This year

2 months gone
how this year
is flying by
cant quite
believe how fast
it is going
whizzing by
in the blink of an eye
as we grow older
time seems to
speed up
and before we know it
another year
will have rolled by
we’ll be another year older
and another year wiser
we hope

Book review: Please let me go by caitlinn spencer

Ok so I’ve just recently finished the book called, please let me go which is by caitlinn spencer. Caitlinn is from the UK, and her book is her personal memoir, her personal story of being groomed and then sex trafficked by gangs of Pakistani men. All this because she was white, and this is what these gangs do to white girls. Caitlinns story started when she was just 14 years old, and she was out of school, and answered an AD in the newspaper looking for models. It started from there, and she was psychologically and systematically abused by a man who was selling her for sex. He controlled her in every way, even going so far as to rape her in her home, in her parents bedroom. When she was 15 she got pregnant as a result of the abuse she was enduring, and this man, her groomer, took her for an illegal abortion. After about a year of controlling her and grooming her, he then sold her on to the Pakistani gangs. These gangs sodamised and raped her on a continuous basis. they’d come to her home and pick her up in taxi’s, they’d take her to hotels, they’d abuse her in car parks, in taxi’s etc. She wasn’t able to say no to them, because her psychological scars ran so deep from being controlled by that first man who groomed her. Her parents knew something, and turned a blind eye to it. How parents can do that is beyond me. They should have protected her, but instead they kicked her out at 16 and she had to go live in a hostel where she was vulnerable and more horrific things happened to her. Over the years she tried to go to psychiatrists, and professionals for help, but they had her down as working as a prostitute, and nobody helped her, they just diagnosed her as having bipolar, bpd, and gave her meds and left it at that. The abuse went on for over a decade. She had 11 pregnancies, only 2 of her pregnancies went full term, and the rest of her babies were either aborted or miscarried. She tried to escape to Australia a few times, but during one of her Australian visits she ended up working as a prostitute. So really she was back in an abusive situation again. Years later she tried to go back to Australia and apply for a visa and residency there to keep her girls safe from harm, but she was refused. In the end she got out of the abuse, and her story is a really powerful read. I would highly recommend it. Its shocking, and will shock you to your core. Some of the things that happened to her are horrendous. I can relate though having gone through similar abuse in my childhood and teens. Nothing shocks me, but it may shock you if you choose to read this book. These gangs were operating widely in the UK for years, grooming the most vulnerable kids, and then going on to abuse them horribly. They were found out though, their activities were detected, and subsequently some of these men were arrested and charged. I am glad that Caitlinn told her story. And I am glad I read it. She is very brave, and a warrior and survivor in every sense of the word.

If you want to read this book its available in audio from audible, on amazon in paperback or on kindle.

Book review: Survivors, by Maggie Oliver

I just finished an amazing book. It was a long book, over 10.5 hours in audio. But it is so worth it, I highly recommend it to everyone!
the book is called survivors, and is written by maggie oliver.
It is the story of the child abuse scandal in rochdale in manchester in the UK, this was a huge case, it was where white girls were being groomed and sexually abused and exploited by pacastani and asian men, the men were grooming the girls first, and then abusing them.
Maggie was a detective working on the case. The story centres mainly around one family who went through the abuse, it centres on a mother and her two girls, and the majority of the book is about them.
but during the story, maggie also talks about her own life, her life story is intertwined within the book also. She openly talks about losing her husband to bowel cancer, about losing her grandaughter, and about her grief.
She also talks about her training to become a police officer, and about the different jobs she worked on while she was a police officer.
And, she doesnt shy away from the bad side of being a police officer either. She talks about how she was bullied when she first started, and then as the rochdale case was going on, she talks about how she found things done during the case to be wrong, she had a lot of misgivings about how it was being handled. But nobody would listen to her. No one in the police was taking her seriously.
At the end of the book she talks about her time on celebrity big brother, and about the tv show that was made depicting the rochdale case.
Its a fascinating story, and once you start it, you’ll be hooked, just like I was.
The book is definitely a page turner!
Its available on audible, on kindle, and in paperback.
I give the book 5 stars!

Random thoughts post christmas

i’m dreaming of a white christmas
a bright christmas
a quiet christmas
with no interruptions
as i sit reading
no screaming kids
just silence
as i sip
on my coffee
and sit here
having worked a shift
on friendly call
not all my clients answered
so i worry
are they ok?
i say to myself
I’ve done my best
Happy christmas to me
Except now its the 26th
But christmas music still plays on tv
Its nice to hear it
Makes me feel so happy
Anxiety looms though
Not far away
Its right here
Making a home
In my heart and mind
And I try
in vein
to get rid
of my anxious thoughts
and I remember
All the good cheer
and nice christmas
we have had
Together, as a family
Now, thats what keeps me going
I keep thinking
About the nice day yesterday
and I keep hoping
That my anxiety is going to disappear
Really soon

A good read!

Hi guys! I have been watching the irish book awards tonight. I love books so this was right up my street!
One of the books that won an award was the book overcoming by vicky phelan.
Vicky phelan is a woman who got cervical cancer, and she blew the whistle on the cervical check scandal, over 200 women in ireland got wrong smear test results and were wrongly diagnosed, and they all ended up with cervical cancer because of it.
Overcoming tells her story. Its a fantastic read and I highly recommend it. Its in print and on audible as well.
If your looking for your next good read, pick this book up!
After she won the award tonight she gave an interview and she’s like a breath of fresh air! This woman campaigned and took the medical profession to court, won her case, but she’s terminally ill and we should not forget that!
She’s now on a trial medication and so far it is working for her. But she’s slowly dying.
If you read any book this year, please read vickys book.

#Socs: Oh fiddlesticks!

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is oh. Use it as a word or find a word that starts with oh. Bonus points if you start and end with oh. Enjoy!

Oh. My. God!
Can I say it again?
Oh. My. God!
I’m just like, will I ever get my assignment done?
Its Saturday! College work is not what I want to be spending my saturday afternoon on!
I’d rather be spending my time with friends!
Or relaxing with a good book!
Instead I am preparing a presentation! Ug sigh!
At least I have pepsi! I had to come over to my own house to prepare the presentation, and I have no milk, so couldnt even make a coffee!
Well as you can imagine I am not best pleased at that fact!
I need coffee! At least there is one good thing, when I am done and go back to mom and dads, mom will have my dinner ready for me!
We’re making cottage pie, topped with turnip! Turnip instead of mashed potato! The healthy route!
Its a slimming world recipe! I am looking forward to trying it out!
Well better get back to work now! Adios for a while!