Rip grandad, gone but never forgotten

Today marks four years since my grandad passed away. That time has flown by. I cant believe he’s been dead four years. It sure doesn’t feel like it.

I still miss him every day. He was my moms dad. A huge part of my life. I think of him every day, thoughts of him are never far away.

He always wanted me to try to lose weight. Now that I am, I pray to him to look down on me, and keep me motivated. I think he does. I feel his presence around me on most days.

Rip grandad, bill. You were such an inspiration to me.

I will leave you all with the song we played at his funeral, at the crematorium. Its a fitting song. He was 80 years old when he died.

Rest in peace, I love you always!

I am 2 years hospital free!

Today marks 2 years that we’ve been out of the psych ward! No admissions in the past 2 years! This feels awesome! I feel really great!
I cant believe I have gone so long without an admission! I am going to do something really fun today to celebrate! I might even treat myself to something nice like icecream, or a latte, or something that I dont have often now that I am dieting!
This feels like a huge accomplishment! A huge success!
There was a time when hospital was all I knew! I was in there more than I was out!
Thank god those days of admissions are behind me!
I can never say never, because there may come a time when we need to be in there, but for now I am out and I am so thankful!
And thanks too goes to eileen and dr. barry, without them I couldnt have done it! I wouldnt have had any stability at all without them! So a big thanks goes to them too!
So happy 2 year anniversary to me!
Heres to another 2 or 5 or 10 years hospital free!


Anniversary of the guide dog!

Did you know?
That today is the Anniversary of the Seeing Eye Dog? The first seeing eye dog, Buddy, was given to his owner, Morris Frank, on this day in 1928. Buddy helped Mr. Frank fight for the rights of people with special challenges, including the right to bring service animals into restaurants, onto airplanes, and other places where pets are not typically allowed. Buddy met Presidents Hoover and Coolidge, and when she died in 1938, the New York Times ran an obituary honoring her impact on American compassion and civility.

Did you know? March 21st

Did you know?
That today is the anniversary of the Selma Freedom March? On March 21, 1965, one of the most significant civil rights marches took place as more than 3,000 civil rights demonstrators led by Martin Luther King Jr. marched from Selma to Montgomery, Alabama. The historic march raised awareness of the difficulties faced by black voters, and the need for a national Voting Rights Act.


All the news thats fit to print

Did you know?
That today is the All the News That’s Fit to Print Anniversary? On February 10, 1897, the New York Times slogan first appeared: All the News That’s Fit to Print. It was the winner of a contest organized by its new owner, Adolph Ochs. Trivia buffs: some of the entries included “Clean, crisp, bright, snappy; read it daily and be happy;” “Aseptic journalism up to date;” “Full of meat, clean and neat;” and “You do not want what the New York Times does not print.”


Therapy milestone

This month we’re celebrating six years with eileen. Wow! Feels like we’ve been seeing her forever!

I remember that first session with her, I remember walking in, and meeting eileen for the first time. We’d previously spoken on the phone, and emailed, but meeting her that first time, I honestly wasnt sure I’d stick it out.

I’m so glad I did though. Therapy has taught me so much about myself selves. It has given me so much food for thought. I have learned so much about us as a system, I have learned what a secure attachment to someone feels like, most importantly of all I have learned what safety is, and how to trust. I have also learned that when she leaves she’s not gone, she’ll be back again.

I love our therapist, she is one of the most amazing people. I love her warmth, kindness, passion for her job, her caring nature, I just love everything about her.

Heres to six long years of ups and downs, hard work, fun, happiness and sadness, most of all six years of learning, and healing.
carol anne


A special anniversary date

Today August 24th is my grandads birthday. If he was alive he would have been 85. He died 3 years ago though.

I still miss him every day. Today I will think of him. And I will send a quick prayer up to him up in heaven, to let him know I miss him and love him.

RIP grandad bill, you were one in a million.
carol anne