she responds to me today. I know as soon as she can, she will. She never forgets. So I hope we can talk soon!
its lexi. im six in case yu forgoted. anyways gess wat? nitro brot a snail in ar house! he musta brot it in on his paws. tha snail was in ar bedroom, ewww. our pa got him out, she pic him up and fro him out in tha garden. i so glad! i not like snails! thems gross!
so glad hes gone now! then kno wat else? we letted nitro out jus now and when he came in a worm came in wif him too!
ewww! its so so gross!
worms ar nasty!
i onlie likes gummy worms!
wel i gots ta go now cuz tha bigs wants ta wach somfin on tv!
love lexi six
ar frend sarah sended us a suprise in tha mail!
i so so sited!
it a book! bout bein brave!
tha book is part of a series
we gots anothir book by tha sam author
we gots the one called in my heart
and now dis one bout being brave
and eileen gonna read it ta us
i gona email her to tell her we got a new book!
a new one fir her ta read!
it is so nise wen her can read ta us
i love it!
she lets us record her readin ta us too!
so now we gonna have her readin a new book!
its krista. im 11 years old.
i got to talk in therapy yesterday. that was nice. even tho the stuff i had to talk about wasnt nice. it was hard to talk about it.it was so scary.
but im glad eileen is so nice. she is kind. she makes it easy to talk to her.
i was talking about how i felt. that people only see my behaviour. they dont see me, they dont even like me. the adults in my system are afraid, they wont let the younger kids near me. thats cuz i act out. in a sexual way. but i dont want to be doing that. i just cant help myself.
its cuz stuff happened to me. people hurt me. in dublin. they did awful things to me. and i learned about sex. and now i sometimes act out in a sexual way. it makes me feel good about my body. cuz mostly i hate my body. but eileen said maybe i can learn new ways of being. and that it is my body, and i dont need to offer it to anyone, that maybe there is other things that i can offer instead. that i am not only what happened to me. that i am more than that.
she said the shame i feel about it is totally understandable. but that it isnt my shame. its the abusers shame to carry, not mine. but that is going to take a lot of work for me to learn that and that she is here and we can do this work together. i am glad she is here. she is helping me to learn new things about myself and i am happy about that.
she also said she cares about me but that she doesnt want me to do anything or for me to feel i have to do something for her in return for her care. she said she just wants to care about me because she likes me. she also said she doesnt judge me. she said there is no judgement on her part whatsoever.
i told her that when I am out sometimes I go online and go into chatrooms and start talking to people in a sexual way. i cant help it. She said that is the complexities of sexual abuse and of being abused. It makes us do things sometimes that people who havent been abused would never ever do.
its good to know im not weird or disgusting or gross or anything like that. im glad we talked about this stuff. eileen said we’d talk some more next time about all this. in the meantime i can text or email her and i also have rain, one of the dark adults supporting me. rain is really calm and she is nice and she offered to support me. i’d prefer to be with eileen but i’ll let rain be there for me too since she offered. i love spending time with eileen though. but eileen told me to let rain comfort me at home, and i can spend time with her in the therapy room.
its been good to get this stuff out. its nice to be able to allow eileen in a little. i never spoke about this stuff before to anyone. i’ve never ever told another person. im glad im telling eileen now. im glad to have her support.
im feeling very worried
I don’t know if Eileen got home safely
she was supposed to be home from England today
I wrote her earlier tonight but she hasn’t responded
I hope she did get home safe
I will be anxious until I know if shes safe
I worry about her
I worry about her plane and when she is up there in the air
do you think she’s home safe?
I hope she responds tomorrow
its hard not knowing
I just want to know she’s ok!
Em age 12