thinking bout having a mom, and adoption

this is alicia. i am 9 years old. tonight i’ve been thinking. about having a mom, and about adoption.
it makes me so very sad that i cant be adopted by dr barry or eileen. its really all i want. they are both so nice and if i could choose a mom i would want one of them as my mom. i’m so jealous of their kids.
then i feel bad for being jealous and whining and always asking them if they can adopt me when they’ve already said no! the answer never changes! but i wish it would!
my bio mom only talks to carol anne because she thinks carol anne is our host, shirley. carol anne is 19 so can act like a 35 year old and so our bio mom doesnt actually have to know its her at all. our bio mom isnt very accepting of the did stuff even though Dr. barry told her about it and explained it to her in simple terms.
i so wish our mom was different, and liked me, knew me, accepted me, got it about the did. it hurts my heart that i dont really have a mom and i never will. its so hard to be a kid when you dont have a mom.
dr. barry and eileen get it and that is why i want them as my mom. i would never have to worry then cuz i’d always be taken care of.

A Man’s Story of His Wife’s DID.

A Little Of This And That

To play push the wave lengths on the bottom of the image and it will take you directly to the site.

In my opinion this is a good representation of DID and what it’s like for the other person in the relationship and that it’s possible to have a life with DID.  As someone with DID, I think this man is a truly remarkable human being.  He accepted his wife just the way she was.  What more can a person ask for then to be accepted for who you are?

Hope this sheds some light on the topic of DID.

Feel free to ask questions.

Regards,

Kay and co.

View original post

Meltdown

I’m having a complete meltdown. Doing a practice run of my exam and cant seem to grasp the formulas. Feeling like I’ll fail the exam on Wednesday. Oh god I hate this feeling, part of me knows I wont fail all I have to do is think things out before answering any question. The other part of me is completely irrational and my mind is conjuring up all kinds of senarios. Sometimes I really hate my mind. No matter how much I try to learn these formulas off they just dont stick in my head. Sigh. Someone tell me it will be ok!
Carol anne

Christmas jokes for the little insiders

Q. What do you get if you cross mistletoe and a duck?
A. A Christmas Quacker.

Q. What do call Santa when he stops moving?
A. Santa Pause!

Q. Where does a snowman keep his money?
A. In a snow bank.

Q. Why do mummies like Christmas so much?
A. Because of all the wrapping!

Q. What goes in a chimney red and comes out of it black?
A. Santa Claus.

Q. What’s white and red and goes up and down and up and down?
A. Santa Claus in an elevator!

Q. How do you scare a snowman?
A. You get a hairdryer!

Q. What do they sing under the ocean during the winter?
A. Christmas Corals!

Q. How much did Santa pay for his sleigh?
A. Nothing, it was on the house!

Q. What is invisible and smells like milk and cookies?
A. Santa’s burps!

Q. What do snowmen do on Christmas?
A. Play with the snow angels.

Q. Who says “Oh, Oh, Oh!”?
A. Santa walking backwards!

Q. What nationality is Santa Claus?
A. North Polish.

Q. How did the sheep say Merry Christmas?
A. “Fleece Avoided.”

Q. What do you call a Santa that sleeps all the time?
A. Santa snores!

Q. Why was Santa’s helper depressed?
A. He had low ELF-esteem.

Q. What’s a good holiday tip?
A. Never catch snowflakes with your tongue until all the birds have gone
south for the winter.

Q. What Christmas carol is a favorite of parents?
A. Silent Night.

Q. What do you call a snowman in the summer?
A. A puddle!

Q. What do snowmen eat for breakfast?
A. Frosted Flakes.

Q. Why does Santa have three gardens ?
A. So he can go HOE HOE HOE.

Q. Why did Sponge Bob have a great Christmas?
A. Because he kissed a Krabby Patty.

Q. What does Santa clean his sleigh with?
A. Comet.

Q. What do you get when you deep fry Santa Claus?
A. Crisp Kringle.

Q. What do you get when you cross a snowman and a vampire?
A. Frostbite.

The weekend always goes by so fast

I cant believe my weekend is almost over. It doesnt seem like it was that long ago that it started. I’ve had a pretty good weekend. Friday was our college class christmas party. We went for a chinese which was really nice. Yesterday my PA came in the morning. We cleaned the house, then went to a local shopping mall and looked around some stores. I ended up buying some nice pajamas and a bottle of perfume. I also got my sisters christmas present. I got her a nice dress bag for when she goes out, a bottle of tommy girl perfume, 2 vouchers for 2 different stores, and a bottle of baileys. I never ended up buying groceries yesterday because I had some food and I need to use it up so I decided to not get any. I mailed out the last of my christmas cards at the post office. Then after we did all that we went for lunch. We had fast food, I had a kebab and some taco fries. After that I went to mom and dads like I always do on Saturday. Just relaxed for the rest of the afternoon and decided to have an early night last night. I slept well which was nice. Not doing much today Sunday. My sister texted me earlier asking if I’d like to go see a hypnotist on January 16th with her and our mom. Our mom doesnt know about it yet as our sisters giving her the ticket as a christmas gift. I am not sure how it will be as I think its probably very visual but I’ll go anyway. Tonight we’re going to visit my aunt. I’m going to have a few drinks even though I’ve college in the morning. This is my last week of college before christmas. Technically we arent supposed to get our holidays until December 22nd but if everything gets handed in this week we might get them on Friday. That would be nice. Nitro was sick yesterday but he’s ok again now. He threw up yesterday morning. Not sure what he ate or why he threw up but he got over it pretty quickly.

And the truth hurts

I am bad
I am wrong
I am ugly
I am dirty
And the truth hurts
It was painful
It was disgusting
It was devastating
It was the worst feeling in the world
And the truth hurts
He violated me
He bullied me
He took my innocence away
He stole everything from me that night
My whole childhood
And the truth hurts