Well it’s that time again, time to go get weighed in. Another week has come and gone. Wonder who will do this week? Not looking promising, I’m not sure I’ll be down anything because I had to lose some weight that I gained while I was away in the UK last week.
I’ll be very happy if I’m down even 1 pound. That would be great, here’s hoping, hoping for the best.
Wish me luck, guys
I did it! the presentation was awesome! It went really well! I was very pleased with it.
I wont have my results for 2 weeks. I think I did ok though! Everyone seemed to like it, and my lecturer said I did well so thats positive at least.
The main thing is I did it, I wasnt too nervous, and I am happy with it.
Thats what counts!
today in therapy we had a review. a review of where we’re at. of what is working and what isnt working. we reviewed our work so far, we usually do these reviews once a year. just so eileen can get a feel for where we’re at, and what needs to be worked on and how we need to progress.
she asked me what did i feel we needed to focus on for the next little while. i had a list of four things. they were food and weight, anxiety, sleep and dealing with dissociation.
i told her that i feel that sometimes we skip from topic to topic and its a little disconcerting. i said i feel that sometimes we start working with someone or on something and then we get sidetracked because something else or someone else needs attention and the thing we had started working on is forgotten about or pushed to the side for another time. i want to try to change this.
she agreed that maybe we need to structure sessions more. contract to work on one thing at a time for a while. i said maybe if insiders knew and had reassurance that we’d get to their stuff that it might not be so hard for them to hold their stuff. they’d know we’ll get to them eventually.
we talked about the dissociation. eileen said that even though we still dissociate a lot, that we’ve gotten much better at being able to come back, and i said thats pretty much down to her, she catches it when it happens. she asked me how i felt about her noticing, i said I was glad she does.
some of the young insiders didnt like that we were doing a review, they started panicking when we started it. they were afraid of things changing, they dont do well with change, they want things to pretty much stay how they are.
Eileen reassured them that this was just to help her to help us better, and that seems to satisfy them, and they were calm again after a little while.
We talked about what if therapy was done, how would I feel and what would that look like, at this point she had me use the pulsers and we worked with the feelings for a little while, I find it hard to describe the feelings though. I’m just not good at that at all. She was really helpful to me though and she noticed after a while that doing the work with the pulsers was starting to upset me so she turned them off.
I’m glad we did the review today though. I found it helpful to do that with her.
Tomorrow morning I have to get up in front of my class at college and give a presentation. I am presenting on schizophrenia.
I am so nervous about it. I think it will go ok. It should be fine. I am going to write out some notes tonight that I can use, I am not using powerpoint, I am going to use braille notes instead.
Everyone else in my class did theirs last week. But I couldnt as I was in the UK so special arrangements were made for me to do it this week instead.
Please can you all send positive vibes, thoughts to me for tomorrow. If you pray please pray it all goes off ok.
I just weighed myself on my mum scales. I couldn’t resist.
Looks like I lost what I gained while I was in England. I’m so happy about that.
Hopefully by the time I go to slimming world on Wednesday evening I will be down another pound or two on top of that. If I am, I will be thrilled
Hope I can do this, fingers crossed.
Healing does not mean going back to the way things were before, but rather allowing what is now to move us closer to God.