Just found out

That my sis is having a barbecue on saturday!

My parents and me are going to her house for it!

We’ll have food, and a couple of drinks too. Should be fun!

I havent been to my sisters house in about a year! I rarely go there! She always comes to mine, or my parents house.

Imagine it? How weird is it that I havent been!

Anyway, I’m gonna enjoy the day. The weather will be nice and super hot!

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Alexas thought of the day

If you treat others kindly, a few will respond with unkindness, or even take advantage of your kindness, but most will respond with kindness and friendliness. However, if you treat others unkindly, you can be quite certain that they will respond with harsh thoughts and actions.
Whatever you do, do with kindness.
Whatever you say, say with kindness.
Wherever you go, radiate kindness.
Jonathan Lockwood Huie

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I AM TAKING OUR BLOG OFF OF PRIVATE STATUS

OK, I TOOK US OFF PRIVATE. I AM GOING TO BE VERY HONEST HERE AS TO WHY WE FELT LIKE WE HAD TO GO PRIVATE WITH OUR BLOG. WE DIDNT SAY ALL OF THE REASONS IN THE POST WHERE WE SAID WE’D GO PRIVATE.
FIRSTLY WE HAVE EVERYONE WHO ASKED FOR ACCESS APPROVED, SO IF, FOR ANY REASON WE HAVE TO TAKE OUR BLOG PRIVATE IN THE FUTURE, THEN YOU’LL ALL STILL HAVE ACCESS TO IT. AND WONT NEED TO ASK FOR ACCESS AGAIN. SO WE CAN KINDA COME AND GO AS WE PLEASE GO PRIVATE AND BACK TO PUBLIC AS WE PLEASE, WITHOUT LOSING ANY OF OUR READERS!
BUT REALLY, WE MADE THIS SPACE TO RAISE AWARENESS OF DID, OF PTSD AND OF MENTAL ILLNESS. AND WE LOVE OUR SPACE. AND WE LOVE OUR FOLLOWERS AND READERS AND FRIENDS SO MUCH ON WP.
BUT…YES THERE IS A BUT.
SOME OF OUR FOLLOWERS NEVER INTERACT WITH US, THEY READ SILENTLY, THEY NEVER COMMENT, THEY NEVER LET US KNOW IF POSTS RESONATE WITH THEM, AND THATS A LITTLE DISCONCERTING IF I AM TOTALLY HONEST. IT MAKES US UNEASY AND FEEL UNSAFE TO HAVE NO INTERACTION BUT LOADS OF FOLLOWERS.
SO I AM ASKING, VERY NICELY, FOR OUR FOLLOWERS TO PLEASE OCCASIONALLY COMMENT, TO LET US KNOW YOUR THERE, YOU HEAR US, READ AND ARE BEING HELPED BY OUR POSTS, OR HOW OUR POSTS ARE IMPACTING YOU.
NOW THIS IS NOT GOING OUT TO OUR REGULAR COMMENTERS, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, WHO ALWAYS LEAVE US COMMENTS ON OUR POSTS, WE’RE NOT ASKING YOU, AS YOU ALREADY DO INTERACT ON A DEEP LEVEL WITH US.
BUT THIS IS ONE MAIN REASON WHY WE WENT PRIVATE AND WHY CAROL ANNE WANTED TO GO OFF THE RADAR.
THE SECOND REASON WAS SPAM AND SPAMMERS. THEY ARE SO IRRITATING AND ANNOYING. AND WE ARE SO TIRED OF HAVING LOTS OF SPAM COMMENTS IN OUR SPAM CUE TO REMOVE AND DELETE.
IT GETS SO OLD AFTER A WHILE. I KNOW WE CAN JUST DO IT BUT WE ARE SO TIRED OF IT. WE SHOULDNT HAVE TO SPEND OUR TIME WEEDING THROUGH STUPID SPAM COMMENTS.
THOSE ARE AND WERE OUR MAIN REASONS. WE ARE SORRY IF WE WORRIED ANY OF YOU. WE WILL GO BACK TO HAVING OUR BLOG PUBLIC FOR NOW AT LEAST. AND HOPEFULLY SOME OF OUR FOLLOWERS, THERE ARE 2600 OF YOU, WILL INTERACT MORE WITH US, AND NOT LURK AROUND SO MUCH JUST READING OUR POSTS.
LIZ

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Privatising my blog

hi guys
i will be setting my blog to private for a while possibly for good.
if you’d like to keep following along with me, please leave me a comment here.
And I will send you an invitation to follow along.
Leave your email address where I can reach you too ok?
Make sure it is one where you can be reached, and where I can send an invitation so you can follow me
You’ll have to accept the invite, to be approved.
I feel if I go private and only allow certain people to follow I can be more open, more free, free to discuss things that I cant discuss while the blog is public.
Im happy for anyone to request to follow me.
I hope some of my long time readers friends will follow, and if you havent ever commented but would still like to follow me then please let me know below or else if you dont feel comfy giving out your email address please email me at
carol.anne.johnson33@gmail.com
and let me know you’d like to keep following me.
put private blog in the subject line of the email.
thanks,
carol anne

FUCKIN HELL

WELL THERE GOES ANOTHER PEACEFUL NIGHT.
DAD GOT ANGRY AND THEN HE WENT OFF TO BED LEAVING MY MOM SITTING ON HER OWN WATCHING TV.
WHY DO WE DO IT? PUT OURSELVES IN THIS SITUATION?
THE SITUATION OF BEING TRIGGERED BY HIS ARGUING AND MOOD SWINGS?
ALL THIS BECAUSE I WAS MAKING TEA, AND HE DIDNT WANT ME TO DO IT, HE WANTED MY MOM TO MAKE IT FOR ME, SHE TOLD HIM I COULD DO IT MYSELF, AND THEN HE WENT OFF ON ONE BECAUSE HE SAID I’D LEAVE THE KITCHEN IN A MESS.
FFS! WHAT THE BLOODY HELL!
OK SO HES BEEN DRINKING, AND IS A LITTLE DRUNK, BUT SO WHAT IF I’D HAVE LEFT THE KITCHEN IN A BIT OF A MESS, WE’D HAVE TAKEN CARE OF IT IN THE MORNING.
TALK ABOUT OCD TRAITS!
EVERYTHING HAS TO BE JUST SO OR ELSE!
I FEEL SORRY FOR MY MOM, SHE HAS TO LIVE WITH THIS ON A CONSTANT BASIS, ON A DAILY BASIS EVEN.
LIZ

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Gratitude

today, i am feeling so thankful. i am thankful that i got to spend quality time with my mom. i am thankful for nitro. i am thankful for nice food to eat. that soup i had for dinner today was so amazing. i am thankful for my parents, i dont know where I’d be without them especially my mom. I am thankful for the nice weather, its so good to see the sunshine outside. we are meant to get up to 30 degrees c this coming week. I am thankful for books and reading. it gives me a world to escape into and helps me to learn interesting things that I otherwise might not know. I am thankful for my friends. Without all of you my life would be so much darker. I am grateful for you all every single day. I am thankful for a nice safe home to live in. I am also thankful for my health.
What are you thankful for today?
carol anne

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Sunshine blogger award

Hi guys 😀
the lovely and very sweet beckey from beckys mental mess has nominated me for an award, the sunshine blogger award.
Rather than do the whole award thing type the rules, nominate blogs, etc I am just going to answer her 11 questions that she has asked me.
So, here goes.

  1. Which do you prefer to watch, the Winter Olympic Games or the Summer Olympic Games, and why? The summer olympics, when I watch, because the summer is just a nicer time of year IMO.
  2. If you were to live by yourself [no outside contact], where do you prefer you live – the forest or the beach, and why? The beach! I love the ocean and its so peaceful, I’d be in heaven!
  3. If you were to choose a fictional character to sit and chat with, who might that be? Hmmm not sure, I dont read a lot of fiction, but maybe hmmm who? maybe someone like edward from the twilight series?
  4. Do you prefer to read, go to the movies, or watch TV on your day off? definitely I prefer to read!
  5. When you are nominated for any blogger award, how long does it normally take for you to answer, and create questions? usually a few days, to a week, sometimes I fall behind on my blog reading and answering.
  6. What one song always puts a smile on your face? cant hold us by mackelmoore!
  7. What do you fear in life [could include phobias]? bees, rats, mice, spiders, death.
  8. What advice would you give your younger self if you could? I would tell her to always be kind, because you never know what battles other people are fighting on the inside.
  9. If you could turn back the hands of time in your life, what would you have done differently, and why? I wouldnt have tried to kill myself, I think every day how lucky I am to have survived death so many times, as I tried multiple times to end my life.
  10. What is the wackiest outfit you ever wore in public [not including Haloween]? My Pj’s. I wore them out in the garden last week!
  11. Be honest now – did you find that I had difficulty thinking of questions to ask you, fine people? No, definitely not! These were thought provoking, you did well becky! xo

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