I’ve had very little sleep. I forgot to take my sleep med last night. By the time I remembered it was too late to take it. If i did I’d have been very groggy this morning so I decided against it. I went to bed around 10 PM. I was going to read but then I didnt, I was too tired. I slept for about 2 hours but woke up at around 1 AM. Couldnt get back to sleep then no matter what I did. I hate being up in the middle of the night because all my fears come up then, I eventually got back to sleep but had nightmares. Really graphic and scary dreams which left me feeling overwhelmed and incredibly sad. I eventually got up at 7 AM. Made some tea and checked email. At around 7:30 I decided to go back to bed and try to sleep a little more. And I did until my notification for taking my meds went off at 8:30 AM. I just took my meds. For some reason I feel so lethargic this morning. I suppose its tiredness frol lack of sleep. This cant go on, I cant go on running on very little sleep. I’ll definitely have to take the halcion tonight. I took it on Thursday night and it worked like a dream. I only have 5 tablets until I go to the chemist and pick up my script. The weekend team are due to call me this morning and then come out to see me. Karen my nutritionist is working this weekend, I know that because she told me on Thursday. She said if she could she’d try to get my file and try to be the one who calls out to see me. I hope she does call out. It will be the first time any of them have been in my house. I am nervous of that. My house is my space and I am very choosy as to who I allow in to it. I hope they dont say I need to go to the hospital. My mood is very low and I am feeling very suicidal a lot of the time. I am trying not to have to go to the hospital. We shall see though.