May day

Hi and happy May day to all!

For me this is a tough day. I was abused very badly on this day for many years.

As some readers know I was in a cult when I was a child, and the cult used this day to torture us.

It was horrific what they put us kids through.

But I survived, I am alive, and I am glad I made it.

Many times, I thought I wasn’t going to make it.

This year I am celebrating my life, and how far I’ve come.

It definitely hasn’t been an easy ride.

I am still with my parents but I’ll be heading home this afternoon. Mom is coming with me for a couple of hours. She wants to get out of the house for a few hours.

The weather is beautiful today. It is sunny and bright and gorgeous.

I do feel sad, and a little bit strange.

I feel kind of foggy and dissociated.

Probably it is my alters letting me know they are struggling.