URGES AND BRAIN DUMP

I FEEL IT THE URGE TO CUT THE URGE TO HURT MYSELF
IT IS STRONG AND I AM WEAK
IT IS THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, NOBODY IS UP
I AM ALONE. ALONE AND SCARED. AND WISHING I COULD BE NUMB.
JUST NUMB THE PAIN AWAY, ITS THE ONLY WAY TO SURVIVE RIGHT NOW
LIZ

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relax with some tea

yes thats me. relaxing with a cuppa.
im starting to slip. my mood is going low. i feel crappy.
i need a hug. wish someone was here to hug me. mom and dad are both here, but they are both busy. anyway i wouldnt ask them to sit with me. i’d feel awkward doing that.
i am about to burst out crying. my mind is racing. my head is pounding, i am about to explode in to uncontrollable tears.
i can feel others close by. littler insiders. they are panicking. they are sad. they are small and vulnerable.
i want to say i will take care of you. and i will. but who will take care of me?
carol anne

Poetry

staring blankly
she starts to think
starts to tremble
shake uncontrollably
flashes engulf her mind and body
flashes from the past
she begins to cry
silent tears
silent screams
nothing escapes her lips
quivering, shaking
trembling, she pulls her arms tightly around her body
she waits for the tornado to disapate
it does, eventually
as she lies on her bed
she wonders why
and softly cries

Em. Struggling

hhihih it me Emily
I’m struggling tonight. I feel so gross. I feel unlovable. fat. ugly. and I hate how I feel. and I hate my body.

it disgusts me. I hate how I look. I know we are losing weight. and people have noticed it. commented that we are looking fab. I don’t see it though.

I just feel so sad. sad and lonely and unloved and unseen in my struggle.

love
Emily age 12

Poetry

she sits and stares
nothing in her eyes
but fear
fear of the night
the dark
and other parts
they run rampant
inside her mind
they are confined
inside her head
full of dread
feeling a mixture
of numbness
panick
and fear
wanting to disappear
young parts cry
they want to fly
fly away
to a new day