She’s so funny…

my sis is hilarious. i mean it. a total feather brain. this was our conversation about 20 minutes ago.

Laura: I didnt get to sit down until 9:30 last night, took ages to get the kids to bed. I was so exhausted when I sat down, I had a cuppa, then I went to bed to read my book.
Me: What are you reading?
Laura: Its called one wish. Its fiction.
Me: whose the author?
Laura: Author, I dont know, I’m just reading it!

lol…I bet she cant even remember what the storyline is!
I didnt ask her as she was rushing out the door to pick Lauren up from school!


feelings bubble
bubble up fast
i wonder to myself
how long can it last?
when will i be free?
when will someone see?
see me?
see my pain
see the gravity of these feelings
see the shame i feel
the horror of what i’ve gone through
when can i shout it from the rooftops
when can i say, me too?
who will listen then?

Acts of self care

I’ve been having a really relaxed friday. I have done a ton of self care things today. Heres what I’ve done so far to take care of myself.

ate a healthy and nourishing breakfast

relaxed in a hot bubble bath

had cuddle time with nitro

read my bood for an hour

things I intend to do for the rest of today

eat a healthy dinner

Watch a tv show or movie of my choice

Call a friend

Color my hair

I think I’ve done pretty well. Happy Friday everyone. What have you done today to be kind to yourself?

hi frum darina

hi hi evryone
i hapy today! kno why?
cuz the bigs got us pizza! and dat make me so hapy.
it is a meat feast pizza
it sooo good i had it before and i likd it
so we going have it dis wekend wen we wach x factor
dat wil be cool i fink!
i love x factor cuz i love singin
i wanna be famous some time all ovr yotube
hahaha i do mak videos so im alredy famous ha
dos anone else lik singin
or wachin x factor or the voice
darina i six


1/3 cup margarine
1 1/4 cups flour
3 tablespoons sugar
2 1/2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 egg, beaten
1/2 cup raisins
4 to 6 tablespoons half and half
1 egg, beaten
Margarine, softened
Strawberry preserves
Cut 1/3 cup margarine into mixture of flour, sugar, baking powder and salt. Stir in 1 egg, raisins and just enough half and half until dough leaves side of bowl. Knead on lightly floured board 10 times. Roll dough 1/2 inch thick. Cut with 2 inch cookie cutter. Place on ungreased cookie sheet; brush with 1 egg. Bake at 400 degrees for 10 to 12 minutes, until golden. Split scones; spread with margarine and strawberry preserves.
Makes 15 scones.

update on dads health

dad got a letter today in the mail from his gastro doc. she wants to do the test where he has to drink barium is that how you spell it? anyway, he has to drink it and then do some other stuff, to see how his bowel muscles work. the thing is, he’s tried to have this test done twice already. and they didnt do it because he was in a flare up at the time. it hasnt gone away. he’s been in a UC flare up for weeks now. does anyone know if UC flare ups actually stop? or are they constant? i wasnt sure. anyway. he is supposed to have this done on november 2nd. he wants mom to call them today, again, typical man cant call himself to talk to them but yeah, he asked mom to call to see if they really want him to come in or if they just made an error in sending out the letter.
whatever happens, i hope his flare ups lessen soon. he’s in an awful amount of pain. he’s also supposed to start injections for his brittle bone, he takes meds already for it but the doc wants him to also be on injections. he hasnt started them yet, and when i asked him this morning if he thought he should ring his doctor, he was like no. so where do you go from there?
sigh. men!

A friends birthday

so last night my friend maeve from the basement club called me. it was out of the blue. like i see her a lot, but she doesnt call me a lot outside of when we see one another at the basement club. so it was a nice surprise.

she said it was another members birthday on Saturday. her name is Roz. and there is a party in a restaurant in the city centre. a group of members organised it. and did i want to come.

of course i said yes i did. i love a good party. and to be thought of was so nice. to be included. it feels so good. so i’m going to go.

it will make for a nice saturday afternoon. i will get her a card today and some lottery tickets. she wouldnt be a great friend of mine, maeve is more friendly with roz than I am, but I know her, and I like her.

so now I have weekend plans for saturday. yay.